Inhale.
Exhale.
Inhale.
Exhale.
It takes too much thought to smell the flowers
Intricate waves of lavender and pollen
Tangled through my senses
Bees yonder, contemplating and stalling
Inhale.
Long Exhale.
Sigh of relief
A boulder lifted from my thoughts
Is this peace?
Or time that I'm glad I bought

SOMEONE LISTEN TO ME!
jus.... just for a second please
I yell and I scream and I...
am what you asked for, right?
I paint that pretty picture you requested
and still
AND STILL
I am overlooked
overshadowed by plastic
I just want to love and be loved
I dress up and I smile and I...
am what you prayed for right?
I sparkle in the sun with my pearly whites
and still
AND STILL
I an rejected
neglected by everyone
SOMEONE LISTEN TO ME!
I'm gonna do it... I'm going to...
be walked over and invisible and..
no one will even notice, right?

I'm not good at anything
I can't stay committed
If I'm not amazing at it I don't see the point
I'm a quitter and I admit it

I'm not good at expressing myself
I'm too short to really do anything athletic
I'm not good in front of an audience
And my creativity is kind of pathetic

My poems are... whatever
And my social skills kind of ****
I'm really just a push over
And I can't help someone if I really don't give a ****

My attention span is inexcusable
And my memory is nonexistent
I'm too shy to confront my fears
And I'm to insecure to be persistent

I'm not good at anything
I'm not noticed at all
I was once looked up to and praised
But now a shattered porcelain doll

Thrown away and forgotten

A hallow center with flesh around it
That's me
A porcelain doll waiting to be used
My analogy

Don't come back for me because of pity
Don't touch me
I don't need anything from you
I don't need anybody

I'm perfectly fine.

No words can express my HATRED
So much rage boils in my soul
Violently shaking from fierce emotions
Anger devouring me whole

No words can express my IRRITATION
Silence or I will soon snap
Strapped down by my fierce emotions
The clock times my awaited attack

No words can express how much I DESPISE
You, and only you
Sneakily you slip away the only that mattered to me
That moment you soon will rue

No words can express how much I LOATHE
You, and myself too
For letting you get away with it
For letting myself hold in all this animosity that is new

No words can express
No black or white magic can take it back
What YOU did
You, and only you...

The denial of my personality blooms
I have my own little world that is ran by shrooms
I only see what I saw
Child's play FREEZE but I thawed

The denial of my personality blooms
My real thoughts written in cocoons
Turned away from the blizzard
Snow cut down trees with plastic scissors

The denial of my personality blooms
Buried away with the voices in my king Tut tomb
Knocking at my door came the ghost of annoyance
With his partner, flaming with flamboyance

The denial of my personality blooms
I have my own little world that was taken over by shrooms
The unicorn of happiness lazily began to trot
Left with the taste of Oh My God