why is love so confusing
why am i always choosing
cant you just stop complaining?
am i ever good?
and you, feel like your not understood?
i need a break im not sure how much more
i
  can
            take

do you ever have to fight

just to keep someone off your mind

but at the end of the night thats the only one

you want to hold tight

Im drowning in tears
Consumed by my fears
Im seeing a bright light
I have lost the fight
I won't be coming home tonight

when tomorrow starts without me and im not there to see the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me i wish so much you wouldnt cry the way you did today while thinking of the many things we never got to say i know how much you love me as much as i love you and each time that you think about me i know you will miss me too but when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand that death came and called me and took me by the hand it seemed my place was ready far above and that i would have to leave behind the ones i dearly love but as i turned to walk away a tear fell from my eye for all of life i always thought i didnt want to die i had so much to live for so much left to do it seemed almost impossible that i was leaving you i thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bads i thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had if i could re live yesterday even just for a while i would say good bye and hold you till i saw that special smile
but then i fully realized that it could never be cause emptiness and memories would take the place of me and when i thought of all those things i might miss tomorrow i thought of you and when i did my heart was filled with sorrows o when tomorrow starts without me dont think we are far apart for every time you think of me i will be right there in your heart

The tears stream hot down my face you can not be replaced I just want to wrap you in a embrace but your gone with only memories and a empty place to fill your space as long as your pictures still live in my phone truly I'm not completely alone I hope you are in a better place until then I will be curled up in your place where we used to lay where we used to play where I watched you grow where I raised you I love you and nothing will change that. ~mimi my lost spirit

my dog has to leave today and no i am not okay!
I wish my best friend, I could hold you again.
No one knows the bond we shared and no dog could be compared
i remember all the memories we shared, no this isnt my choice
but no one will listen to me because i have such a little heard voice.
i promise you that i love you no matter what, you will always be
my
         beloved
                                mutt
~to my dog i had to give away mimi

Im depressed again
Not sure when it will end
Can't stand life i don't wanna fight
Just let me be don't question me
Especially if you can't see who I am I don't want to be

Life is crazy Im feeling quite hazy
The lights are blinding too many people dying
Pressure on my lungs it feels like I have been stung
Please help

i remember when we got her first she was young and wild she was just a child her claws too big for her paws and she began to get clumsy
i miss my big loveable dummy i remember how i would get mad and yell cause she got her hair all over my hoodie or she would tear my shoes apart but truly i loved her with all my heart i remember how i would hold her tight throughout the night she would lay at the foot of my bed and her paws would cradle her head i will never see her body's morning imprint or smell her scent i remember how she hugged me when she was scared and i would hold her there but now she is gone and i cant do anything i miss everything from her sweet eyes to her wild body pulsing and alive instead i visit her grave and i try to be brave cause my puppy wouldn't want to see her mom cry so i really try.

i love you mimi and i miss you dearly ~mimi my lost spirit