April

April Jul 2014

if she's a good girl
they won't leave
they will like her
and
if she keeps her distance
they won't see the cracks
she's just a good girl
even if shes dressed in all black

April Jul 2014

To Open the Jar

there's nothing poetic i can write
to describe how much pain
loneliness i feel
with out you
right by my side
because i can't capture my emotions
bottle them up
open them up
just for you
in doing so I would need strength
and that was smothered
the day you left

April Jun 2014

Bars on the Soul

everything hurts
not when you're alone
but
when your soul
won't allow you to have company

April Jun 2014

1:45 am

she couldn't comprehend,
hours before she was content,
and now her friend is gone
and the happiness
slipped through her fingers
so easy

the same as the dust swirled around her
frame and all
as she stood and watched his silhouette
meet the perfect girl

where did she go wrong

April Jun 2014

Losing shape

we tear ourselves apart
let the fears
things we can't grasp
twist us
abandon us

and when the world comes to push us together again
we forget
the path
the feeling
we once had

that simplicity
of being whole

April Jun 2014

Darkness

each night
it gets later and later
or maybe earlier and earlier
until
i let myself fall asleep

i like to believe I'm busy
reading stories to inspire my own creation

but i know
and anyone who knew me would know
i don't go to sleep early
because the longer i sit alone
succumb to the darkness around me
the more i feel like
Ive found
just what i deserve

April Jun 2014

1 year ago

you watched me
you knew my habits
you knew my fears
and now you're gone
not a phone call in nine months
only saw your face barely passing by
you're gone

but you're here more than ever
in the late summer nights
last one awake
i remember
you're by the television
you're fading each night more and more

i should have known you wouldn't last
i just never thought
at the highest peak
taking
and
pushing
us
down
would be your escape

what hurts the most is when someone does something unforgivable and everything and everyone tells you to hate them... but no matter what you can't hate them.