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Jan 2017 · 532
origin of the word love
arielle Jan 2017
your voice sounds like hospital discharge papers,
like the elevator tone on the top floor of a 20-story building,
like hallelujah at a pastor’s wedding,
like my mother winning custody in october.
i don’t know what love is,
i only know that love is four letters short of it’s synonym, intimacy.
four letters short of fondness, yearning.
i know the human heart beats 115,200 times per day.
combined, we are 230,400 heart beats.
combined, we are traumas,
ten finger nails,
shattered glass in the kitchen,
one hundred baby prayers,
and too many sympathies.
where do you want to leave your scars tonight,
your place or mine?
they can sleep on the couch.
i’ll make eggs in the morning.
i don’t know what love is,
but when my baby niece was bellied in my sister, she was kicking, and kicking, and even when the bruises surfaced,
we called this good.
sometimes love leaves marks to show signs of life,
stomached and not yet born.
like this-
like you.
it's been awhile since i've posted, so here's this
Mar 2016 · 334
Untitled
arielle Mar 2016
you're a lot like a thunder storm and I'm the medical building on 4th st. N. taking in car accident victims.
if you look around you, you can see the damage you've done, the trees that have bent over backwards in your direction, and the houses that fell towards you.
there are casualties, and I'm trying to grab the bandages as fast as I can.
A fire is starting in the back patient room, and you're ten feet away.
I have no idea how to respond, so I choose to let the building go, I choose to burn in your favor, I choose to unclench my fist from the bandages.
arielle Feb 2015
The days you weren't sick were called holidays.
We packed your things, and moved to the living room.
Play scrabble on the love seats, and jut our jaws out to the long lettered words,
Put them back in place, only a little more droopy
when they sounded sad.

On the days you weren't sick,
We had celebratory radio talk shows talking holy through the cracks in our house.
When they told us about war, we turned the station.
Stayed silent in our own bomb shelter,
Stayed unaware, yet somehow experienced.

On the days your bones mimicked the floorboards in the ways they bent and chipped and creaked,
we packed your things and moved to the bedroom,
the one your mother slept in as a child,
the one our linens grew over to forget the trace of hers.
Your knuckles, neatly overlapping the curvature between your fingers,
Your eyes closed and breath inhaled.
I would count your heartbeats the same way I would count the declining degrees of your temperature:
Each one to be acknowledged, each one to be thanked, each one more than the one before.

The day you got really sick, we did nothing and you sat by the window singing church songs.
Mostly just whistles of oxygen escaping your lungs to let me know you were still there.
You existed only in that spot for a week until we packed your things
And moved to the hospital floor
for people like you.

On the day the nurse brought me flowers and apology letters,
I played scrabble in the living room,
Kept the radio on loud.
I remembered the ways you ached
And how long you had to stay that way
before we got comfortable with the long words and the war stories and finally compared them to our own.
arielle Oct 2014
When you asked me about the future,
I don't tell you what kind of dress I'll wear
at your funeral
and I don't tell you it's probably the same one I wore at my best friend's dance recital
in 10th grade.
You picked up a sunflower and twirled it by it's stem and I want to say,
"There. She was doing that on stage. Mid October, her dance recital."
I remember I clapped the loudest.

I asked you a series of questions like what is your favorite type of flower?
Which music hits your heart the worst:
Slow classics or a fast attempt at fitting love into verses?
Remind me again, what was your brother's name?
Did God touch you more than she did?

You ask again about my future,
I tell you about my past,
how I once cut my hair at age six and hid it low in the trash can before Mom came home.
My grandmothers laundry shack and cinder blocks in front.
I tell you I know things about my father that I shouldn't.

You, picking the flower apart now, ask again what I'll be doing in 10 years,
and I reply:
It's a black dress. Please, please, don't make me wear it.
I posted this on my other account as well but I need feedback because I havent written in a very long time. So I'm posting it on here too.
arielle Aug 2014
2012: it took me two years to throw your shirt away and forget your phone number. you should know this much. i look at my life now-crooked sentences, shaking hands,-you are not apart of it. i bleed honestly or i don't bleed at all. this is good. this is good.

