thinking you’ll save me from pain
lies fill your breath but I know the truth
you keep it hidden from me
then disappointment enters my heart
but I called you my best friend

the joy of seasons changing
bring life and death
a time to start afresh
or maybe to throw out the trash
to break free from burdens
they hold us down and give us depression

as season change so do we

i met another like you
holding pain in your souls
detached from reality
similar testimonies of new life

wish you could come together
speak of the relatable mental aches
to learn from each other
flourish into a refined version of you

You came into my life, to show me true love
to feel the unconditional graciousness
You have given me everything
the cross shown the significance
it brought me into a relationship with You

they say distance is a good way to cope
to suppress those yearning feeling
then you came back
the wave of emotions took me captive
i was lost in the sea
searching for the drain plug to stop the flood
my feelings could become stagnant once more


but they said distance is a good way to cope...

p l e a s e   d o n ‘t   b e

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close.

will i always carry you in my heart?
life experiences taunt me
it makes me stronger to live through it
to make myself more real

magical things that transport
used for evil or for the mystical tales
to educate and inspire

the torn covers and pages showing their worth
comforting people when it’s all they have
being engulfed in flames to control humanity

yet they still exist to be items of education and self discovery
to tell the stories that many would like hidden
give light to the broken

i guess you could say they have a way with words

joy has filled my heart
i sing my praises to You
to live everyday knowing You
a daily soulful relationship
shows the purest love

a blanket that covers earth’s imperfections
fills the winter daze with blissful silence
my thoughts begin to scream
finally hearing them in the still quietness
becoming numb to the surrounding world

overwhelmed by my emotions
encasing me in chains
fighting to resist their crippling hold
i cry out in anguish and stress
letting it all spew out like old faithful
the chains loosen their grip
knowing one day i'll be set free
or be like an escapee from Alcatraz

buzzing in your ear
energy high has you strung out
the base pumps your heart
another level of spirituality

everyone has a past
something deep hidden inside
they have their own friends
family problems they never speak of

then you get connected
your life becomes intertwined
what’s yours is part of theirs
what was hidden is now open

cloud gazing is so simple
yet as adults we forget
the childhood moments in the clouds
wishing to be able to sit on the fluff
imagination ran rampant
now we only cloud gaze to see the rain
more stress and worries life offers us
wanting to be that free of a spirit again

“i love you”
those words
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                                      from his lips
i believed his deceitful manner
his charisma, it was alluring

i want to get lost
be alone with my thoughts
have no worries
feel blissful relief
escape the chaos that is life
find the me i’ve hidden inside

i wish i was
i fake a smile
i look happy
i seem excited and energized

on the inside i’m breaking
i put everyone else above myself
self love is selfish
how do i help you
i can’t help myself
can i let my true self speak
that’s dangerous

he lied
to me
to those who cared

he ran away
from the love
from pure bliss

he now sits
in his brokenness
in pain he brought on

i only pray
for his happiness
for someone else to help

goodbye, you will be missed