oh
well what if i said
i just wanna play with your hair all day?
oh
im just saying that?

well what if i said
your laugh gives me life
im lying?

well what if i said
your freckles are like stars in a constellation
and i just want to connect them
im just being nice?

well what if i said
i love you?

looks like you dont have an answer
for that one

how can you have so much of something
that you don't have the slightest clue
what to do with it?
as if scarcity wasn't a thing
taking all the blue out of the sky
wrapping it in tinfoil,
crinkled up and
slam dunk! into the garbage
certainly an option
or maybe unwrap it
just a little
and enjoy it one small piece at a time
to savor it for what it is
in its purest form
or maybe
forget the foil
flip it onto the table
devour it savagely with your hands
quickly and violently
but would that destroy it?
would it cease to exist after such a massacre?
never, there's simply too much
should you nibble it?
or would you not get the full effect?

cardiac arrest
options
pros and cons
what if?
rumination
the forces that cooperate
to paralyze you
trapped in indecision

the sky turns gray
monochrome world
what a slip-up
it's all gone
forever

my minds in the gutter like everything else
locked away in a *****-stained jail cell
sticks and stones are strong enough to break the cardboard walls
but i could give a **** like i have brass *****
starts out with self-demolition
dont tell em **** about your own position
allergic to guilt
break out in hives like bee stings
common cold world no cure for these things
dont chew your food so you can choke
jim carreys mask obscured the joke
green with envy crayola box
silent bomb with a digital clock
till death do us part

anger
explosive
anger
with all the grace of a submarine through tar
unexplainable
it appears from nowhere
ready to shatter any good fortune the world decides to bestow upon me
sneaking up upon me slowly
lingers around forever and ever
haunting my existence
till death do us part
this
explosiveness
impulsiveness
frustration gathers
nowhere to escape to
imminent doom

frustration
forever
*******

just pure anger
I'm sorry

I'm so sorry...

bright stars glinting
scattered across a velvety night sky
it's whatever-o-clock pm
moving slowly
on a small cardboard conveyor
guiding you through the motions
autonomously. ..

all around you
this happens
you don't need to be here
an optional cog in a much grander cosmic machine
a machine which you cannot help but stare at
yet it never even gives you a passing glance
a mirror with no reflection

background music begins to fade
as your eyes close
silence.
asleep.

nostalgia
generally seen as a good thing
reminiscing about better, simpler times
your heart trembles just thinking about them
while you stare off into space
unaware of the present
you think back
of all the things you did wrong
everything you should have done
it comes back to haunt you
how you could have reacted correctly
how one moment changed your life now
like retracing your steps
all the way back
but there are no footprints to go off of
just memories
and the bitter feeling that accompanies them
in the deepest darkest confines of your mind
and the sensation of all that disappointment from back then
you can feel it
physically
taking hold of you
your stomach twists
your appetite is no more
paralyzed
in a place long gone
by events that have never happened
in a vicegrip
it's like the butterfly effect in reverse
a perpetual "what if..."
nostalgia
not so beautiful
anymore

1) If x = distance then y = desire
then y increases at the same rate as x.
Show your work
Explain why this happens


2)As A = going to sleep and B = I have something important to do right now,
Solve for AB = my mind loves to wander at the most inopportune of times

3 )Find the difference for L - C
where L = your life where you are now
and C = your comfort zone
the answer is where you need to be

so it's a numbers game
yet it never adds up
but you always lose