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Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Spirit is almost broken.
Heart is almost drained
Mind is almost empty.
Your creul and Vial
Full of hate
**** you to your hell.
You have hurt me enough.
You F*cked up *******.
You can't mess with me anymore..
This is the end.
ac 07/25/09
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Standing on the road side, hair hanging down around her.
There is sadness written in her face.
She is leaving.
Her only thought is to leave and never come back.
Hopes to find a place that will except her for what and who she is .
This life has been a creul to her.
So unkind, so unforgiving.
She has to leave.
The wind blows her hair into her face as a car goes speeding by,
hitting a muddy puddle near by and splashes her.
Now wet she just cries.
She cries for the people she is leaving, for the friends that will
worry, for the family that will never understand.
09/13/08 AC
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
Lost and confused..
Not a dream.
No relaxing thoughts.
Complete confusion..
Shadows dance and twirl.
Nothing making any sense..
No way there, no way back.
Wandering images.
Unread messages.
Dread and fear..
Uncontrolable silence..
Lost... Blind...

ac/04/17/05 revised 02/19/10/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Look beyond yourself and see the beauty before you.
Life doesn't revolve around us humans.
Nor does it revolve around the animals.
It moves around the land...
Allow your self to see the grace and beauty.
There are many things you don't notice...
Look at the flowing creeks as you pass by,
it brings life to creatures great and small.
The trees that grow tall, protect us from danger.
The land, it gives us it's life and it's love.
The mountains that makes us think in "AW"
Our own lives are beyond us many times over...
Look and see....
ac/05/31/90
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
Church of InsanityA melody as old as life as dead as time, plays threw these blood staind walls of this old church of insanity.This church still alive with the ones slain watching me.Walking down the ile, making my way to the alter and crouching prayers of self preservation and of strength to think of myself and gaurd only myself...As my desires bigger then my heart I know I am only as big as my heart wills it and only as good as what I see in myself not what others see of me..ac/12/11/97
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Clouds linger low in the valley.
The wind blows in a whisper.
All is silent.

A heart bleeds.
Eyes turned red.
****** tears flow.

Hands are empty.
A soul wanders.

The body grows cold...
;..; V ;..;   2009
Anne Cameron Jun 2010
Day by day
Night by night
Kiss by kiss
Touch by touch
Step by step
I fall in love
A love so vivid
So unique
So wild,
A passion so deep
A need so necessary
A want so strong
The universe would not handle
I love you today
I’ll love you tomorrow
I’ll love you forever

AC12/14/07
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Don't push me, I will fall.
Don't hit me, for I will cry out
Don't cut me, I will bleed
Don't turn your back on me..........
for I will surprise you.
Don't.....................
10/14/01 AC
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Some times I hurt so bad, I just don't feel real.
All I want it truth and honesty from those I love more dearly then life.
Is that too much to ask?
Tears run down my face and feelings, so upset I can't bear it.
What do you do?
When you love someone, it is for the good AND the bad, not just the good...
Nothing and no one is perfect and I don't ask for perfection.
I only seek it for my self even knowing it will never happen...
There is no way to control the out come of things, they just happen,
because they happen.
Just for now...............Know that I Love You.
Please don't leave me. I would miss so terribly if you did.
I can not try to make you stay, if your feeling you have to leave,
but you have to know that my heart willl break apart with out you...
01/09/06/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
How do you believe in a face not seen... or even one you have?
How do you long for the body that does not warm you?
The hand you have not held?
Or the lips yet not kissed...
How do you trust words spoken/typed?
Do you read them... or in between them?
Are they true?
Are they real?
Are they thinking the same as you are?
Some say there is a click...
Some say a connection...
Some a feeling...
Some even an energy...
Love is hard to explain.
It can happen in the strangest, most exciting and unexpected ways.
Do you believe...??
In Cyber Love... ??
07/30/09/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Glass is broken.
Her wrists are bleeding.
Warm droplets hit the clean white floor.

She is here...
Do you see her?

She is now calm.
Her body is relaxed.
The tears have ended.

She is here.
Do you see her?

The glass has fallen from her hand.
She has given in.
The hurt is almost gone...

