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anu Sep 2018
I am ******
I am ******

I am cruel
I am cruel

I am Monster
I am Monster

I am a scavenger
I am a scavenger

I am cruel devil
I am cruel devil
I am dead !
I am dead !
anu Apr 2017
Feeling myself great
As I could smile from my heart
By accepting the fact that
whatever happens life must go on
I c would smile with a inner pain.
Thank God !!
Thanks to poet friends
Who always hears me !!
anu Sep 2015
After a long gap
Talked to my friend
As a friend of her

I Use to talk to her
As her friend
But today ,talked
As a friend of her

We made for each other
Sorry she is made for some other
But we meant for each other..
For my friend(soundarya) who loves me always.My possessiveness placed some gap between us ..Inspite of this,we are true friends as she loves me as i'm..
anu Nov 2017
I hate me to the extent
I am a coward
Who couldn't **** herself
I am ******
Who couldn't smile even for half an hour
Yes I am an idiot
Who hate everyone in the world
Yes I don't want any idiots
In this fake world
Yes I am an sadist
Who wish to every bit of me
Just everyone in the world
I am coward
Who is not even ready to **** my own self
If
anu Oct 2017
If
If I have a magical powers
I will use to **** myself for first
I know how good I am
So I will not be brutal like God
Will sing a lullaby
And will made myself sleep forever
Self consoling is the process of self killing
anu Apr 2020
I feel  nothing
When I  miss my everything

I feel empty
When I miss my happiness of plenty

I feel scared
When I miss my ama who cared

But

My ana wont let me to feel
As He will there ever to heal !
Feel to heal ever.....
Missing.....
anu Jun 2018
Why ??
I am moving and searching
For true love
Care
Affection
Everything ??
Always I am search
Everywhere I am failing
But my heart doesn't feel satisfy
For my extreme love on me
Pls readers if someone could help me here I will be happy !
anu Sep 2017
If your closest souls hurts you
Just ignore
To not to hurt your closest souls
But how much I can do it I don't know
anu Apr 2020
Hate the one
Whom I love the most

He is not the one
Whom I trust the most

He is not the one
Whom I care the most

He is not the one
Whom I adore the most

But today He is the one
Who love only his son the most

So I hate that one
Whom I love once the most !
Ultimate power of love is HATE !
anu Oct 2017
For all these days
I thought
God has given
Only enough problems

But just now
I found
He has given solution too

Its nothing but
IMAGINATION
I am imagining that everything is solved..
anu Sep 2015
When I went near her
She moved and glowed

I got a spark
That why shouldn't I rock
With her mark

This is for a morning star...
anu May 2018
I want to die
Could anyone help me ??

But I don't want to make my parents cry ??
What should I do ??
I am ****** !
anu Aug 2017
What is life ?





A _ that doesn't have life
is called life.
Yes !! I found this real definition of life
anu Oct 2015
Today is her Birthday
Want to shout
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAM”
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAM”
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAM”

But nothing will reach her
As I can’t reach her

Even my name and my number
May disturb and irritates her

Once how I wished her
How I saw her on this day
Everything kills me today

May God Give Her
All her Wishes
Just her beautiful smiles
Keeps her to move miles
In her life.
Happy birthday Mam.Though my wishes will not reach your ears, my heart will not stop wishing you.
Love u always. ONCE AGAIN HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAM
anu Aug 2017
I have reached successfully





Extremes of sadness
Extremes of hatredness
Extremes of loneliness

But still I hold smile


Ah !! Great dear


Ha ha !!
anu Jun 2018
Just living will make u live
Just smiling will make u smile
Just moving will make u move

But
Just dying will not make u die !
Y should I die even if I dead before
Ya I am all alone
But I who wants this
And I who did this

Hope at least hereafter I will not hurts the souls whom I lv a lot
My ana
My frnd
My dad
My mom
....
anu Aug 2015
Being possessive
Will not leave you to be a good daughther
Will not leave you to be a good studennt
Will not leave you to be a good Friend
And It will not leave you to be
A Good Anymore..
But being possessive is not a sin
It's a natural Curse for being in this World
And it is one,a natural gift for being in My World
anu Jan 2017
When I lie down on my bed
A tear rolled
In the deep dark

A thought flashed on my head
There is nothing to be be worried
In the deepest dark

I know there's none to call me
But please you hear me

My dead bed !!
.
anu Feb 2020
You stated that
You don't want me in your life
As you bothered about your
self respect

Yes Happy
Have  self respect
But known one thing
I will never disturb
Someone's self respect
or
  I never treated you
In such a bad way


