Dancing with friends
Yet feeling so alone
Because I tried to look pretty
For him tonight
Another fail
I'm not his type
He never cared
Dating is not the same
All he wanted was *** and drinks
Just a few dates
And that was it
What ever happened to innocent dating?
Time is lost with lousy guys
Losing patience every time
Tired of the same old thing
Lets go back to movies as dates
Holding hands and a warm embrace
Being free to make mistakes
That's what I liked
To date for fun
And go out as one
Brunch and all
Singing to the radio
We're still young
Let's make dating
Fun

It use to be what
Would haunt me
In my dreams
Make me cry
Waking up with blood shot eyes
I let my past creep in my mind
Let it torment me
Every night
I counted the days  
It would go away
Until that day
I would pray
To see the day
When I could not wait
Now I'm here
On with life
Looking pass
That past of mine

It's just a dream
Where the demons sing
All through the night
To wake me from my sleep
I wander through the night  
Figuring out where the noises ring  
Half asleep and just as scared
As I wonder what lead me to these
Broken stairs
I begin to fear
The noises around me growing faint
It's just me
Trying to make it up these stairs
The American Dream
With its broken steps  
How will I make it to the top
With the noises surrounding my
Every thought
As I climb
They begin to scream
Avoiding holes but hitting cracks
No one to hold
Because every individual
Is on their own.

They rip our seams
Looking for skin to see
Judging our being
For their very own greed

Wounded we are
Comparing our scars
Who is the beautiful Girl
No one shall ever know

She’s consumed in the conventional ways
Becoming a doll for one to play
A malleable soul
Waiting to break

The pressures of society peak
The next target yet to be seen

Start them young
Shape their mind
Show them what beauty means

Thin, tall, domesticated, white
Are these the standards taught?
Look at the beautiful models walk
That’s what they want
You to become.

It wasn't easy for me to admit
That I lacked good judgment skills

I didn't know what poor judgment was
Until I analyzed where I was

I hurt so many people
By not admitting I was wrong

I rejected being challenged
Because I thought I knew it all

I'm sickened at what I've done
But deserve what is to come

Poor judgement skills
Never warned how much it would ****

Experience only becomes a lesson
When you learn why it happened

No more excuses and blaming others
Owning up to my mistakes is what I'm after

When you're sad, anxious, and fearful
It's easy to ignore the reason

And there I was feeling alone
Upset about the things I could not control
Things going wrong
No sign had warn
But little did I know  
That these things had connected me
To our suffering world
So much hurt but little told
We meet the eyes of many
Those who refused to let go
Let your sufferings make you human
And empathize to those who know the feeling

There's one thing I can say
That is to never let a little rain
Cloud your many days

Things will go wrong
The innocent will be judged
We live in a world where
Reputation matters more than being wrong

So brace yourself and remain strong
Hold onto your family through it all
Close your eyes and find some peace
Because this world can drive ya crazy

Do the things that make you happy
Be patient for things will get better
Remember darkness won't last forever

I know this to be true
Things fall into place
When you're finally through