2013 (march): all i know is the word stay. stay. stay. stay. kind of like a heartbeat. kind of like a story you forget after telling it too many times.

2013 (september): i hope you're okay. i hope you forgot how to spell my name while writing suicide notes. i am still sorry.

2014 (february): i dont remember how to love you. maybe we are okay.
Aug 2014 · 754
skin to skin contact
arielle Aug 2014
it is 11:26 at night and i want skin to skin contact.
i want your hips and my hips
your thighs and my thighs,
your lips and my lips.
i want parallel lines to be demonstrated with our bodies.

it is 11:27 at night and i suddenly want to know how you move,
how your joints ache, which scars you hide
and which scars you aren't afraid of talking about anymore. i want to know about the collection of bruises you have.
what makes you sigh and which kind of sighes you sigh under bed sheets and how they differ from your sad sighs.

it is 11:31 at night and i have no idea how to tell you that i want my teeth to grasp your lip and my fingers touching the small of your back, the arch in your muscles and your breath.

it is 11:33 and i promise this is not a *** poem.
arielle Aug 2014
I had another dream about my soulmate last night
blonde hair shoulder length, warm body, soft touch, impossible to talk down from anything.
she touched me with her hands and her mouth and i can still feel it when i am awake.

her legs, my waist, her fingers, my arms, our love.
it was running through my veins making errands before i could even open my eyes.

when i wake up, i am reminded of my love and how it will be a cross country swimmer some day to fight the distance.
our hearts will swim oceans and maybe they will drown but they will still beat even in death.
i am reminded of his short hair, still with a shining tint of blue from recent change of scenery. i know him.
we cannot touch, we cannot agree, we cannot understand each others habits.

there is over 1,000 people we have not loved yet and one could be blonde hair shoulder length, warm body, soft touch, impossible to talk down from anything.

but now, i am loving him and for however long it may last, i want to love him through it all.
arielle Aug 2014
i am sun stroked notebook pages set out
to dry on the grill.
dry skin and chapped lips dipped in sugar,
skin so white until flesh red
and the sun hid itself until the morning.
i am todays and tomorrows mistakes, clothes soaked in mud and forgiveness.
apologies on the playground,
rough housing in the living room and hurricanes in july.
i am the cup of water i put at the side of the house in appreciation of evaperation
to show mom how hot it was
(i wanted the hose on outside. she said no).
i am orange trees by the ditch, the swing set my friends played on and baby sitting kiera and brianna in the week days.
suddenly, i am fifteen years old and the clouds are on my shoulders,
the rain is tangled in my hair and i still know,
the sun will always find me in the morning.
arielle Aug 2014
i started writing about girls in my pre-teens
and never stopped.
i started writing about love after i lost all my baby teeth and never stopped.
i started writing about your knee caps on the edge of couches, my fingers on your thighs
and oh man,
will it ever stop?
arielle Apr 2014
you had your pulse on the line, it went straight and then up north.
Hang up the phone if you're not going to say it.
I have open wounds from where the bullet hit
and chest pains from the phone calls.
I think we were running a hospital rather than a relationship,
maybe we're the casualties of a war breakout
because when we broke up,
i cracked my ribs under street lamps
in Florida
and my heart on tables in the class room.
You were burned into my poems like a forest fire
and I promise, there's no putting this one out.
And if I can't tell if this is love or just an airport terminal,
who's to say it's a fight in the first place?
We can't swim the ******* ocean without one of us drowning
and odds are, the other will be holding us down.
But we are not anchors, love, we are only
the after thought of someone who has been through this before.
We are faulted and we are not ashamed.
No, we are not ashamed that we are broken and we will remain this way.
Keep your hand up if you're ready to fall because you've already broken us down once,
let me do it again
and again and again
until we both know that this is only the airport terminal talking
and we have no room to say anything.
This is on my other account but i'm posting it here as well.
Mar 2014 · 1.4k
how to start a conversation
arielle Mar 2014
i don't know how
one million things get
broken all at once and i don't know how to fix
them either so please don't ask me
why i hate the sound of knuckles cracking
or why i can't sit still.

