God
Only one thing
I want to beg
If u hear me all these 25 years
Just take me in the corona
Pls
If you love me
Give release from this deadly pain
I don't want to be burden anymore
To anyone

I feel  nothing
When I  miss my everything

I feel empty
When I miss my happiness of plenty

I feel scared
When I miss my ama who cared

But

My ana wont let me to feel
As He will there ever to heal !

I am sacred now
I am hurted now
I am depressed now
!

Want my Bro
Want my Sondu
Want my happiness
!

Disturbed enough
Hurted enough
Cried enough
!

Will move on
Just to go on
Hope will have on
!

If I want to curse God
Only one thing
I will ask him to be me
To have this pain !

Every minute
Something will keep Him engaged

Every where
Someone will want Him unchanged

Every time
Someone will want Him to be refreshed

Every day
Something  will keep Him committed

But
  Every second
My Everything will breathe Him alived !

Finally
Its better to leave this world
It seems

Better
To die everysecond
Killing thyself
Is best

Nothing will change my dear
Until you change

Noone know
How much do you long
For this 27 years

Though God know
He will not do anything
As you  want to long
To  have his Love even

Tears will never get dried
Until your emotions are dead

I know
You dead everyday
But still dead with this deadly pains

One day
You will die my dear

Always am there
To say you
'Don't cry... And I am there '

But I know
Your heart is deaf to my voice

Still I console you
You cry
I will pray for your death

Me and my inner heart's voice !