She is here NOW!!
Do you see her YET??
V 10/11/09
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
She walks with grace and beauty, her dark rose colored dress flows behind her on the ground.
She has no idea where she is going or why.
The day has just begun and she is already over taken with emotions, she hates it.
She doesn't want to feel anymore, it means she has to care, and she does not want to.
Why should she when thoughs around act so stupid, they seem so lost.
she sighs" emotions are stupid, I wish they were gone!"
She walks on for many hours leaving people and places behind, feeling no regret or no lose.
She carries with her a sword her father had and a blanket her mother made and a necklace of lost love.
She would walk till she fell or fell sleep on her feet.
Nothing means anything anymore.
All is lost, there is no meaning.
2006 ac
Anne Cameron Mar 2010
Evil lurks within…
Something you may never see.
I am the good girl, you remember me!
All smiles and happy…
Kind and gentle…
Always a sweet and loving word…
Giving my all and never asking of much.

What hides beneath the cracks of this gentle face.
Is something most don’t know of.
Fearful…
Frightening…
Unpredictable…
Without care for your pain or your sorrow.

I cover it well!
I protect myself!
I let no one see within.
Why should I?
No one wants to see….
The evil that lurks within!

;..; V ;..; 03/08/10
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Love is too complicated to explain to those who can not
Open thier hearts,
Release thier minds,
And allow thier souls to soar.
ac/03/28/09
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
The air surrounds me now.
I feel it.
It whispers to me as I float threw it, into it, and beyond it.
It does not stop me, nor does it control me.
All moves so slowly, but yet I move so fast.
All will be over soon.
The beauty will begin once again.
With out me.
09/10/08/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Follow me...
I will lead the way.
Follow me...
I will help you.
Follow me...
I will break, but I will heal.
Follow me...
I will always understand.
Follow me...
I will always forgive you.
Follow me...
I will always trust you.
Follow me...
I will always be with you.
Follow me...
I will love you forever.
Follow me..........
a.c. 02/03/97 (written for my son, in a hard time of his life)
Anne Cameron Nov 2009
This is for a friend.
Some one I believe in.
Some one who holds my secrets.
    Yet may not know he does...
Some one who understands words written.
    And the sorrows in doing so...
Some one who thinks he hides in the darkness,
    But I know walks in the light...
I just want to say thank you.
    To a friend...
Thank you for broadening my horizons.
AC/11/16/09
Anne Cameron Nov 2009
For Once.
The pain is gone.
The heart ache is over.
My belonging is back.
I hurt, but not so bad anymore...
The wieght has been lifted and removed,
    from this immortal soul.
I have done right by me...(For Once!)
10/03/96/
redone /11/16/09/ac
Anne Cameron Mar 2010
He walks with grace, strong and tall.
His face full of anger, hiding his true emotions.
The love he feels has to be hidden,   for humans are so misunderstanding.
He marches into the night, leaving the shadows to follow.
Much needs to be changed for him to let go of the past hurt.
To move forward and believe once again in the world around him...
11/16/09/ AC
Anne Cameron Nov 2009
I feel nothing any more.
    Because of you.
Holding on to nothing.
    Because I let you hurt me.
Bleeding, because you cut me, deep.
But, I loved you once, because I thought you loved me...
10/03/96/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
I am...Goth (My Way)
I am...Vampyr (Alone)
I am...Raven (Totem)
I am...Wolf (Spirit Guide)
I am...Dragon( Soul Protector)
I am........ I (Forever)
I am...Understanding
I am...Student
I am...Teacher
I am...Love
I am...Truth
I am...Honesty
I am...Belief
I am...Strong
I am...WHO I AM....ALWAYS
Just Me...
;..; V ;..;  2009
Anne Cameron Nov 2009
A wall of ice surrounds you and clouds your vision.
A block of ice incases your heart,
   and slowly moves you backwards,
   and makes you too messed to love.
Even when it looks you in the face,
   you are too frozen to see.
Knock down the frozen wall you built.
Break the frozen block,
   move ahead.
Don't be afraid....
Melt the ice with in your frozen heart.
Don't let it freeze you....
10/01/96/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
If there's one face I want to see,
so beautiful, so true...
One smile that makes a difference,
to everything I do...

