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A B Perales Jan 2016
East sat amongst the
ground level clouds
drenched in the
weeping tears
of Down Town Mothers.

A crystal door chime
sings that song
the wind sang
to me a lifetime ago.

Out of the blood
of the living
comes the strength
to stack these caskets
4 and 5 deep.

That bearded
guitar playing
Demi God
spoke the words
I longed to write.

She was of a
Northern tribe
but spoke the language
of the Devils
and drank only
Volcano fire.

Her tattoos,
calm voice,
dyed hair and
flawless brows
are what pulled
me in.

I fought off Love
and gave in to the
muse while watching
yet another
Southern Migration
pass overhead.

Apartment door locks
all threw themselves secure
as the shadows grew taller
and West wasted itself
back into the sea.
Dec 2015 · 306
Stained
A B Perales Dec 2015
The rains
crept
up on
Los Angeles.

Right along
side the
silent
morning
fog.

And the air
was clear
and devoid of
that ugly scar
of pollution.

Within the days
the ugliness,
my ugly cough
and the hurtful air
returned.
Dec 2015 · 355
Its Already Over
A B Perales Dec 2015
.

I awoke to a day that had been overtaken

The curtains were closed so I opened them .

I stood there in a pair of jersey shorts and a little bit of a headache.

The phone rang somewhere in the other room

I couldn’t pull myself away

I waited for the light to come in.

I stood there like a fool.

Thick black clouds had all settled into a part of the sky

No birds flew in this kind of weather.

No light to remind me its day.

I awoke to a day that had been overtaken .

Hopefully tomorrow it wont be the same
Dec 2015 · 398
The Young
A B Perales Dec 2015
Beneath the shade of
an untrimmed
Juniper tree children
swing from
Hemp  ropes while
singing innocent
rhymes about killing.

The girls use nets
made from a
Reed switch
and catch gentle
Swallowtails
with no intentions
of ever letting them go.
Dec 2015 · 794
Looking Back On Love
A B Perales Dec 2015
The drunk guy and his drunk girl both sat
on the concrete near the dumpster along
with their oil stained dog.
The guy had stacked up some cardboard
for his girl to rest her backside on.
The dog drank cool water from an old tin.

The guy always greeted me with a tobacco
stained smile and a ***** open palm wave.
His girl was always drunk even when he obviously wasn’t.
Maybe that was his way of keeping her around.
Sacrifice a bottle for the company of her.

The dog  appeared fainthearted and
a bit skittish but his tail always wagged
at the sight of a stranger.
A hopeful wag, a heartening gesture.
One that said he still had hope that one
of these strangers would one day take
him home and away from the life
his fate had cast upon him.

I always took the time to greet the
drunks and the dog.
The guy’s face had that worn leather
look with his bold Native features
and his deep mocha colored skin.
His spiel was always the same he'd
praise my coat and my truck,
the dog would always wag his agreement.

I made sure to always leave them with
a fresh bottle of some cheap wine or
even cheaper *****.
A pack of GPC’s
and a stick of jerky for the dog.

The guy always took the gifts without standing.

He smiled and his drunk woman smiled
and the ***** dog wagged his ***** tail.
He would applaud me as I walked away.
Which for some reason caused me to
feel a bit less instead of feeling better.

Their joy was real.
***** back alley drunken joy.
While mine was only a front.

This all took place before all of this.
At a time when I thought
I was in love.
Dec 2015 · 326
Lingering Kind Of Need
A B Perales Dec 2015
I lost sight of what it was
that brought me to this.

Skipped the holy water
and went straight for the wine.
A God who forgives
is God who won’t mind.

I got too many questions
with no one to ask.
I mumble to myself to
feel less alone.

I turn to the flower of forgetfulness
whose blood will ease my pain.

Two words appeared
on the tiny screen.
Two words that tore a hole right through
what I thought I had repaired.
“ It’s me…”

The Condor is  scavenging its way
back into existence
across barren California deserts.

I find I’m more concerned  
with things that are too far away
and too far gone for me or
anyone else to care for.

I had her for a little while.
But that little while
meant everything to me.

I got a number and
a place to lay my head.
A big enough stash to
keep this Monkey at ease.

I got all of what I need to
make it  through the night.

Yet  I still long for the
little  things
that never
did care just
a little bit for me.
Nov 2015 · 365
Alley talk XV
A B Perales Nov 2015
They call them
brave and they
call them heroes.

As they drop
their bombs
while safely
away from the
battles below.
Nov 2015 · 443
Give It Another Shot
A B Perales Nov 2015
I opened
the door and cringed at my own actions.
The day was bright and most would
describe it as beautiful.

I **** the beauty of the day
with my dark sunglasses and
step out like a nocturnal little beast
being forced from the comfort of his burrow.

I see Poe's Ravens atop a stuccoed
apartment building all screaming
their curses into the wind.
Mad squirrels dashing across
live power lines as worried pigeons
cooed their concern.

