sitting in the trees
hidden from the world
she felt a calm essence that even the strongest winds
mightiest hurricane
couldn't dare break
when
the calm was ripped from her hands
gentle thoughts
lost
she saw him
and she knew

he was the reason
and how
this mysterious boy
shades the darkest of black
covering his emerald eyes
could
push her down
amongst the leaves on the ground
now she waited for him to walk across her

they always do

Anxiety ridden
everything
the ground
the exterior
shakes
and I'm standing alone

extending my arms
grasping for something
if only to keep me from falling
all my fingers find
is the chill of the air
sweeping the wind

and that I know
is the feeling of solitude
a great reminder
I have to do this on my own

this smile
goes to my father
hes not here
theirs not a number of miles that can
trace the difference between us
nevertheless
today I laugh
grin
enjoy the time i have
and better yet
its all because of him

she used to look up to him
he was older
his words never failed to make her smile
now the tears stream down her face
and hes gone
dead
he sold his soul
his smile
for the poison
all just to taint his veins
and
why she asks
does it hurt
does she want
for him
to be with her again
even if hes not the same

ive lost my spark
my vision
my energy
and most importantly
i lost my voice

and when
he, she, they
walk over me
crush me
I can't
I won't
do anything to stop it

if i take a break
sit on the sidelines
the waves will wash ashore
the sandcastle will come to ruins
and i don't think i can watch everything I made
everything I became
falter
the sun beating down
the sand in between my toes
suffocates
but not as much as the thought of failure
so today I'll ride the waves

hope
itching, tearing through your skin
your eyes twinkle
reflect
lead the way
somewhere along
your legs
or was it your mind
stop
detest
I almost crash into you
send you spiraling below
and if
i could never move on
cuz even without your sparkling orbs
all the light in the world would be broken
same,
as my gentle, confused, heart
but your beside me
and i reach
gentle touch
together the way can be found
one day the sparkle will be alive again
and I'll no ive been right all along
you're strong