There is a sayings,
"stop working and start collecting memories"
                              
BUT
My feelings forces me to say,
"start working and stop enjoying memories"

BECAUSE
Memories are sweeter
But for me it is bitter
As it made me a longer.

10th April 2015 dawns
He showed me
The life's first face
       AS
L-Lifelessness
I-Irritation
F-Futility
E-Emotional disturbances


But when 10th April 2015 sunsets
He showed me
The life's other face
     AS
L-Lovely
I-Inspirational
F-Friendly
E-Energetic

I was shocked when He showed the first face
But i was stunned when He showed its second face
Its not that i was stunned because of seeing  life's second face
But because of seeing His Majesty and Real love Which is showed in this 2nd face..

Sometimes LIFE stands for
L-lifelessness
I-irritation
F-futility
E-emotional disturbances

I tried and tried to forget
Finally  i forget
That i should  forget...

I Miss her
Its not that i want her

But i miss her
Because i only miss her

I'm happy
while talking with her in memories

But i'm not happy
when i think that i can talk only in memories

Though it is painful
Memories are better than real life..

Though I was in the middle of the lively hell
I could feel some paradise's warm welcome
From hp

As i'm going to see my aka(elsa)
through her poems
And my consolers
who often consoles me
with their great writes

No one is there
To know my real feelings
Everybody is there
To misread my words and feelings

I'm tired of crying
Inside
But not  tired of  acting
Outside

Want nothing
And  nobody
If my affection
Becomes nothing
And to nobody
My life would
start smiling

But I never think about changing
As I'm the product of God's thinking
And I'm glad to have Him as my everything

God help me
to think that i'm ok
i know i'm not ok
but tell me a lie
you are my only  guy

never want her
who cant understand me
never mind what she says
never  care how long she could avoid me


i hate those three
whom i love deeply
once
still
forever

But i will smile
to tell them that
i had god
who can have me as his claud.

WE  ARE  SEVEN
BUT  OUR  HEARTS  ARE  ONE

ARTHI  IS OUR  PRETTY
AND  DHARI  IS  OUR  PLENTY

DURGA, WE  CALL  YOU  PAPU
DEAR  BRINDHA, WE  CALL  YOU  BINDHU

MAJESTIC  (SUDAR)DON
WE  NEED  YOU  FOR  O­UR  LIFE'S  DAWN

ANBU, AS  YOUR  NAME  MEANT
WE  NEED  YOUR  LOVE  FOR  OUR  LIVES  IMPR­OVEMENT

MYSELF  IS  THE  SEVEN
AND  THE  ABOVE  SIX  WHO  MADE  ­ME  WON..

Never care
How worse the situations are
Never care
How clever the traitors are
Never care
How challenging the lives are...

I Praise The Lord
I Praise The Lord

You Who Made Me Laugh
Even W hen I Don't  Want To Laugh

You Who Came  With Run
When I  Fell That  I'm In Lone

You Who Care
When My problems I Share

Love You God
For Your My Lord..

If  someone
Longs for the affection of someone

Atleast, HE  may give some other one
who longs more than, that one

To show that HE  gave longingness for everyone..

When i fell that i'm all alone
Noone came...
But  you came...
My  ever  lovely loneliness

Majestic look she had
Adorable character,it add
Mind blowing personality as a third
                         which makes me mad.

Even In your absence
Within me, I could fell your presence,MAM,

Your absence
put me in silence.

Your memories
Forces me to hear melodies.

Your word
sounds  even when i'm unheard.

Your care
Initiates me to share.

Your perfection
Leads to have you as my inspiration.

Your teaching
Informs me that it is preaching.

Your  everything
Forces me to tell that you are my everything..

How long i could bare these pains?
I can't hold this
There is none to share this
A friend will hear untill she got a lover
Every relations hear untill their problems comes in
I don't acuse   anybody
because i'm getting hurt out of my own character
it's ain't my problem
god who created me in such a way
what could i do
i'm longing i'll long
i dont want anybody
they don't want me too
i shout at them
am i a ******
oh god!just take me away from everybody
i dont fit to be in this world
how long i could console myself
no,i cant
i will n't die too
because that little thing cant equate these pains
..oh god am i sensitive
i am loving every relation in deep
but that cause a pain
why cant i act
as others did
really god ,,,
do something
i can take
even  pepoles
dont accept me or
love me (deep)
but i cant take people
hate me
ok...i want to be alone
i don't loose my character
because of my pschy actions..
i dont know what is the reason
for all these problems
but i will live these pains
Ooooo....

sorry this is not a poem
but  a pain...