Cars pass and all I can smell
is cheap laundry detergent  
dog **** and fuel beneath it
all the tickling scent of the salted sea.

A girl leaned against a wall
staring at her bitten down nails.
Her mismatched clothing and dyed close
cropped hair almost blended in with the graffiti .
I passed and I think she called me
lover .

The tall proud palms looked down upon
me as I avoided the cracks in the sidewalk.
I tried my hardest not to turn around and flee
back into the safety of my darkened room.

There's a group of daytime drinkers
angrily smoking outside the bar.
I instinctively reach deep into
my pocket and caress the buck knife
as I pass through the drifting
tobacco smoke .

One guy spits and another guy
toes the sidewalk with the tip
of his work boot.

I concentrate on their actions .
I don't care about their faces .

I'm just trying to move through the world like dust.
Hitching a free ride on the winds produced
by the passing cars and the passing memories.

I curse myself for fooling myself into trusting another day.
for I've learned that only the night forgives .
Only by the light of the not so distant
stars and not so distant moon
does this world truly appear inviting.
Nov 2015 · 386
Eys Wide And Mind Open
A B Perales Nov 2015
Could it be we've
all been trained
with bells?

Or is it the symbols.
The Thirty three's
and hand gestures.
The tridents and the
five pointed stars.
The eight
sided pentagons
and the eye
that's always
watching.

Is it that we've
all been fooled?

Could it be the Son
is nothing more
than the Sun of
the morning?
Nov 2015 · 440
Associate The Masters
A B Perales Nov 2015
The rich kids never read
Bukowski.
The poor kids all read the
same dog eared copy of
"Women".

The Animal Control guy tries to feel
Nietzsche while parked within
the shade of a drooping
Eucalyptus.
While his frightened captives
**** in their pins and wait on death.

She gave me my first copy
of Kerouac and made sure she
took it back when she
packed her things and left
for good .

I found Dante half dead
and forgotten in a prison cell.
His Inferno had been stripped of its
jacket and was scarred with graffiti.

I read passed the torn
and missing pages
and when I was done.
I went back and walked
through that
Cold and Confusing Hell
with Dante as my guide.

Over and Over again.
Nov 2015 · 571
Everlasting
A B Perales Nov 2015
This is What I Do.

What I do brings
immortality.

The Words will
always outlast
the Labor.
Nov 2015 · 980
Where's My Sunglasses?
A B Perales Nov 2015
It came around again
for we are at the center
of our everything.
And the center never
moves.

From between jagged
ancient mountain tops
it's appearance came to be.

Made its way
across a deadly
California desert.
Over a  mysterious,
***** blondes bare
freckled shoulder.

Through the track homes
and the cheap motels.
Between  a beautiful ******
open legs and runny nylons.

Past the clerk asleep in the  hotel lobby.
Past the stolen car
outside.
Across the cluttered
room and
across a dark alley way

Up the main street
of some nowhere type of town.
Across the freeway and the blood stain.
Past the curbside motive candles.

Above the glass like surface
of the morning  dead calm sea.
Through the fisherman's hopeful heart.
And the starlets dying flame.

Over the pages of my
favorite book,
my favorite line.
"Run to me, Come to me'


Through my
half empty ***** bottle
then bounced its way off the cracked
goodluck mirror  and  caught
me straight in
the eye.

Another day had arrived
and with it
the blinding ray.

The first sign
that you've made it
to waste another beautiful
Southern California
day.
Oct 2015 · 500
Saturdays Are For Her
A B Perales Oct 2015
I could make out familiar shapes in the darkened single room apartment.
A thin bar of flashing neon red came in through the minor separation in the resin stained curtains.
I secured the door with the cheap throw latch and the thin chain.
She heard the click then spoke from deep within the darkness.
"Is it locked?"she asked, even though she knew it was.
"Yea" I answered knowing that she needed to hear me say it in order to calm the  madness in her head.
I switched on a shadeless lamp as she nodded her head and mumbled something to the demons who lived inside of her.
She sat cross legged on the neatly made bed  picking bits of  lint off the folded pink comforter while humming a song I had never heard.
I looked her over before she had a chance to turn the lights back out like she always did.
Her bangs hung over her deep pocket eyes and her nails had all been bitten down to the flesh.
It looked like she had dyed the tips of her hair a greenish blue color.
She had one of my old Black Flag T-shirts on and baggy black sweat pants. Her light brown almost amber eyes were blood shot.
  Her blinks were slow almost robotic and she had a fresh light scratch across her chin.
She looked good compared to the last time I had seen her.
  I moved carefully across the room toward the tiny kitchen and switched on  the light.
The single bare bulb flickered itself to life as the cockroaches all fled and vanished like magic.  
  I heard her move from the bed to the door as she checked the lock.
Then click off the lamp before her hurried footsteps took her back toward the safety of her bed.
  I left the honey bun and the beef jerky on the counter where I knew she'd find it later on when she was hungry. I stopped and took a Tupperware bowl from the cupboard and placed it over the snacks to keep the roaches away.
  She had  stopped eating in front of me over a year ago.
Right around the time she made me move out.
  I found some ice cubes in her empty freezer and came back out carrying the ***** and a plastic cup.
I topped off the cup and took a moment to let the ice melt.
I swirled the cup in a clockwise motion and tried not to stare at her.
I took a swig  before handing it to her.
She took the cup in both hands without ever looking up.
She slurped her drink and released a tiny gasp as the fire burned down into her gut.
  I sat down  on the edge of the bed and waited for her to come around  like I always did.
I  leaned in toward the 13' black and white TV she never  watched and turned it on.
The television  played only static    I noticed there was no cable or rabbit Ears attached to it then wondered if there ever had been.
  I flipped through the static covered channels until  she said
"Leave it there". So I did.
  I leaned back on my elbows  and felt her hand rest on my shoulder.
I carefully placed my own hand on top of hers, she almost pulled away as I did so.
But something deep beneath  the madness that had taken her away from me stopped her. She gently stroked my hand with her thumb.
I couldn't help but grip hers a little tighter all in hopes of maybe in some way bringing her back from that child like state she had fallen into almost 2 years ago now.
There we sat almost  holding hands like the way we used to do.
Both of us staring at the static littered TV screen.  
All was silent all except for that sound of her humming that song I couldn't recognize and the static from the television she never watched.
The static that filled the air with that timeless white noise of confusion.
Oct 2015 · 579
I Might Have Missed A Few
A B Perales Oct 2015
The blackboard had been wiped clean
of all the equations and answers.
All but one question remained.
"Why Are You Here?"