If there's one touch I long to feel,
one voice I long to hear...
Whenever I am happy,
or just needing someone near...

If there's one joy, one love,
from which I never want to part...
It's you, my very special love,
my world, my life, my heart...
Co-written/03/09/07   ac/sc  (My daughter and I wrote this)
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
The day is done.
The words don't come.
Lost in the masses of confusion...
I try to find what I need.
Looking for ideas and finding none.
Magor lose, no where to go.
Walking in circles, trying to find a straight line.
My head it aches, pounding and pounding.
Trading one sorted sanity for another.
Hateing the reality of it all.
Going to bed, sleep on it today.
It will come together later.
When I am rested and calm.
I hope....
AC/02/26/10
Anne Cameron Mar 2010
I try…

I try to react  to what is happening.
I try to listen to my beat less heart.
I try to breathe, there is no air to pull from within.
I try to cry, but all that flows is tears of red.
I try to smile; these pointed teeth make me bleed.
I try to think, my mind is mush.
I try to see, there is only darkness and shadows.
I try to feel, there is nothingness
I try to love…
          They run… screaming.

;..; V ;..; /03/08/10
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
I wish you were here...thoughts of you will keep me awake threw out this night.
My eyes to dry to cry and my heart to cold to defrost...
My heart left tender and soft by your gentle hands fitting the pieces that were shatter so long ago...
I would surrender anything to be with you.
I will hide and find the time to destroy it, when I see you so this is why I will not draw my sword...
And the crys within harden and feed the beast, I wish to leave you so you may never have to look inside and endure the pain... but my heart begs me to stay..
I scream and I shake but the walls never break...
Your touch sets me free and your words let me breath...
Its been a while since I could hold my head up high...
Its been a while since I was last set free...
Kissed by the lips of an angel...
ac/10/07/02
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
Last night I had a dream...
You were standing on the shore.
You were holding my hand.
You were holding me so tightly.
Your eyes shining like the stars.
Your heart was beating like a drum.
You were smiling when we kissed.
Last night I had a dream...
We were flying like the birds.
We listened to the crash on the rocks.....
As we made love on the sand...
Last night I had a dream.......
Or was it a dream...?
01/01/08/ac Revised 01/21/10/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
How can anyone believe in a god that drops bombs on us, allows wars to run rampt, children to go hungry, and animals to be beaten?
I cry ****** tears of saddness and grief!
Everything is wrong.
Nothing is explained.
We smile and take what we are given, and we act greatfull.
We are all sad beings of our selves.
What is worth living for if we cover over our problems with a lie.
How many times have you heard someone say there fine, when really hell is breaking lose inside...
So much saddness, too much to go around.
Humans say make the best of a bad situation, Well I say BullSh*t!!!
Humans are all ONE and ONE for all........
There is no unity, or love or real kindness or trust
How can we believe in human lies...
I don't want to believe in thier lies or misconceptions of truths anymore.
All I cry for is truth and understanding...

signed A Lone Vampire's thoughts and tears...AC 2007
Anne Cameron Jun 2010
Thoughts roll in my head.

Uncontrolled and mixed.

A heavy darkness surrounds me.

Calling out my name

Complete fear, tears are falling.

My eyes are sore and red.

Lost.... Confused.

Feeling dead.

Pulled from all sides.

Broken in the middle.

Why should I be in fear of my own thoughts and feelings.

My point of view is different...

Why must it always be questioned...?

Lost.... and Confused......

Vampiress/05/26/10
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
I May Be Small and Tiny in all Things...
I have Friends that Love and Trust Me
If you MESS with my Friends
You MESS with ME...
I will Walk with Them Every Step of the Way...
If YOU MESS with My Family
You WILL Wish You Were Never Born.
For I Will Die For Them.
Don't Mess With Me...
Remember TNT and Dynamite Comes In Very Small Packages.
And I Am A Very Small Package....
11/16/08/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
If I could have just one wish...
I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating in tune with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
12/14/07/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
I don't know what to think, distraction, confusion, misunderstandings.
This thinking_ all it does is mess me up inside.
Making time and space unbearable.
I don't want to be here any more.
just want to be with you.
I can't believe you found me.
I can't trust my own mind or think straight thoughts.
Everything is every where...
A hand to hold.
A body to hug.
A heart beat to hear as I lay sleeping.
I want so much....
But I need so little...
;..; V ;..; 2009/ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Why should I listen?
No one understands.....
All is black now, fading to and through.
Once there, now gone.
Once heard, now nothing.
01/01/09   AC
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Longing for arms to hold me close.
Running away in fear.

