angelic resonance
distorting the thoughts
breeding fictions
within weak minds

Why might I ask, doth a path lie here
Amidst thorns and angry boughs
Why path, doth thy lie here
When you leadeth nowhere
For so long hath I traveled
Encountering oh so many dangers
Nowhere may I walk
Without a vicious hand drawing up sword
Fiery hate, burning steel
Alas, another life must I rip away
For I cannot lie down and die, no!
Ah, Tamriel, may I not just live in peace
Nay, into your war drawn, a side I must choose
And follow seemingly endless, pointless paths
Much akin to the one lying before me
Ordered to ****, ****, ****
No peace until one or the other side is annihilated
Upon my shoulders this burden lies
Betraying many whom hath trusted me along the way
Until one way or another a corrupted man lies in control
Then off again down another dreary path
Dark Brotherhood seeking my assistance
Ah, but thou art vile murderers
Down with ye all!!
My blade vows never to rise to such hatred and angst
Dragonborn, Dragonborn! Help us please!
Fetch the Elder Scroll, Banish the evil!
Yet another burden
It would seem all of Tamriel needs at least one favor
Yet I do not shy away
For I love thee, Skyrim
I love the smiles good deeds bring, the thanks
I will continue to fight for what I believe
Until to Sovngarde's arms I am graced

What is it so odd
not a good idea to seek answers here
of course you are seen as abnormal
God complex
compulsive
too empathetic
take some medicine
you need it apparently according to society
well no I will not change
I like me because I do love others
I like to save my planet
digging through trash to recycle is frowned upon
well, oh well
let me be me
I do not see me as a God
I just love, too much
there will be no excavating my inner me
so I will be me
and I won't take your **** pills

for so many years I thought the blood was rust
splattering the streets
obscured amongst the rubble
for so many years I thought the blood was rust
because the media told me so

Reeking of blood
cuts so deep
years of abandonment
eons of turned backs
when day falls it seems easier
night envelops, ripping away
the idea that the scars may ever heal
can trust ever be given willingly
when all that has been known is betrayal
human behavior observed
selfish
self sacrifice so rare
heads turn so easily at the first ray of green grass
on the other side of that white picket fence
are we all the same, is it all one
should we not all turn tail and run
no one man for all, no all for one
is it really dog eat dog
when shattered trust is that
where else is there to turn
but to your own scars
so expected
so familiar

And if truth I spoke
crucified would I be
*laughing

Beauty colossal is all I have ever seen
others may not have
but they were looking in all the wrong places
to be the one to hold you at night
exhilarated beyond belief
in any way, shape or form
that you may be
for within is where your wealth does truly lie
and I would never forget it
despite the sands of time
I know the truth
you have a beautiful soul
what on Earth could compete with such a force

A dream envisioned each night at rest
so surreal it has now become a nightmare
when knowing dreams are painted pictures lost in time
fantasy whispers of another life
letting go never wishing to awaken
dawn discovers another heartbreak
sacrificial ideals let the empowered rip away these thoughts
slowly drifting away seeing a never ending cycle
I am a gear in a machine
when broken lather the oil, suppress the pain
forget when I dream
and dawn breaks way to another blood stained day

Go the distance
cigarette in one hand
other on the steering wheel
listening to stories about drugs
keep running, do not stop
the world must end somewhere
why not on this backroad
step into a dream
become the fantasy
what is reality
when you live in the mind
I am quite insane
this thought is what hides it
judge me, hate me
I am honest
schizophrenia shines in times like these
who am I tonight
I will be a God hiding in silhouettes
a little girl crying in shame
or that boy screaming into the night
who cares when this is a dream

I doubt how I might view love
but perhaps a poet could make me fall again
scream at me how I am needed
I have not seen it before
maybe a poet could yell so loud
I hate to write these things for love and hatred
yea you read it, did you even hear
did it speak into your mind like fire
that is my mind absolutely ablaze
I need to be heard, for the love of God
truly heard, have I ever really been
except when another poet reads my mind
if you do not have the time to see these cries
you will never truly know my mind
thus you can never truly love who I am
call me crazy, but the one I fall for
must read and relish every sickening word
for I am sick of pouring out my soul and being unheard
stop loving my outward appearance and love my freaking mind
because let me tell you it is pretty warped
and I am only honest here
so if you want to know me just READ
**how ****** hard is it

Probably guilty of the same crime time and again
did ya know, I am right though
in all the travesties
keep looking in disgust
truly, it is a path worth walking
would you not go down
even when appearing thorny and broken as such
really, quite lovely it can be
when holding confidence with affinity
this way, I beckon
come, join me
I promise light does dawn at the end
it is just that
a long path
an enlightening road
no fear, come

Wide eyed serpentine sip the wine
elixir of death, o sweet release
weaving wisps in whistling tunnels
ripping, roaring, rushing, take the bait
release the fulcrum, tip the scales
*and soar

I see the contempt in your gaze
when you look down on me in a sneer
it really hurts when I just want to smile
and you cannot stand my presence

oh how I do not wish to work with you today...