My first thought was
I'm here to try and
keep myself out of
there.

I'm here to bring
attention to
the broken hearts,
the alcoholic writers
and the dreams we
never share.

I'm here to show my face
and prove to them that
I am  everything  they
could not  ****.

I'm here to read the works
the mad men left
behind.
I'm here for the ******,
the ***** and the one
night stands.

I'm here to fall in love
and fall out of favor.

I'm here to use as much
as I can without dying.

I'm here to break their laws
and  to expose all those who claim
to understand this vision.

I'm here to **** them off and
provide them with  reasons
to speak thy name in vain.

I'm here to steal from
the rich and keep it.

I'm here to write it
all down without
losing my mind or my life.

I'm here to avoid the crowds
and admire the
empty city streets at midnight.

I'm here to burn the red candles and
fear not the coming age.

I'm here for what lays beyond
the ice.
Here to share the
secrets they  all **** to keep.

I'm here to give thanks to
La Muerte, Little Martha
and The Skinny girl.

I'm here for the girls who
sing alone and shiver at the memories
of growing up  in a broken home.

I'm here to write something that the
Convicts and the Delinquents could
both relate to.

I'm here for that Raven haired
girl with the perfect bangs and
sculpted brows.
The girl who smiled her Blood red lips
and called me Dangerous.

I'm here to write about the Hummingbird,
the lonely Writer  and the habit that
killed a certain girls everything.

I'm here to laugh as they
all cry.
Here to cheer over their hissing sounds.
Here to celebrate at their time of mourning.

I'm here to be as far apart
from all of you as I can.

I'm here for the invitation
that I never received.

I'm here to take the
blame and provide an escape.

Here to prove her right when
she was oh so wrong.

I'm here to act as if I didn't know.
Here to play with the
guilt that plagues them in their sleep.

Here for the Latch key kids
and unwanted dogs.

I'm here for DMT ,the LSD
and the secrets they both
hold but never tell.

I'm here even though
most times I wish I  wasn't.

I'm here all alone
although it
wasn't always this way.

I'm here to try and put these
words in their place.

Here to keep their spirits
up while trying to keep
my own from dying.

Here to fill the pages the young
will read tomorrow.

Here to share what it is I do
without exposing my true sorrows.

I'm here to finish what they  
started without mimicking their style.

I'm here to keep them
on their toes while
concentrating on tomorrow.

I'm here to remove the  Globe
from all curriculum's.

Here to put an ending to
all of the foolish lies.

I'm here to answer your questions
as honestly I can.

I'm here today but can be gone
tomorrow.

I don't know what we're all
doing here,
I can only speak
for me.
Oct 2015 · 429
Life Of The Party
A B Perales Oct 2015
The music wasn’t too loud and the band played only instrumental music.
Music that I found rather pleasant as it drifted its way above the senseless conversation and obnoxious laughter of one particular group of young drunk ladies .

The potted plastic plants stood stone silent next to the cheap pressed wood tables filled with used paper plates ,plastic forks, wadded up napkins and half full clear plastic cups.
The flower arrangements at each table had all began to droop as the air became more stale with the sweat and the breath of the drunken people whose beauty they were all meant to admire.
I heard about how stiff the drinks were and how long the ladies room line was.
I overheard conversations about money and addicted daughters, ******* bosses and good deals on tires.
I heard them admire the fact there was no traffic on the way here and how the food was ok.
I purposely listened for any comment made about the dying young flowers whose time was cut short in order to be at their table.
I listened the whole night .
I heard no such thing.

