Why does life seem so meaningless
Why does it feel so hurtful yet painless?

It seems so vague
yet so understood
it is as sharp as a shard
yet it doesn't hurt when it cuts me through

Why does life seem so meaningless
Why does it feel so hurtful yet painless?

Words come out regardlessly
And scar me
Leaving behind bruises and marks
So poignant yet mild

Why does life seem so meaningless
Why does it feel so hurtful yet painless?

Hearing stories once untold
Bizzare hallucinations capture me
Dreams of loss and despair
Yet so bearable

Why does life seem so meaningless
Why does it feel so hurtful yet painless?

When life had me in shackles
I had known
that this was reality for sure,

Dreams once lit holistically
showered my life with love and compassion
they took me where there's serenity and peace,

But when arose the demons of terror
the nightmare of deceit and hurt
then came rushing in actuality,

Twas my life that had fallen apart
my soul that went in abyss
and my heart that was scarred,

I was blinded by superficiality
by the ugly lies that I was told
and the flamboyance of people,

It had then struck me
I was nothing but alone
oblivious of the dark secrets kept from me and the hate amidst this world.

Slowly and gradually I drift amidst my thoughts,
In depths and in extremes-
of an intensity, quite mere.
Could it be,
Or could it not,
the resonance of a vague sound,

From a distance it travels;
and calls me where there's peace and sanity,
Nothing less just-
The audible sounds of the wind;
Blown from beyond the coast to where i reside,
Whispering and confabulating with me,

In days of isolation or in days when in pain,
It soothes me and hums sweet melodies,
Always accompanied in joy or when in vain,
Knowing fully that I'd be deprived of a companion,
The winds call for me exterminating my despair,
Tis an endless friendship till the time I live.

I brush my hand over my
exposed, scarred flesh
over the tormented bumps
and reddish blue bruises

I was once so open
so free to spread my wings
be myself
and to flee to places that were forbidden

But it all ended
in despair
with my heart composed
and my body sold

I was so submerged
with my surroundings once
I was so devoted to my friends
that I got carried away and got hurt

I became fragile
and frail
to an extent where I'd say that
I am now vulnerable

I trusted so blindly
I cared so thoughtlessly
that I forgot how it'd feel to suffer
to bleed and die from the inside

Now all I'm left with is
pain and poignant memories of yesterday
bits by bits I join them together
yet I am lonely

I was once so happy
once so juvenile
it all was taken away
because I trusted the unexpected, what can I say?

Never did I think
that days like these
would come our way
where misinterpretation
and frustration
would lead to ending things

I never imagined
our fights so ferocious
your heart so cold
and your words so harsh
never thought that your demented thoughts
would lead to such imprudence

Never did I think
that days like these
would come our way
where misinterpretation
and frustration
would lead to ending things.

Could it be a call from the meadows
with the swirly sounds of the wind
and the teary dark clouds of monsoon

could it be the silence of the waves
with the radiance of the moon lit
casting a reflection of serenity

could it be the stormy nights of December
with the sound of destruction
and the deathly rattling of the windows.

And I found peace
in your prayers
And I find solace
when bowing and crying in front of you,

Every tear that I shed
all my regrets
all my sorrows
they all decayed the moment I called on to you,

The poignancy in my heart
the impossibilities
and the hurdles I faced
all I ever did was cry in front of you,

I felt like I sinned a lot
I was grieving
the pain I carried was so immense
And all I said was 'Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem' all that I had on my mind was no more.