ah, am i numb if i know you love me
but i still rarely feel it?

im only 43kg but im still the heaviest weight on your shoulders.

do you want a clingy girl so bad,
that you dont put in any effort anymore?

i want to bathe in heavy water,
engulf me,
**** me,
maybe the radiation could give me abilities
like those heroes who had nothing
turned into something.

im lost and im drowning
maybe being something
just isnt for me

so engulf me and _ _ _ _ me.

modified lies,
forced trust
and fabricated you.

do not blame me for not loving the real you
if all you have shown me is the fake you.