A pair of huge ******* brushed against my bad shoulder as a large woman with dyed black hair and too much jewelry on began to speak into my ear.
She spilled a splash of her drink on my only good pair of shoes.
She knew what she did but never bothered to apologize.

The cheap faux wooden dance floor laid there like a minefield devoid of the swaying bodies and sweaty torsos.
Yet for some reason the music still played on.

I noticed she had a strange need to be as close to you as possible as she spoke.
Her conversation was about as cheap as my shoes and the empty linoleum dance floor.

The party balloons began to lose their ability to float above the senseless conversation,
cheap cologne ,dying young flowers, plastic plants and plastic *******.
I smiled as they began to slowly fall to the floor.

For the third time that night I cursed my decision to come here and mill about with the rest of the cattle.
I went to the bar and got another drink.

Overweight women with undersized clothing stood in line to the single stalled ladies room like needy mothers in a well fare line.

This pair of ******* kept themselves snug against my bad shoulder as the lip stick painted mouth with the tobacco stained teeth kept on about what she did and where she went, who she knew and where she wanted to be and how badly she wanted to smoke.

I downed my drink, the drinks were strong, the drinks were good.
I stopped her in mid sentence and said.
“The trees they all die in silence in the forest’.

I made my way towards the exit passed the dying flowers and the sweaty men.
I hit the double doors with all I had and stepped out into the welcoming night.
I took in the scents of the salt water and the burning fuel, the taco truck across the street and the ***** still on my lips.

Before I left I went back in and tipped the Mexican bartender a 20 dollar bill.
Him and his stiff drinks were obviously the life of the party and the only real reason I was glad I came.
Oct 2015 · 302
Alley Talk XII
A B Perales Oct 2015
I don't need
you to
Love me
I just need you
to do what
I want.
Oct 2015 · 585
The 1 Percent
A B Perales Oct 2015
I wish to watch them bleed and pay for their selfish deeds.
I want to hold her hand as we watch their mansions burn .
I need to know the last of their kind has been brought to their knees.
I long for the children in the sweatshops to be allowed a little fun.
I plan on taking from the filthy rich and keeping it.
Sep 2015 · 398
Stuck In The Loop
A B Perales Sep 2015
.
They tell us what is and isn’t fantasy.
Instantly numbing the mind of any hope
of any chance at creating something
pure of all their rules.

I can’t say I knew it or I seen it coming.
I can’t say I’ve never been here before.
And I still can’t figure out why I would
ever want to come back.

Its the signs and symbols not the rulers and the laws.
The veil is lifting and what’s hiding beneath will leave
you questioning everything until your mind goes weak
and you give in to the eye.

It went from Stein to Stain and none of us even noticed.
Mirror Mirror to Magic Mirror
Who's playing these games
with our minds.

When the light is revealed don’t expect to see me.
They’ll want my tongue and my writing hand.
Both of which I'll manage to live without.
Sep 2015 · 349
Alley Talk XI
A B Perales Sep 2015
The louder
the
music.
The quieter
the
screams.
Sep 2015 · 483
Nothing Special
A B Perales Sep 2015
Half way through the day I discovered it was a holiday.
I checked the calendar in the kitchen just to be sure.
I stood by the sink and looked out at the day
and I still didn’t feel like celebrating.

The guy next door gets drunk on
Sundays.
I watched his wife get ******* while he was at work.

I started a story the first line was this:
“A brown bagged bottle of Strawberry Hill with cherry lip-gloss around the end sat in an empty locker as the Cheerleaders cheer some cheesy ryming song”

When the Light was accepted the drunks
in the bars blocked the windows and the doors.

The dancing girl remained that pale beautiful
I watched her stumble with a broken heel dangling
off her pink manicured finger tips.

It didn’t get hard.
It didn’t become such a challenge
until I knew I was approaching the end.
Sep 2015 · 313
The Truth As A Lie
A B Perales Sep 2015
Imagine if there was more to our world than what we've been trained to believe.
Imagine if it was all a Lie,the Heroes they create for us and the goals they've claimed to have already reached.
Imagine if all of that knowledge you forced yourself to remember turned out to be nothing more than words to keep you from asking questions.
Imagine a world as inhabitable as our own and as close as a vacation destination.
Imagine your mind free of the trained way and your thoughts as open as the ones I share with you today.
Imagine if you could an infinite plain with pockets of life like a honeycomb with worker bees there to protect it from the destructive hand of man.
Imagine if there was more,more mountains and clean rivers. Species to be discovered, unknown fruits to be eaten and medicinal plants whose cures can save us all.
Imagine all of this or Imagine just a few lines of this.
How would our leaders react to the fact there is more land.
Would they share it with the masses for us to seek out and destroy with our constant want for more?
Imagine if it was all a Lie from the man on the moon to the man you call your savior.
Imagine a ball floating in a space of nothing while spinning thousands of miles an hour with billions of living beings feeling nothing of this spin and seeing nothing of this ball.
The Earth is flat there is more land and thats a fact you will soon be forced to deal with.
Aug 2015 · 365
Alley Talk XI
A B Perales Aug 2015
I'm counting
on all of
the things
I've already done
to get me
through all of
what I won't
do tomorrow.
Aug 2015 · 277
Its Different Now Pt.1
A B Perales Aug 2015
The first time
I was too young
to do
anything else but
enjoy it.