A poet pouring emotions onto paper
Many times obscure, hard to discern
Most would skim over, not feel the burn
Letting the words slip out of mind like vapor

For another poet though, this is not the case
Every despairing, loving, passionate word is heard
Nothing said misunderstood, seen as absurd
Never judging, for every poet also has been in this place

What on Earth would be a better match made
Than a poet and another poet minds linked as one
No need for spoken words, no need to take action
Whisper it to one another on paper, a private serenade

Dancing a dance no other could understand
Two perfect souls forever intertwined
Knowing completely one another's mind
A poet who loves a poet, their passion withstands

Who can handle
a soul like mine
weeping, fighting, tortured
dying

dreams of insanity
if they come true
run, run, gone
who can keep up

terminally ill
harboring an unknown disease
inexplicable

make it stop
beaten
beaten
broken now
fear of abandonment
never to leave
very being under siege

wanting to be hurt
for it always hurts
pain so long
this is what brings life
or rather what drains it

not empty yet
keep draining me, please
until my essence disappears
eyes empty
soul deadened
completely gone
forgotten
forget
thus ceasing to exist

When the moon comes up to the shine of a face
The birds are fast asleep
When the lanterns hang from every post
The fairies leave their keep
They join their hands and sing their songs
That ne'er a soul can hear
In the springtime when the earth is new
To the fairies they draw near
To the fairies they draw near

Come away with me now to the sky
Up o'er the hills and the sea
Far beyond where memories lie
To a place where I'm free to be me

Oh, gather ye now one and all
No what matter what all ye may do
Where the stars fill your soul
When the moon cradles all
So to yourself be true

The blanket of snow is o'ercome
Each flower waits for the sun
And the whispering tears of the rain
Holds promise for everyone

Then come away with me, friends
No matter where you call your home
With a light in our hearts, we will never part
No matter how far we roam

Deep in the forest we go
Creatures are all fast asleep
With a kiss and a wink we will waken our souls
Love is the safety we'll keep

And then we'll dance through the night
Till the sun will sparkle at dawn
And up way we will go like last winter's snow
Soon our work will be done

Oh, gather ye now one and all
No what matter what all ye may do
Where the stars fill your soul
When the moon cradles all
So to yourself be true

Oh, gather ye now one and all
No what matter what all ye may do
Where the stars fill your soul
When the moon cradles all
So to yourself be true

So to yourself be true

I thought the trash bag was a bunny
will I live long enough
intense love cannot merely be painted over with a crisp new brush
the grass under my feet sinks like a freshly dug grave
thoughts of predictability more overwhelming day after day
knowing the system and the routine
sinking though my grave to the cavern below
I find a sense of comfort in my own abyss of black thoughts
have I wandered so far down that I am now lost
to what it means to be my scarecrow
my mind drifts once more to the trash bag bunny
I wish to die where the Autumn leaves place their crown atop my head
in the hidden wood, far below the cavern where all is enveloped
filled with trash bag bunnies and no more worries

Walk, walk on by so many did
gasping, I stopped and saw
a perfect gem untouched
in the center of the Earth
skip I did with glee
that all the blind
passed on by
and I found
treasure

Appearing sane, I lost my mind
at some point...
not due to love
not due to hate
but the pain I have seen
and the beauty I have only dreamed
that I will never touch
so if you care to ask...
the answer is no
driven quite mad
by this insane world
literally trapped within my dreams
I appear to be quite serene
reality stings too harshly
driven mad by sights and sounds
beautiful trees and dreams of dancing with them
lovely music that plays on end
teaching me of harmonious things that hide from me
my passion for love was stolen away
this may have tilted the scales some
for it now I have a vast aversion
trapped within this serenade
not writing a mere poem
this is a confession
that I am in fact mad, I swear
unable to be what is expected
thankfully, I am a **** good actor
or I may see white walls forever
but that is alright
I am still mad, trapped within a dream
so white wall me away friend, white wall me away...

