everyone has a past
something deep hidden inside
they have their own friends
family problems they never speak of

then you get connected
your life becomes intertwined
what’s yours is part of theirs
what was hidden is now open

cloud gazing is so simple
yet as adults we forget
the childhood moments in the clouds
wishing to be able to sit on the fluff
imagination ran rampant
now we only cloud gaze to see the rain
more stress and worries life offers us
wanting to be that free of a spirit again

“i love you”
those words
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                                      from his lips
i believed his deceitful manner
his charisma, it was alluring

i want to get lost
be alone with my thoughts
have no worries
feel blissful relief
escape the chaos that is life
find the me i’ve hidden inside

i wish i was
i fake a smile
i look happy
i seem excited and energized

on the inside i’m breaking
i put everyone else above myself
self love is selfish
how do i help you
i can’t help myself
can i let my true self speak
that’s dangerous