Scared... Bleeding...
Knowing only hurt and pain.

Understanding?
There is none.

Anger and cruelty.
Almost sounds normal.
Crazy ... but true.

Believe! In what?
It is all a pack of lies...

Change my mind if you think you can!
;..; V ;..; 10/09/09
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
There are no rules, no ryhmes, no reason...
Only sadness.
The drums in my head have an ancient beat, long and hard.
Unexplained pain leaves me unbalanced and confused.
Eyes are tired of looking out, when they should be looking in...
I battle with understanding, when nothing makes sence.
Time and being seems lost.
All is empty.
Forgive me.....
09/03/04
Anne Cameron Mar 2010
The Blood flows freely now upon the land.
Mother earth crys tears of pain and sorrow.
For man treats her so unkind.
Her waters ******.
Her mountains cracked and crumbling.
Her trees chopped and torn from her ground.
Her creatures killed for pleasure.
What is left?
But to **** one another...
The blood flows freely now...
Revised/02/27/10/AC
Anne Cameron Nov 2009
Insanity runs rampant
Confusion clouds my mind.
Feelings find thier way back.
I'd thought I had locked away.
Feelings hard to deal with.
Keep comming back haunting me.
Not knowing what to do,
      with what I feel inside.
Confusion clouds my mind...
Insanity runs Rampant...
01/18/97
Redone/11/16/09/ac
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
They walk towards me in a line.
They are all wear black cloaks.
{I am asked: Do they have blood red eyes?}
They carry twisted red walking sticks and wear silver masks.
{I am told to call my dragon}
As they walk, they walk around me...
{They are moving on twisted blood, their intent is evil.}
{ Look behind and see what is in the distance}
I look past them to see a tiny white light.
I see water gushing at me but never does it touch me.
{This is a becoming right. do not run, you asked to be closer.}
Where I stand the faces gather closer and closer to me, then stepping back...
I hear no sound for there is none to hear.
{ I close my eyes and talk to dragon, I see them back away.}
I now see double circles on the black floor.
{What is your name in these circles?}
I see Raven Caller.
There is no voice to hear, I see it on the wind/air.
{Are you stronger or weaker here? Are you afraid?}
I feel strength, I feel pulling, my blood hot, being pulled, stinging. Where I am standing is a white very faded rose design.
{You can become the rose cross or penta rose}
The room is now half black and half white, but the white seems to be running like wet paint into the black
{Is there a name in your head you see/hear?}
Yes, Raven Caller
{Is there new symbols within the circles?}
A white heart and a black heart intertwined above the rose I stand on now shows clearly.
{You are bonded...}{RavenCaller}
(This is a dream state) ac
Copyright   Vampiress
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
I am so tired of explaining who I am to poeple...
Why should I?
I love who I am and those who know me except that I am who I am.
I AM GOTH, My way...
Should there be a special way to be who you are?
Should I be like everyone else?
Why? If I am so different am I told to be another way?
I am just who I am...If you can't take it....
Then your a very SAD person.
What is in my heart and in my soul is what should matter the most, not the colour of clothes I wear nor the make-up or the jewlery I dawn.
How come that matters so much to you?
Do I shock you that much?
5/6/2008 Vampyress
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
Scars

