Stitch in your memories now
And you don't know how
You're gonna get it out

Heart crushed under heavy chest
Trying to catch your breath
But it always beats you by a step

All right now
Make the best of it
Play the hand you get
When you're heart is sore
And the tears they pour
Like a willow bending with the storm
you'll make it

Running against the wind
It's the hardest thing trying to forget
Something is bound to give
There's hope for the hopeless
You're not alone in this

Hello my friend, Mascara Rain
sorry to wake you up again
Always there, black as night
when The Loneliness is moving in
Here to keep me company
yet always running
while I'm drowning
But I can't blame you
I would run too
But I have to stay
and swim in my thoughts
drowning in Mascara Rain
Painting the most realistic eyes of a lonely girl
until sleep rescues us both
Tomorrow it will be impossible to create anything but silence
as my friend Mascara Rain tries to remain unseen

The Cat loved the Mouse more than anything
and would play with it continuously
unable to think of anything else
holding on to it so tight promising to lever let the Mouse go
when the Cat had his Mouse nothing else existed but them
Until one day the Cat had toyed with the Mouse so much
and held on too tight the Mouse couldn't breath and soon
all the life had been drained out the tiny Mouse's body
And the Cat was lonely
almost instantly the Cat became very angry at the Mouse for leaving him alone
The Cat tossed the Mouse's lifeless body aside
trying to hide his sadness pretending not to notice
and the Cat stormed off in anger

Something that meant so much only seconds ago
now had no importance to the Cat.
Not once did the Cat realize it was his fault, he was to proud.  
Till this day the Cat searched for another Mouse just like the one he lost,
but no other Mouse compares.  

So the chase never ends.

Drowning porcelain, so easily broken.
Butterflies paralyzed and displayed for their beauty.
A tally of forgotten days and an abundance of perplexing bruises.
Inner turmoil, "who are we?"
Temptation, a rapturous slow death.
A confusing journey that never was.
The memory of those men remain.
The men who rush to clean everything up,
the men who give you your "treats", blind you,
bind you and take you away.
Distrust, paranoia, anger, hatred - lonely sadness.
Another day.

A four letter word,
seems so easy to say
filled with pain and sorrow, nothing more
or happiness and joy, nothing better.
for me it has only stood for
problems and missed signals
lack of passion and virtue
lies and broken promises
nothing more. nothing less.
just a four letter word
that so many others said in vain
no longer holding any weight.
so unmeaningful. so dull
a word used as an excuse
for things we don’t respect
to pursue after something for ourselves
pleasure, people, ***
overused, underrated
and spoken every day
some forget, it's not just a word
it's a feeling that is as alive
as the people who share it.
for those who really know you,
the ones you care about,
dream about. can't breath without
require no words,
our actions speak more truth
than one word could ever stand for

“Like a shattered vase
that contained so much life
just moments before
our love, broke like glass
what once meant so much,
that you so treasured
is now just trash?

before that unfixable instant
Did it not exist?
Did it not mean anything?
Was it not real?

Broken and shattered
it still existed
though it’s not yours anymore
and you can’t hold it
see it
touch it
it was yours.

Why?
Why when something
we love so much is gone
can’t we hold onto the memories
be glad it happened
move on, but never forget

Lost love
broken hearts.

That doesn’t undo it
doesn’t make those
memories any less important
yet we try to disown them
trash them
say they meant nothing
act as if it didn’t happen.

In one split second
Everything is shattered
Treasures become trash
“everything" is now meaningless”

Am I the one that you should fear,
You only gave me a small part,
Or is it you whom I should fear,
I gave you my whole **** heart.

You gave me a small dark corner,
I cleaned it and called it home,
The heart that you moved into,
Was ten times the size of Rome.

You conquered the kingdom and brought the empire down,
While I looked the other way,
And when the time arrived for me to stand up,
I was but king for a day.

I gave you all you asked for ,
but still you needed moore,
I never asked for anything,
Except you, to be there for.

You waged a war against my love ,
You held me at the gate,
Swords and daggers at my throat,
As I succumb to your Checkmate.

-I feel me breathing in your sleep can you feel it?-

grazing your lips with my fingertips
we wake up a few times
to speak of dreams that make it hard to sleep

-are you dying in your dreams
i know sometimes i can feel it

turn into to stone by the light of morning
disappear without meaning

are you taking up time
that thoughts pressing thru my mind

oh baby, i’m fine
can you believe it?

92 chromosomes connecting
A perfect matching
Of an individual
Who is the other’s imperfect equal

An eye for and eye
We're both blind
Can't you see what we've done

Dead skin on the flesh of your halo
Drunk love on the breath of an angel
And you breathe like you had life trapped in your lungs
And you wanted escape, and I wanted to take
Every thought from your mind and just throw it away
As I've watered you've grown
I've deflowered your soul
You a seed that I planted with a thought of a rose
And I thought I'd impose if I ever had the energy
And I would save somebody if I ever had the memory
I cleared up some space and invited you in
You were brown and I tried to make you violet again
And I brought out the sun and the violence of wind
And I tore off your thorns and they died in my skin
And I watched you, become beautiful
It's funny what the dirt does, when it's suitable
I don't mind being April's fool
The flowers came when the rain made you
Honest hours having spent with few
But I'll be April's fool for you
But my first mistake was thinking it was easy
And that you'd love me if I really let you see me
Deep thoughts in the abyss of your brain cells
One shot to wherever your pain's held
And it became something I'd never seen before
And now my heart too small to beat for anything but yours
Though my perception's is varied as your shade change
And the burdens gettin heavier than weight gain
And we kept swallowing the sun until the shade came
And kept on knockin on the clouds until we made rain
All the flowers in the garden share the same range
And a rose by any color share the same name
But I love you in a way that will not cease
Cause you're hideous in ways I cannot see
I don't mind being April's fool
The flowers came when the rain made you
Honest hours having spent with few
But I'll be April's fool for you
If we take the flowers stem and walk into the rainbow
Remember to water them and watch how quickly they grow
But as quick as clouds come in and drown them in the rain
And a rose grew from the concrete with a heartbeat
And I took you to the grass and made its bed
Then I bathed you in my love until you sprouted
And I'll never get the thought out of my head
I'm April's fool

hate me
rate me
shake me
break me.....
oh, but look how strong you made me.