Trying to understand it
was too much
like thinking.

And when you're young
and as free as I was
you didn't spend
too much time on thinking
about anything at all.

When I was young a thought
became a deed before I had
a chance to think it
over again.
Aug 2015 · 372
One Less Painful Night
A B Perales Aug 2015
She told me
everything powerful
always remains hidden.

I remained silent when
she reached across the
candle lit counter and exposed
her arm past the wrist as
she topped off her glass.

I showed no emotion as
she unintentionally exposed
the flesh beneath
the sleeve of her knitted
second hand sweater.

She told me how the
pills and the ***** had
replaced the priest and
the sacrificial wine.

I kept my eyes on her
drink as the ***** quivered
from the surface tension
along the rim of the smokey
highball glass.

She told me she was too fast
for love but too afraid to be alone.

I took my time with my own bitter
drink as she continued on.

She said she wanted more
sedation and less acceleration.

She wanted ice cubes for her drinks
that didn't melt so fast.

She wanted Winehouse back
and for the butterflies to come to
her.

She wanted to light up the
darkness like Goya did.

But most of all she wanted
everything she wrote down
to leave her forever.

All I wanted was to help get
her through the night.

I started by tucking my fighting
knife away and by really listening
while ignoring the marks on
her arm.

Those hurtful jagged scars
of a Cutter.
Jul 2015 · 575
Alley Talk X
A B Perales Jul 2015
Mad
squirrels
dash across
live power
lines.
Jul 2015 · 415
Let Them Burn Alone
A B Perales Jul 2015
I tried and was
attacked.

I shared and was
ridiculed.

I presented evidence
that they all
refused to see.

In the end I took
care of only
my own.

I contributed to the
illusion
by remaining silent.

I lived out my days
shielding my thoughts
from them  all.

Spent my remaining
years away from the fray
where the wild dogs
still grin at the sight
of the moon.
Jul 2015 · 447
The Policy Political
A B Perales Jul 2015
In these times it takes nothing
more than a ray shining
through a window to
ignite the flames of war.

Those lying talking
heads who play on your
emotions while sticking
to the script and dishing
out the fears.

The Politicians who guide our fate
and ship our young to fight in
foreign wars in far away
foreign lands.

Our leaders are like small children
upon dangerous weapons.

And death rides with them.
Jul 2015 · 482
War Horse Revival
A B Perales Jul 2015
I seen him again today
sitting on the cold
metal bench with
his worn cane resting
against his aching knee.

He had his blue prison issue
watch cap pulled on tight
covering his
bald head and most
of his eyes.

He had thick white hairs
poking out of his long ago
broken nose.

Fat blue green veins
and liver spots ran
along his swollen
and scarred
calloused hands.

He had a  faded tattoo
between his
thumb and index finger of
a distorted 9 legged spider
with the word VENOM.

His conversation is at best
minimal, he's here to pay his
due. Just as the Doctors and
Nurses aren't here to comfort you.
They're here to keep you alive
even if you don't want to be.

They'll spend thousands of dollars
to keep you breathing,
they want what's owed.

I take a seat across from
him in the cold uncomfortable
holding tank they call a
waiting room.

He gives me a nod,
I return his gesture.

His left hand shakes,
a large hand at one
time a dangerous one.

His bottom lip sticks out,
his right eye droops and
the tattooed teardrops
droop along with it.

I look without staring.
I've heard he killed men
with his bare hands when he was
young, when he was strong.

A sick of it all nurse
approaches the cage and
calls his name.

He slowly uses his cane
to stand as his ancient knee caps
pop then says,
" They want their pound of flesh,
I'm a stubborn *******".

He looks at me and winks
then smiles a toothless
warriors smile.

I smile because I know he
means it .

He limps past.
He pays his debts.












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Jun 2015 · 407
10 Word War
A B Perales Jun 2015
I said,
"Give me
something
to write on
maybe
then you'd
understand."
A B Perales Jun 2015
It's not the fear that brings
about the images the painter
paints.
The words the writer writes.
The shapes the sculptor
sculpts.
Or the sounds the
musician brings.

It's the knowledge that there is more
than the trash filled gutters.
The windowless bars and
loveless street girls.
The foreign commerce you are
expected to buy and the life
you've been trained to sink
yourself  into while still dreaming
of oh so much more.

Some gifts shine and cast rainbows
in the light and some gifts expose the
darkness we all know is there but still
refuse to see.

The masses look to make a Hero
out of the artist.
They set prices on the works
and attempt to understand the
view.

