It hurts like the rain on a sunburn
     But in my head
It hurts like a burn on the stove
     But in my heart
It hurts like I've been caught in barbed wire
     But in my soul

With all my demons
I'm never alone.
I hope one day it'll seem
Like they've all flown
away.
But here they are
All dug in deep
They are all mine,
All mine to keep.

meet someone you want to write poems about
and instead sit at your computer for hours
taunting yourself with their voice?
feeling it warm the back of your head as their
words flows through your ears?
even now I can taste them sweet
as they drip down into my mouth.

My heart is like the night sky
Darkness, pure darkness

Except that
there are stars in the sky
to brighten it up

But
there are only demons inside me
taking over, eating me up

Telling me

You're always the second choice
You're a really selfish person
You're such a burden
You ruined his happiness

You do not deserve him

First the impact
The shock and pain
Of the words I can deal with
But from these bullet like words
A dull ache creeps out
Creeping out from my wounded body
This ache slowly inches along my frame
I feel it corrupting my core.
My bones dense with pain
My soul clouded by its mask
I feel it swell inside of me.
It builds up until I feel it in my skin
The transformation is complete
My being is now of pain,
My only feeling is of dull ache
My thoughts are this hurt
I will have to wait it out
I know sometime soon
Life’s joys will purge my soul

i am
forever home
when
i find myself
with
you.

She sits there
At the desk
Her head spinning
As it begins

Day in and day out
All she ever feels
Is the feeling
Of being everything

She's underappreciated,
And under rested.
She's overtired,
And overworked

Her friends are the only ones
Who appreciate her
For who she is
Not what she does

They're the reason why
She’s still hanging on
To that rope she's clinging to
That just keeps fraying.

Sometimes she just feels
Like she's nothing at all
Or even worse-
Like the energizer bunny

She keeps going and going
But not on her own terms
There’s always something that needs to get done
And it's up to her to do it

What she wants to do
Keeps getting put on hold-
Things that she needs to do
Take a number and wait in line

She feels empty
Like she's nothing at all
She’s running on autopilot
And it’s running her life


Even sleeping doesn’t help
For the horrid dreams kick in
But I guess when you're on automatic
Nothing seems right

But yet there's hope
That keeps peeking through
This dark soul
That has engulfed me

For as long as I have a heart
That continues to beat
My soul can remain pure
Even if no one can see

My feelings, swirling about,


Interlocking, changing, altering;


Certainty forever distant.


I contemplate, wondering what they imply.


Yet, I am left to wonder,


What my feelings are telling me.

I look at the world
I don't see myself

Insignificant

Alone

But then I see so much
So much potential

No push

Motivation that's there
But only to mock

I build envy
To all and everything
"I want this! I want that!"
I want it all

All of myself

So much to do
So much time
But it's all wasted

Wasted looking at the world

Wasted not seeing myself

Wasted feeling insignificant

Wasted feeling alone