im tired of trying
im tired of being okay in your eyes
the terror
the screaming agony
they're going to come out
darling, i hope your ready
for you're gonna meet
me
for who i really am

why do i want to hide
when its always been in my eyes
for        
you
and
your
light
touches
to
see

i destroy myself
before you get the chance
because the pain i give myself
could never hurt
as much
as your gentle touches
smile wide

you see me at my time of weak
your warm eyes question mine
i feel the pain
pounding my outer wall
till its all gone

i wish you didn't make me feel this
way
every time your presence greets mine

if  only you understood
how inferior i really am

On the day his eyes sealed shut
A paradise
fell
golden embers rose
rich carpet was destroyed to smithereens
glass shards ricocheted
flames were all they could see
until
morning dew sprinkled the grass
stars hid in there beds
silence brought havoc to their minds
Reality seeped in
he would never be seen again

was it a dream or was it real
did your fingertips trail mine
were you happy with me
cuz now all i see is anger in your face
your muscles tense
shoulders shield your neck
i never wanted to hurt you
somewhere on the border line
that's all i ended up doing

you're the reason
i question myself
before you
everything i saw
blazed before my eyes
now overcast
i wonder
what did i do to deserve this change
everything i heard
strong voices all around
now muffled, isolated to my brain
i wonder
what can i do to make these voices end
sand reaches the bottom of the time capsule
i hate myself
and I know
you're the reason i feel this way

i never seem to get it right
to much rhythm or too much rhyme
it doesn't matter
cuz no one can relate
i question why i try
but then i remind myself
what better would i do
if the words were thawed from my soul
never to be found again
would I be any happier
then before I sat down to
construct this stupid work of art?