Has it ever been real?
Love
consumed by so much darkness
lust taking precedence
wicked twisted snake
passion overfloweth
no soul can handle it
so to the darkness stay true
accustomed to loneliness
abandonment
were true love to present
can it then be accepted?
or is it too late
forever lost in the abyss
of tormented pain given by lackluster love

Dance into the spiral lights
across the desert, wicked dunes reaching to draw you in
a mirage could it be, would you not know
if into the hills did you not step?
oh, I see the stars so bright
licking the cool, calm sands with their incandescent light
scorpions breed within these mounds
quick, jump, skip in shadow do they not hide
their venom can be lethal or just another days toil, the usual...
quicksand, oh quicksand do not succumb!!
keep chasing the oasis.. keep crawling
dehydration has no effect when pursuing *Twisted Love

Oh, hello friend, am I looking in the mirror
I see a shadow, perhaps my reflection
Finding yourself lost in a dream, surreal
Pain reaches out and violently rips apart your being
Convinced you would only cause harm to reach out
You need to be sad, but you need to feel love
Give me your hand my kindred soul
Let us climb out of the bowels of Hell together
Keep dreaming, I will watch while you sleep
Let us teach one another how to see beyond our reflection
Build a new world

Could callousness revolt me anymore
holy crap the inane words washing over my my ears
how can I even endure seeing such narcissism
have I really fallen so far into a dream
that just to hear these things enrage me
I am unable to be surrounded by this
something draw me out of a reality
of daily discriminate *******
I cannot stand to be consumed by it anymore
completely changed is it so unseen
peering at naked women, material things
I find it so egotistical
I know I am freaking weird
but I cannot fathom it anymore
I am not me anymore
rip me out of this domain
toss me into a new realm

Loving my planet
I wish to wake each day
and ask
what have I done to help today
recycle
open some eyes maybe
to the damage being done
can I do more
probably
lets stand together
better one another
and build a brighter future
I have much to learn
so join me please
teach me
and I will teach you
let us create a better tomorrow

Can I be the one
to dig my nails into your flesh, gently
bite down, reaching to your soul
I wish to taste your skin and every scar held within
maybe, if you let me, my lips can heal them
I would kiss you relentlessly
even if to no avail
can I just be the one to try
I need to make you feel to make me heal

The sun breaks through to another day for me to see the choices I've made
It's easy to overlook the pain when there's nothing to lose and naught to gain
If my mistakes were rubber bands
I'd tie them all together and throw caution to the wind
But I never learn
No I never learn
I can't deal with the aftermath, I didn't think straight when I chose my path
They say don't dwell on the past my friend, but there's never a start and there's been no end
If my mistakes were rubber bands
I'd tie them all together and throw caution to the wind
But I never learn
No I never learn
I watched my dreams fall away from me, emotions as vague as the sky and sea
The stars break through to another night as I lie in my bed wishing I'd try
If my mistakes were rubber bands
I'd tie them all together and throw caution to the wind
But I never learn
And it never ends
No I never learn
It never ends

Animal instincts drive a man in
To a sweet smell, that of a *****
Siren is her sister, voice like an angel
Do not let her catch thee, thy soul will she mangle
Hair akin to silk, masking the snakes
Swallow thee they will, within their wake
Hands so gentle, look close they are talons
She is able to rip thee to shreds like a falcon
Eyes deep like the ocean, easy to get lost in
Careful, thou wilt drown whilst trying to swim
Lips of ecstasy, taste like a love potion
Oh no friend, that which thou art tasting is poison
Skin so soft, upon her lovely chest thy wish to dwell
Not realizing milky skin encompasses a hollow shell
Do not claim I hath not warned thee, friend
I wish thee luck, beyond *****'s will might thou transcend

I too have been brainwashed
by the sweet perfume of flower fields
the rippling whispers upon a serene lake
the jagged mountain cliffs
the smell of untainted desert air
by the purest drinking water
brainwashed not by the power of money
which has ***** such beauty
stealing it away into corrupt corporate pockets
padding your silk lined suits
brainwash yourselves for your own travesties
line your own coffin and gravestones
yet you shall not touch mine
for I wish to die not in your elephant graveyard
of smoke and annihilation
but within my own promise land
that is my planet untouched
by your mark of death, greed and obscenities

Effervescent flowing into my veins
ahhh.. trickle drip drop
dehydration stilled amidst cool sensations
desperation has me clawing at the glass
the very building block of life
water

Solitary house situated deep within the woods
Inside a darkness so bleak naught can seen
Foundation rotting, appearing evil but is misunderstood
No one enters, avoiding pain that is often foreseen

For too long this house has sat apart in bleak existence
Pondering on its own blackness, why here, now, alone
What has happened to bring about such a distance
Lonely house, what you reap you have sown

Footsteps outside, a weary traveler does approach
A silhouette slowly appears from within the dark
House so long forlorn this sight does encroach
Traveler is unafraid, a long journey has he embarked

Time will only tell what may happen for the two
Dilapidated house may swallow man in darkness
Traveler may be just what is needed to become anew
Open the door, we shall see who is encompassed

A face I study hard as if it were arithmetic
eyebrows like mountain arches
I wish to climb high to caress your forehead
such a sweet nose I will kiss incessantly
to reach the valley that is your full lips
falling down to sweet repose in your soul
safe
as I look up from below into your eyes
dark pools of love
let me swim deep down into the depths
never surfacing
that is alright, I can still breathe here
memorizing each line and crevice
of the house that is your heart