And moreover
I don't want anyone
Who don't even ready to think

Proud to say
'Yes we are cheap dogs'
Yes I blocked you
Reason its hurts so much to c u from a distance
And moreover i am angry with you
Still you had everything
And you want to prove that v r cheap dogs...
Let it be....
Pain is a pain
Yes..... Dot...
Thanks for everything
anu Apr 2020
Known well
Still you saw my poems
As I am following you

Still
Friendship  is same
More than me
Ours is true and loyal

Blind can be accepted
But if pretend to be blind
Nothing could help you

Not expected anything
Including ur forgiveness
As I am not wrong anywhere
Not only me
But its 'We'

Take Care
Thoughts will be there
As ours is true...
Exclusively for her !
anu Feb 2018
God please I don't deserve living
Please beg you
Take me
I don't want anyone
And I don't have anyone too
Please take me
My Lord
At least if you really love me
Take me
I am ready to beg on your legs
I am scared on living
Just let me come to u
Please Jesus
At least do you think that I am true to u
Kindly take me

More than everything
When you know
That u don't even have one heat to think about u
Then it's really
Serious
anu Apr 2017
Words to be heard
By God is unheard

But the words to be unheard
By a girl is heard


And I don't want to be a ward
As I **** them with a word rod
I am hurting my parents
They can (out of angry )
But I shouldn't
Sorry
But I should be punished

Ya, God already I am !!
anu Oct 2017
Its paining
When we can't bare
Someone's silence
But its paining too much
When we can't bare
Someone's words
But nothing changes
Pain is always there
anu Mar 2015
God help me
to think that i'm ok
i know i'm not ok
but tell me a lie
you are my only  guy

never want her
who cant understand me
never mind what she says
never  care how long she could avoid me


i hate those three
whom i love deeply
once
still
forever

But i will smile
to tell them that
i had god
who can have me as his claud.
thank hp ...i take u as god's gift where i can share my feelings..thank u.. somewhat feeling relaxed..
anu Apr 2017
Don't tell the world
That you're strong
Instead show the world
By living your life
A Self evaluation poem
Whatever happens I will smile to make sure the smile are not disturbed in the faces of my lovable ones !!
anu Nov 2017
Finally I lost
Everything

I am dead
I lost my character
I want to die
anu Sep 2015
I GOT IT
Never expected this
I called her
She picked my call
She talked
I can’t just believe it
But the thing is nothing has changed
She remains the same
This is she said that too
Every problem is as it
But I’m flying
As if everything is solved
Nothing changed
But she talked
That was running in mind
See Even for this
How Happy I am..
Think How Happy I will be
If I got her Back
And the Important thing
I heard something
Good for her
For that
I thank all the GODS
Whom Heard All My Prayers
I Hope God Will hear My Prayers  
Which is for me too..
You deserves all my love
Will love and will love you
With All its purity…
I Am very happy..no valid reason behind it..I don't know what makes me this much happier..Actualy i should think and find solution but am enjoying.Is it a medicine for my long agony???THANKS A LOT GODDDDDDDDDD... I TRUST U AND U WILL SOLVE ..Love u GOD And HER too......
anu Apr 2017
Again am becoming week
But what could make me strong again
Its only you
Hope on God
Again am back but I don't want to be
So I will be strong
anu Dec 2017
I am feeling cheap about living
Yes I am cheap
As I can't die
As my wish
Sure I will die one day
anu Apr 2019
Wish
Better to be cloud
Than to be a beautiful rainbow !

Wish
Better to be a scribble
Than to be a beautiful paint !

Wish
Better to be a human
Than to be a beautiful girl !
Wish
Better to live with smile
Than to live with happiness !
anu Sep 2017
If I got a magical power
I will have a wand
Just I will do one thing
Will **** myself
Without hurting anyone
But how is it possible
Once loss will hurt others
My parents may cry
But how long I will try
As if I am smiling from my heart
But It becomes my part
Of me
Though its not me
Just expressed .. Couldn't feel what and how I feel
anu Nov 2017
I found one thing
I hate the gender Male in total
But I don't know whether everybody is wrong
But I hate everyone of them
I don't know how good girls are
But I know that they are
As bad as others
I hate few
But that's forces me to tell that everybody is wrong
anu Nov 2015
Never expected  
That life will become this must worst

only on these days I thought everything goes correct
But My fate shows me that I'm the unluckiest in the whole universe.

Still had hope
Not on me or on my fate
But on MY God rate

My papa has a pure heart
How the poisonous snake could inject purity
Purity  has its own strength..

Only on that day, Papa, you felt great for me
It is not that I Can shine in your absence
From my childhood days I thought of shining
only for You and for ama(mother)
Now it is the time for reaping
So you should come back soon.