This craft here comes in waves.
All there is to do is
try to keep up with the demands
of this ongoing battle
for time.

Time to sacrifice more
to the machine.
Less time for all the bad things.
More time for the gift.

My need to shy away from
the crowds in order to
create hand woven magic in the
dark.
The need to challenge Platos
view.
The need to feel the numbing
cold of Dantes Hell.
The need to live out my days
in Bukowskis harsh vision
of the world.

The gears of their clocks
keep grinding.
Grinding like a junk yard tweekers
teeth.

My remaining pages remain
unfilled and the sun has already
set on my tomorrow.
Jun 2015 · 478
Thought You'd Like To Know
A B Perales Jun 2015
You're taught to
Love your country
but suspect your
neighbor.

You are to worry
about those natural
lines across
your aging face.

But say nothing of
the unnatural lines
left across clear blue
skies by nameless
planes with faceless
pilots.

You are to cheer for
ball chasing men
and cry over victims
of unrealistic crimes.

You depend on the televisions
to bring you the truth.
The same televisions that have
all become just as
flat as the plane you live on.

But that's another secret
you're still not ready to know.
Jun 2015 · 432
Evolved Into This
A B Perales Jun 2015
I sat out front
on the large
concrete steps
and allowed my mind
to slip just to
see how it felt.

The occupants of
the Mad house
sat and moved
about around me.
Some held intense
conversations
with the air and
with all that wasn't
there.
Others picked at
scabs or picked
inside of noses.
Their polluted
minds wondered about
everything
except why I was
there.

A guy in furry
slippers and a women's
hat decided I was
there to give out cigarettes.
His face froze with
confusion and horror
when I told him
that I didn't smoke.
Another guy
danced on the sidewalk
in wide dramatic circles
to the music in his
head .
His eyes were
closed and his zipper
was down.

I stared across Beacon st.
along with some of the  Mad
and watched two winos
as they sat on a bench
in their park.
They each drank out of
***** paper bags,
an occasional
mumble exchanged.

The scavenging gulls
stood sentry
as the pigeons
picked at the
ground around
them.

I looked past the winos
through the palm fronds
and the eucalyptus.
A hulk of a container
ship slowly made
it's way along the
harbors main channel.
I thought about the
history of this place.

Where once sat a
library,a place to
seek out and to learn.
Now sits two winos
with their own
kind of knowledge.
And what was once a
YWCA a place for
recreation and youth.
Now serves as housing for
those whose minds have
wondered too far.
Those who dance on
Beacon st.,
alone.
To no ones music
but their own.
Jun 2015 · 1.3k
Only On Rare Occasions
A B Perales Jun 2015
Vengeance my cruel
and humorous
friend.

Come sit beside me
and watch all
these fools pretend.

Vengeance my
keeper of debts.
The only real
promise I've ever
made and actually kept.

While walking
with Vengeance
I  came upon Patience
and learned
the importance
of waiting another day.

With Vengeance I
found the strength
to break both arms of
time.
I made time make
more  time
for me.

Vengeance led the
sandal wood
to my shoulder.
Granted me the
sight of the eagle
while taking aim at
my desire.

Vengeance calm my
anger,whisper
promises in my
ear again.

Vengeance my old
faithful friend
I'm so glad
I  haven't felt the need
to call on
you again.
May 2015 · 629
Killing Clouds
A B Perales May 2015
I watched more
planes criss cross
the sky today.

Planes without
destinations ,passengers
or reasons why.

Planes that leave behind
thick lines across our skies
like a destructive hand
with graffitti.

There's no more floating
dogs or drifting ,parting
dancing girls.
No more summer flowers
or slowly gliding flying
cars.

The clouds above
the city don't
form the different shapes
like they used to do.
May 2015 · 408
Like No Other
A B Perales May 2015
There she sat
cross legged
on the
neatly made bed.

She held the Wine
bottle and a lit cigarette
in one hand.

And used the other to
slowly
pick the lint
off the comforter
while humming
a song
I'd never heard .
May 2015 · 449
This Won't Happen
A B Perales May 2015
There are plenty
of emotionally
damaged
souls who'd
love to
dance upon
my grave.

May even be a few
brave enough to
do me in
themselves.

I could call most
of them
off by name.

But by
doing that
I'd be granting
them Glory.

And Glory ,
in all
of its forms
must always
be earned.
A B Perales May 2015
I gave into it ,
put down my fighting knife
and succumbed to it.

Like a fallen Palmetto
to the untamed selfish sea,
I fell into it.

Found myself weightless
and dry of tears,
relived of the rush
of the heart.

Veins thick with the
Poppies warmth.
Slack faced towards the heavens
in search of something more.

Saw her face made up of
unnamed stars and canceled out
all other constellations.

It took hold of me,
like the mouth of the wolf
it devoured me.

I was open and couldn't
deny.

That there was nothing of this blood
ruled earth to compare with the beauty
of a star dressed night .
A B Perales May 2015
Drug along my gratitude
through the open doors
of wisdom.