After such a long time of being an outcast you seem to ask your self are you truely human?
If so, why do they look at you with such distain?
You question your motives then you realize you really aren't like them.
And realizing that most people are ignorant and hate you for what you have and for what you are.
And all these scars...
All these scars melt away from a face that was stricken so many times by people's hate.
They melt away in your presence.
Melt away for love.
ac03/02/04
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Black is only black... right?
White is only white...right?
and grey is just a mix...?
I think wrong.
Black is all colour.
Every colour our hearts and minds can imagine.
White is a reflection of all colour.
It reflects back truth and clarity of all colours.
Grey then is all colour, yet a reflection of all colour...
In essence grey is truth and clarity in our own hearts and minds...
;..; V ;..; 2009ac
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
Your voice in the air calls to me..
It is time to sleep.
Rest my weary body.
To calm my soul and spirit.
Arms around you holding you tight.
My head rests apon your chest, listening to your heart beating.
Feeling your body stir.
A smile apon your face.
Your eyes bright, but sleepy.
A kiss apon your lips, brings an unexpected glow to us both.
Want and need overtakes sleep.
;..; V ;..; 2009
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
I walk down my garden path of darkness, through the stones with names covered with moss and earth.The darkness covers me, protects me, shields me from any; and all human presence.I ponder of the days, weeks and years gone by, and still I try to understand why I still hide in the shadows of this life I call my own.I look up to see stars blinking back at me, like a watcher.I arrive home, my home still after 100 years.I enter through the iron gate just to see the gleaming full moon burst forth from the dark dreary rain clouds.Down stone stairs passed a stone table to the back wall.I wonder as I slide down the cold stone wall and hit the damp stone floor. " What will become of me?"ac/11/14/09
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
I will stand and face thyne enemy on the road to death and distruction.
With sword in one hand and staff in the other.
For I fear evil, but not enough to run and hide...
For when you hide from your prey, you don't face it, you don't understand it.
I believe in my self and in those who walk the same path beside me.
ac/2007/01/11
Anne Cameron Jun 2010
You forget your friends Dream Weaver.
Forget us all and be alone...
We have always been here.
You have never been truely with out us.
Yet you leave us...
Remembering us only when need suits you best.
Your strength and power means nothing when your alone.
******* I know...
But Dream Weaver your wanted,
   you must know this or feel it?
Remember your friends.
We are only a step away.

V 03/22/10
Anne Cameron Jun 2010
I be the shadow on your wall.

Look in to my eyes.

Are you ready to play?

Save your breathe.

Steady...

Open your mind to me.

Allow me in.

Only the strongest will survive me.

I will go beyond the surface of your closed mind.

Digging...

Scratching...

Clawing...

Till you show me the way in.

You scream my name.

They echo within your head.

I play a horrific game,

   and it has yet to begin...

Be mine, let me in...

V/03/22/10
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
In the midnight hour,with an evil grin you shine.
Darkness surrounds you, but you glow with a fire,
that brings me closer and closer to your soul.
But sending me to heaven is your last request.
Fear of Lose, Fear of Gain
08/26/07   V
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
There will be a day that I leave you, My Love.
A day that I will walk on rose pedals threw heavens gates.
But untill that day comes...
Remember you are the man that touched my heart and my soul.
I love you now.
I will love you always,
You will see it in my eyes, when I look at you.
In my face, when I smile.
In my arms, when I hold you close.
In your ears, when you listen to my heart.
This is your mark...
Invisibale to all....But you.
AC/03/07/07
Anne Cameron Oct 2009
The body is a vessel that takes love or gives love...
The hands are the ones who touch you softly or put you in pain...
The lips we kiss can be soft and gentle or raw and charged...
The heart tells all, tells you lies and deciet or of love and honesty...
The eyes are the window to the soul, they speak volumes with out a voice...
V  2008
Anne Cameron Feb 2010
The heroes of the light but neither born in one or the other,but born into a world scarred with a face to bare for eternity...
Bound with a name dipped in the pools of hate but a soul dipped in purity to neither having more of one than the other...
To be able to choose both paths instead of just one.
These laws of which I believe by them being the path of love and hate...
composed with very specific laws unwritten but scetched deep within your head.
My idea of a perfect society is one where it does not fade into either good or evil...
known for not one but many things but known for mostly for its openmindedness and its wisdom.
Beyond simple structure the stones which build them, my society built apon the old rule of an eye for an eye and its fairness of treating others how you wish to be treated...
the knowledge to know no one is born in to power.
But strengthen to the point of that power, no man or woman may hold supreme power over all things nor can one man or woman control another.
All living things die...
a society where the people decide how thier country is controlled not how a select few control it.
I believe that a country should represent the people not a select few that are almost always corrupt to speak for them...
ac/10/24/09
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