We could have
parted seas, but
I chose to dive in,
headfirst and now
the waves keep
coming,
crashing,
over and over.
We're buried
in cold water.

At 3 am I wrote you
a letter, because I
craved you so hard.
Ironically you did
the same, but
only to say I am
too complicated to
be loved.

Man-made drugs
Induce an altered state
A psychedelic paradise
Of euphoria
A burst of colors
Impaired reality of dreams
A fix of blissful forgetfulness
Married to ecstasy

I kissed a boy
I had no feelings for
so I could see
how you can betray
someone you love.
He made me forget
about my pain and
showed me heaven
like I could never have
dreamed of.

Summer rain
gently falling
on shoulders
unable to carry
the burdens you create
as you explain
why you can't love me.
The summer rain
dries quickly
on the dirt road
you drive away on -
leaving me
in your dust.

It's strange to think
everything is gone.
The quick kisses, your
blush after we'd made love.
You never thought
I'd find out about you.
But I caught you
in the act, so there is
no going back.
Can you hear the pain
in my voice?
How can you expect me
to believe we could
ever be the same?

Was it worth it?
*Was she worth this?

I light up a cigarette
and put it between my
red painted lips.
Feel you pounding
between my hips.
I try, but fail to fight
this feeling of lust.
You said girls
like me should come
in a better state.
I guess you're
right, but  ***
is my passion, and
I smile-
your final breath is now
my possession.