Found myself stepping
into a world painted
in blackness.
With only dim city
street lights to dye the
air faded shades of
green,yellow
and red.

Far off in the land
of memory rainbow slicked
Harbor waters lap at ancient
breakwall  stones like slow
rhythmic veiled maidens.

I count the blue lights along
that familiar span across
the fuel laced waters.

Then all at once
I pull myself from
yesterday and back into
the golden light of Nimrods
dawn.

I return to what is no longer
blackness.

It comes to me that another
tomorrow has already arrived
a day worth of hours ago.
May 2015 · 428
Chasing The End
A B Perales May 2015
I allowed my instinct
to guide my way.

I took to the night
like the feral cats and
the ***** mice.

Used my magical headphones
to block out the sirens ,
the night birds and the
voices in my head.

Avoided the spaces where the
neon lights and the ancient
street lamps invaded the peaceful
moon cast shadows.

I listened to Frusciantes voice
and allowed myself to
drown in the cool
forgiving darkness.

I wondered from deep
shadow to deeper doorway,
quietly gathering reasons from
the void.

I wandered aimlessly with
no destination.

All the time knowing that there
wasn't anywhere I really
wanted to be
but gone.
May 2015 · 761
Real Quick
A B Perales May 2015
The hotel room walls
weep as the sandy hair
girl lays on her stomach
while dancing in a dream she'll
never remember.

Her skin was a ******* white
and there were water stains
on the ceiling that made out
the shape of a pistol.

Took a moment to take another
hit and murdered some more
of the hurt today.

It's 4 AM and my day never
ends.

I worked on the Whisky
because the Whisky was there.

I watched her sleep,
she slept like the dead.
May 2015 · 501
Observation
A B Perales May 2015
A
Blackbird
chased
crickets
in the
grass.
May 2015 · 540
No Lux On 6th
A B Perales May 2015
I roamed as free as
the wild green parrots
and the grandiose peacocks
all up and down
the darkest street
in San Pedro.

Our yard was without
boundaries and full of the buried
treasures of the past.
I'd spend summer days
digging in patched
kneed jeans.
Pulling from the dirt
old time cork top bottles
that once held
***** laced syrups and
other types of liquid joy.

When another ones life needed
saving the red flashing  lights
of fury lit the darkness with faint
hues of shifting reds as the
chariot of death sped past our
grand window.

The pill box shaped hospital sat
atop the hill like a morbid
kings Gothic castle.
Always overlooking
the lightless way.

Memories of our golden *****
running proudly across the canyon ,
a ***** white free roaming
hen still flapping
between her saliva,blood soaked
jaws.

Or the back street rushing
with brown garbage laden
runoff as the heavens opened
and cried rain upon the earth.

I didn't stand a chance up against
the pull of the *******
the dragon and all the
crimes and times away
it brought with it.

I laughed and fought along
side the ****** ones
and became apart of
something more than me.

I learned the true meaning
of the number 13
and earned the right to tattoo it
on my young body like the
true symbol of valor  
it is.

Life on the darkest street
in San Pedro
where the fall leaves of the
Eucalyptus
and the fruit trees burned
lasting colors of
yellow ,orange and red.

Those early years on the darkest
street in San Pedro
where my young mind took in
all the bad it could.

Coming of age on the
darkest street in San Pedro
with most of whom who are
long since dead.

My young life so long ago
on the darkest street in
San Pedro
brings about some of the
brightest memories
I have today.
Apr 2015 · 632
What It Is
A B Perales Apr 2015
It takes all it can like
a feral cat with a babies
breath before leaping back
out into the night.

It takes the laughter and
the loving arms that
always welcomed
you home no matter
how long you
were away.

It tears at the root
of the heart
and turns washed out
memories into
shinning treasures.

It leaves behind broken
and battered vessels,
nothing like what was
before.

It takes what
should have been
and what used to be all in
one selfish act.

Its the promise we
all live with that so
many choose to ignore.

Its the final act
and the end of things.

Its Death and
Death takes
everything.
Kailoni  Nunez Tucker
12/2/81 - 2/6/15
Rest Easy
Friend
Apr 2015 · 563
Alley Talk VIIII
A B Perales Apr 2015
I wasted
far too much
on far too
little.

And I'm
no longer waiting
on the best
to arrive.

I'll settle
for something
as plain as a silhouette
and as simple
as the truth.
Apr 2015 · 425
Here's A Peek
A B Perales Apr 2015
I've made it through
sleepless nights,with
burnt out friends and
strange beautiful
burnt out  girls.

I've made plans for a
better day,
just as all
of the promises I
had already made
slowly faded away.

I watched a sunset into a
parallel horizon
then sat and waited for it to rise
again.

I've reasoned with
the Dragon
as the  blood ran
down my arm.
Lost the battle and
the girl and never thought
twice of doing it all again..

I loved all the wrong
women.
Even the ones
who I knew
had definitely
gone Mad before
they came to me.

