You left me
And it's not like I care
Cause I don't
I just wish
You hadn't
I don't want you to come back
But I don't want you to have left
You should have been there
Why weren't you?
Did you love me?
No
If you had
You wouldn't have gone
But you at least stayed two years
Did you love me
For those two years?
If you came back
I'd hate you
But if you'd stayed
I'd love you
You shouldn't have left
Because now
You've lost your chance
To ever be loved by me again
All those years
Not knowing
Why you left
Then the moment
I realised
I wasn't worth it
I'll never forgive
Never forgive
Never
Forgive
The wound is old now
But it still hurts
When I see your name
Where it doesn't deserve to be
On my birth certificate

Dear, You
You who lays claim to someone you have no right to
You who digs up friendships long buried in the earth
You who calls him a traitor for having feelings
You who will never even see these words I write
Yes, You
Get. Off.

They mark my lack of innocence
My sorrow and my strife
They're forgotten and fading now
But once they shaped my life

I don't want to forget my past
Strange as it may seem
Although it was painful
It was more than just a bad dream

It's made me who I am today
It's made me understand
And sometimes I revisit it
With a shaky hand

I know it won't make sense to you
But it's plain to see
Exactly what I've been through
White lines all over me

I can see it
You try to hide it
But you can't
Because I've seen it
So
Many
Times
Before
I try to help
But you won't let me
And all I can think is
Why?
I know your pain
Do you want to feel it?
I don't want you to
But you won't let me help
I just wish I knew
Why?
I want to help you
I need to help you
Please let me
Seeing anyone
Who feels that way
It tears me up inside
I want to help you
You won't let me
Why?
All I want
Is for you to be happy
Because when you are
I am too
Because when you're not
I can't possibly be
The thing is
I don't even know you
But still
I feel
And
I
Don't
Know
Why?

The wind is cold
But I don't feel anything
The air is thin
But I don't feel anything
The cars are loud
But I don't feel anything
The sirens sound
But I don't feel anything
They shout at me
But I don't feel anything
I don't hear the words
Because I don't feel anything
Then
I'm
Falling
Suddenly
I feel
For the first time
In a long time
I feel
The air rushing past my face
The sheer exhilaration
The gripping fear
I love it
Then
I hit the ground
But I don't feel anything

There's a poem
In my head
As I lay
In my bed

There's a poem
In my mind
Gleaming there
Ready to find

There's a poem
In my pen
I just put it down
And then

There's a poem
On the page
Like an actor
On a stage

There's a poem
In your eyes
A bright image
Of dark skies

There's a poem
In here somewhere
I just need
To get it out there