Hope you will com soon..
Trust you lord...
anu May 2017
Just wish to write
But I don't have anything to write

Is it right
To be quiet ?

So I will write
With a right

To show all ,the height
And the weight
Of my love for all the poets, right !!
Missing you all
My ever lovely HP
anu Oct 2015
How hard this thornful life is
Though i'm telling
Everything will be alright
still strugling
Runing behind wories
And i'm in quarries
just want to run away
But cant even move
Trust lord
Not to hold my life
But to take me
To pour his real love to me
Almighty,Hears me often
Though i'm unheard
I can't keep mum
Lord, trust you forever.
just want to shed tears instead i shed words..
anu Mar 2016
Again I'm missing u
Unknowingly the gap comes back

Doesn't Know the reason
Knows well that i have certain reason
And u too have a certain reason

And  I Knows u r 1 among the 7 who r close to my heart
Ever u will be close
And this is just to share how i feel..
The poems btwn us shows a beautiful lv btwn us..Feel like sharing...
I hate A>>>>> I think c is the reason for everything...
Just shared..Not to hurt u..If Any Am Sry...
anu Feb 2017
God,I am tired
Of nothing and everything
But I am not unheard
Of anything and everything

I use to tell this with frustrated mind
But I am telling this with maturated mind

Gone through everything
And learnt that there is nothing

So, let me come back
With your call back
Of my parents (my life) to you
Love you Lord !!
anu Apr 2018
Wish to die
Doesnt know what to do
how to move
how long should I move
why should I move
what's the way to move
if you don't want to move

how should I  leave
If I leave will it hurt someone
If not will it hurt everyone

Need to find a way to quit
How to quit
Why not to quit
I should quit
yeah I'll quit
Want to die
S whatever it is I want to die
anu Oct 2015
I thought by being busy
Nothing reminds her

But though being in the midst of busy
A word reminds her
The note that has her name reminds her

And I Reminds
That I shouldn't reminds her

Do I Reminds  her
Or did she??
Feeling somewhat painful..
anu Aug 2016
How hard
I tried
Am running out
Of worries

How hard
It tried
To reach out
My queries

It lead
And I am in bleed
At first pain comes to me as a part of life but am become part of pain!!
Once my poems stands for what I feel even now it stands as it is but now my feeling just only stands for pain.just got no way to run away from this hell life.
Sorry for sharing poems
Feeling guilty as am spreading my negatives!!
anu Oct 2016
Music is the food for unsharble pains
Just am listening
And I will
Just felt that i don't have anyone to hear my undefined and unshakable wounds:(
anu Oct 2016
Hate to live this hell life
The only question that
Keep questioning me inside
Is that what mistake did I ??
Do I deserve this much pain??
Why God hates me this much??
Really its paining very much !!
anu Jan 2017
Just having heavy heart

Just reminding all my painful memories

Just revising that how many I have missed and

Just thinking that how much I loved them and

Just enjoying that how much they throwed me

As I was know for my ******* true care and love

And still just thinking and reminding that how much I still trust in God !!
Just paining too much as usual
:(
anu Jun 2016
Always there is none to hear me
In this world

Hope except lord
But still feels and longs
Feels but smiling...
anu Oct 2017
Every bit of seconds
I am dying

But one thing is sure
I will live

And I will live
Really its horrible !!
Ka
anu Dec 2016
Ka
Just miss her like anything
She is the reason
For me
To get this beautiful family

Where are you ka ?
Aka,
I know, you love to hear my ka
Come back soon ka
Atleast to hear me ka


Missing my Elsa ka
I miss my Elsa ka
She is my God sent angel
Who heared me first
And instincted me to hv this beautiful family
Hp
anu Sep 2016
No tears
Even when am having so many fears

Just when seeing
Others enjoying
My heart starts longing
But am warning
Not to do haunting

God, you tested me often
I think that I have proven
But I will test you for one
That are you loving this women
Or leaving her as orphan
Hope my God gives me what I want. He who gave me and hope He who will be with me :(
anu Aug 2017
Once I will cry
By thinking that I don't have anyone
But now I am smiling
Because I realized that It is the way
Through which God made me strongest
:)
anu Jun 2020
Unwanted  and Uncared
Is highest poverty in the world

Yes
very soon
I will die out of this poverty

Hope so !
Hope this must be my last poem.
anu Oct 2022
Sleepless sights
Sings
Voiceless voids
Whispers

And
The dead bird dies
With its
Heart beats  !
Am back.....

Died bird born back to HP to sing lullaby for dead heart  !
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