there is a quiet space at the season's end
a path i've stumbled down
time and time again.
i sit silent among the trees
i learn about living and dying
as their golden leaves fall down toward me.

pulled down by those same old fears.
neck deep, regret keeps you there-
just enough air left to breathe and remember.

he never dreams anymore. the thought of sleep
swirling around, brushing against his skin.
the image of a life before this burned upon his eyes.

he whispers as the sky falls dark.
"god, please let me drown."

the vessel.
your wings scorched upon the ground.
fallen, your ship pulled under,
into blackened seas, salt rich waters.
you lie on the shore. bound to a place that you can
never return.
grace hanging from your neck.
eyes glowing like starlight flowers.
you see the days pass. every one, numbered-
bathed in blood and light.
blink and an entire century is gone.

i have loved you as long as the night.
until the moon fell and grazed your lips.
break my body and take me with you.
let me lie beside you,
bones shaped by the waves,
sand formed into my knees.

forever watching the skies, sweet cassiel.

please remind me how your branches fall. let me catch their leaves. keep them warm before the chill of winter sets in.
i will photograph your eyes. please don't let me stay numb.

"how we get older, how we forget about each other."

i hollowed out your bones. drained the blood from your veins. you were my best kept secret. hid you away inside of this glass house. between four walls where the sun couldn't reach your eyes.
hello, beautiful. winter is coming and you're going to a place where summer can't save you. the years fly by and i can't forget your name. the stain left behind by what we once were. what we can never be again. sometimes i hear your voice and feel nothing but

sometimes i see your face and it changes everything.
how many times you've killed me. how many times you've saved me.
and i know my heart can't lie down there. nothing can stay.

in black and white dreams
you are the gold.
you are the light, the sun, the moon.
the everlasting flame.

angel, you are.

the earth was blue and you were gold
stone and sun, breathing in the same sky
i have always loved you.

the whole wide world opened up
the first time you smiled,
the first time you ever made me laugh
and you became everything.

who were we then?

"i remember december."