I stopped asking
for forgiveness
the moment it
didn't come.

I buried a beautiful
woman,
a young innocent
friend.
Yet I cried
for others
who aren't even dead.

This challenge of
making it through
yet another day.
A day just as  empty
as the day before always
keeps me occupied.

Anything to keep my
finger off the
trigger,the needle
from my arm and
her cooing  promises
far from my ear.

The words and
different versions
of things
run rampant
in my head.

Its getting them all out
without holding back that's
hard.

Its what keeps this pencil in my hand
and the weapons I use against me
carefully put away where they belong.
Apr 2015 · 464
Say Nothing
A B Perales Apr 2015
I spoke without
thinking,
unintentionally
exposing
one of my
only secrets
in this
place.

He grinned,
the way only
old men who
have seen
too much
of the bad in
this world
are able
to do.

The deep lines
of age in his
pocked scared
face all grew
deeper
as his grin
turned
into a smile.

"Poetry"
he said.
Then took a
moment
as he let
the taste of the
word roll around
his mouth and between
his broken  and missing
teeth.

'That's different'
,he said
before forgetting
what it was
he was thinking of.

Then he asked me for a
cigarette.

To which I informed
him that I didn't smoke,
for the 4th time
that day.
Apr 2015 · 722
There's More
A B Perales Apr 2015
My visions alone
can't
help this need
to be so set
apart.

Apart without
ever losing sight
of the word
to come.

Far enough
ahead to
see all it is they
**** to protect.

High along
the edge of
our earth,
high enough to
see across the
flat horizon.

Far enough to
see the
secrets  beyond
the ice.
Apr 2015 · 389
The Words Out
A B Perales Apr 2015
The blues and the greens all swirl and become one another.
Like a painting done by an artist whose palate  be our sky.

Lost and lonely drift wood rides the surf onto the shore.
No one can keep drifting wood from drifting.

The girls lay soaked in magical oils with large black sunglasses and tiny string bikinis.Never dreaming beyond today.

Laughing dolphins slice through blue green oceans chasing big eyed tuna from sea to dying sea. All the while laughing ,laughing at the fact we can not see.

Bottled up love letters and egg packed turtles find their way onto the shore.

Keepsakes and wedding bands, car keys and time pieces all forever lost within the depths of a sandy beach.

Like the crowd at the theater on an opening night we line the shores along the edge of the world and await that final show the setting sun always brings.

May the cares I had for this day pass  burn themselves with the colors of a breaking sky slapped across with pastel pinks and soft tinted blues.

May I stand among the crowds,paint my face as dull as theirs.
Shade the knowledge from my eyes while we watch the sun move on.

May the crowds not see my satisfying grin as the sun gives way for dark and gives light to the land beyond the ice.
The land we can not see.
Apr 2015 · 447
Gonna Quit Tomorrow
A B Perales Apr 2015
Her tears fell
heavy,
weighted down
by the sodden
sobs of
frustration.

Her throne
was cold
and often
smelled of
*****.

Her problem
was
never getting
enough of it
or always
running
out of it.

She warned all
who attempted
to get close to
her that
her soul was
not to be
shared.

This morning
she awoke
alone already
feeling the
gripping
anxiety slowly
tearing from
her insides.

A third of
her life
spent chasing,
a third of
her chance
spent numb.

After all
she recklessly,
threw away,
after all the
plans aborted.

Everything
worth anyhting had
long ago found its
way into
the hands
of those who had
what she needed
in that moment.

The only
thing of worth
she had left was  
what drew the lonely
men into her lonely'
room.

The barter cost
someone their flesh.

She had what she
needed but still
struggled
to find
the line beneath
her skin.
Apr 2015 · 426
Thanks Again
A B Perales Apr 2015
When I hugged
her I'd always hold
on for a second
too long.

When I made love
to her
I'd take my time,
slowly moving over
every inch of her body,
taking in all she
had to give.

Every kiss and
every smile.
Each time she
made me laugh
or made me sigh with
pleasure was
carefully stowed away
deep within the
cracks
of my memory.

Hidden like
buried treasure
are the
memories I run
to when the
hopelessness
sets in.

She always did her
hair while still *******
in the morning.
We'd part ways
on the porch,
her off to work
and I back onto
the streets.

 I was sure to create good
memories everyday
and to forget the bad
every night.
All this in preparation
for the day when all of the
bad I've done caught up to
me and I'd never be able
to be with her again.

Everything I did
with her I did a little
extra.
When she would sleep
I'd stay up a
little longer,
I'd get high in
the other room
and come back
in and watch her.

That's how life
is lived once
they've reached into
that space that are the
years of a young
mans life.
And ****** them
out like weeds
by the year.

There were good
times.

Sharing all we had
on a hotel bed,
the taste of her lipstick
as we drank warm
Schnapps straight from
the bottle.

I remember
watching her
watching me,
and my not
feeling the need
to flee.
And
my not feeling
so Dam alone.
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