As I watched the morning sun ascend over the horizon of the Earth, you were there.

As we traveled to a new world, to leave a home we once knew, you were there.

As we joined a band of wind instruments to carry on the sound, you were there.

As I separated from consciousness, those very nights, you were there.

As we dreamed many dreams, but I dreamed of you. You were there.

Yes,
We danced tonight
I fulfilled my promise
Of a better dance
A better day
And a good time

I didn't know
I would do it like this
But I did,
And you enjoyed
You made me smile
For a whole night
Hugs and kisses
Slow dances
And beautiful company

Tonight
We danced in heaven
And enjoyed the company
Of the other
Smiled and laughed
And were hinted
By our friends
To dance,
So we did
And we danced
in
Heaven

Standing as one
Thinking like thousands
My mind consuming me
Like a cloud smothering a plane

The pressure of thought crushing my brain
My pulse rushing through my body
Hands shaking, legs trembling
a waterfall of emotion falls from my eyes
as I make the final decision

Something so simple can make such chaos
Inside my body, I cry
Ready to say goodbye to this war
Between myself, and this cruel world we call home

It's easier to hold on
Than it is to let go
It's easier to say okay
Than it is to say goodbye

It's better to let go
When you don't want to hold on
It's better to say goodbye
When you're settling for okay

I thought I was happy
Happy without you
That I would be perfectly okay
But I was so wrong
Without your constant compliments
And longing lustful glances
And occasional inappropriate touches
I don't know who I am
I feel like I'm not beautiful enough
Like I'm some forgettable face in the crowd
Not worth your time
Or your fantasies
So when I starve myself to death
And bleed out in my bathroom tub
I want you to know
That in order for me to see myself how you did
I had to take such extreme measures
Ones that are going to end killing me