Miss you
Miss you

                    WHAT  ACTUALLY  I  MISS ?
                                      
                                        BUT
Miss you
Miss you

Life gave me  a moment
smile spreads over in my face
Life gave me the next moment
Tears  rolls down in my face

SUSPENSE -Neither be enjoyed
                      Nor be worried...

I am very very proud
     To  say
That I too had a friend.
                                      
                  ­          She spares me Even when i shouted at her
                           Owns me  Even when i wounded her
                           Understands me Even when i failed to understands her
                           Never leaves me Even wen i neglected her
                           Deeply loves me Even when i degraded her

 I am very very glad
       To say
That she is my true friend.

Every sunrise has a sunset
Every day has a night
Every up has a down
Every start has an end
         BUT END
NEVER HAS AN END ....

I  HATE  LIVING  BUT  I LIVE.
                  because
I  HATE  HURTING SO I LIVE.

I Am sorry my dear,

You struggled
I too struggled

You struggled for coming out
I  struggled for sending in

You  are coming for consoling
I am sending  you back for torturing

I  hide you, from everyone
you  can't hide yourself from me

When i was all alone
you  runs fast from my deep pains

And my eyelids stops you
But my deep depression forces you

Oh !!!!!!!!! "TEARS"
Finally, I Sheds You...

Though i fail
I try
Though i fell
I try
Though i am tied of  trying
I WILL TRY....

A  LADY  WHO  IS
                                              
              short  and sweet
              white and bright
            
              with kind heart
              and lovable thought

              she cares
              and  spares
  
             who is in need
             and she feed

             with utmost kind
              and  who she is? FIND...

Being  possessive,is a curse
It brings many problems without any cause

A person one who is possessive
Hurts thyself
And others calls her possessive
As jealous,complex,and selfish

But being  selfish is different from being possessive
oh my God !Let everybody knows  What POSSESSIVE  Is?

When there was a heaven drops
           sparrow smiles
           cuckoo wets
           nightingale sings
           leaf  shines
           flower blooms
           tree dances
           river glitters
           sea swings
           cattle enjoys
But  Still your crying remains
Is that you feel for humans
DON'T WORRY !I'm there for you to feel your pains...

He
Smashes your past and present
Longs to get back to your past
Affects your routine
Manages to retain in  present
        Who is He?

when  someone become close to my heart
suddenly they depart

At the time,I just want to cry
And move to sky

I just want to shout
As i want them to love a lot

I just want to stare
And i want someone to share

I just want to be unmoved
As i still wait for them who moved

At the end,I just  don't want to do all these things
As I had the 'SWEET MEMORIES' to bring..

A..,I Struggle to start
but ,you are very close to my heart

                  As
A-you are the starter for my unknown world
                  Ama/pa
A-you are the initiator for my lovable world
                   Affection        
A-you are the motivator for my challenging world
                  Aim
A-you are the consollor for my dark world
                    Alone
And A -You itself the protector for my every world
                    Almighty


A..,Now I like to give my  tribute
  For your precious gift
And that is this poem
  under the pen name of Anu
which starts with your 'A'...

On that day, there was a dawn
And it was the day,that i was born

There was a day,where i thought
My parents could lead me
But they left when i was matured

And,there was a day where i got
My friends,who could guide me
But they left when they were matured

Then,there was a day when i bought
My wealth which could protect me
But it left me when it was destroyed

Atlast,on one unpleasant day,with hopelessness i fell down
But still i had a hope that there is someone
Like GOD who could be with me forever..

He who holds me when i entered
He who feeds me when i cried
He who looks me when i walked
He who cares me when i worked
He who sheds a lovable  tear when i get married
He who feels a heaven in earth when i once again entered
Who is he? He is a God Or
He who takes a role of my Father.

Where could i go
If life gives me thousand foes
Like temper,jealous and selfishness.
Where could i go
If i couldn't move these foes
So, Let me go
And push them with a row
To bring back life into brightness.

Life is not full of competitions
   But it's  full  of challenges..
Failure is not meant for ending
   But  it's meant for endless processing..
So have failures,
    And face life with challenges..