i identify as the sound of eyes closing and the breathing
i heard over the phone with my ex-girlfriend when we still
admitted we loved each other.
i don't take it back but i still wish i could.
i am someone who will repeat words without a trigger warning attached to them
like **** or dumb or sorry
and i will never stop apologizing for the things i say
when i am a woman and i don't care if you see me that way.

i have to understand that i cannot be two things at once,
i am either with it or without it
and i remember how you talked to me like we were
nervous and shaking and we were, i promise.
we were probably the closest thing to the fastest movements on earth,
we were probably in space too.

i don't know what i'm talking about,
all i know is that i am getting my wisdom teeth taken out in the morning
and i will be just fine,
thank you for asking.
i know that i will hold you in the future and
that's for **** sure.
i don't know where i went with this poem
Feb 2014 · 1.1k
with all do respect
arielle Feb 2014
you have to understand
that death sexually identifies as the
homewrecker in every relationship
and when i was 15,
i did not know what i homewrecker was
but i knew how many veins
you could see on her hand
and how many times she blinked while looking at me
and the number of freckles on her thighs.
i knew that she looked like nothing death wanted
to sleep with.
Feb 2014 · 335
little
arielle Feb 2014
i don't tell you
i love you
because it's not like that.
it's like you're a million
different stars
and it's going to take a while
to create constellations.
like that; exactly.
arielle Feb 2014
We made marks on our bodies
like iron to paper,
we burned with the ashes of sunlight and all the little things
you used to tell me at night,
I remember waking up so often just to hear your siren voice
and when the wind broke, it broke for good.
We were lovers, we were angels, we were nothing more than cracked jars
on coffee tables.
I know that we broke our spines bending over backwards for this one,
I know we hurt our wrists in the process,
I know we didn't make it but I promise you, we can rebuild what we broke.

You left and you flooded my veins,
I saw a hole in your heart, I saw my face in there somewhere
and I said lover, open your doors,
I'll break this down for you.
But it's closing and I can see the gaps healing perfectly,
I will rip the the flesh from my bones to keep you from recovering.
Somewhere I exist, somewhere my name is in your chest.
I saw you stitch it up and over again in the morning,
the water was in your hands.
We came with a shoval to burry our guilt in the dirt and
we leave in shapes of  broken glass,
I can fix this.

I hold my vows between my teeth,
look at them hanging.
I will rewrite them over until I have covered every inch of your skin.
Distance took a part of me and sailed in across the ocean,
I will write these vows to touch what I have not felt.
The water is dripping from your hands,
look what you've done to our lungs,
You've been screaming at the roadside,
I saw the tar in your blood.

But keep my name inside your throat
and let it sink into your skin,
I will reach inside and grab it when
you are draped in love from him.  

I loved you, it was etched into the trees,
I heard your voice inside the smoke
and caught your breath between the breeze.

I burned my fingertips writing this one.
this was on my other account which i do not use anymore so i'm just going to be reposting a lot.
arielle Feb 2014
I'm not sure how much of you I know yet.
I know that 75% of you is a river
while the remaining 25% of you remains unknown.
I am making you sound like a science text book.

The other day, I called you music, and flowers,
and everything else I could think of that
would grab your lips and make them curve upward
to smile.

I'm not good at writing poems for people
who have made my veins into a swimming pool
to backstroke through.
I'm not used to being warm like this.

I know that we can sometimes be identical and sometimes,
it's hard to convince you that you're breathing
but let me put it this way,
you are hurricane Katrina, the shredded buildings,
the ceramic plate my mother made for me through the aftermath.
When I was 15, it was hanging on the wall and fell
from a thunderclap. Yellow, with my name on it.
I have called you baby on an estimate of four times a day
and we are trying to fix it.

We will slow dance in the living room and
we will not notice the windows whistling
but what you do not know it sounds like a storm
but love, I hear you name through the cracks in the doors
when the rain sets in.

I haven't said much already.
Hurricanes are awful and you think you're more like the
sound the sky makes when it's upset.
But everyone likes the name Katrina anyway.
Metaphors don't get me anywhere but listen,
hold me like I am the only building you do not want to destroy.

— The End —