You rushed into my life unexpectedly. If I didn't have my love for excitement and adrenilin, then I never would have set my eyes on you. But I did.

Once you set foot in my car and our eyes melted into each other. At that moment and so forth I was clung to you like a magnet.

We drifted apart for nearly a week, but in that week your eyes clung to another. I knew in my heart that I needed to know if our paths weren't just meant to cross once..

So there I was at your doorstep, not knowing what to expect. Then there you were, with your big blue eyes of yours staring down into mine. You were tall and gawky, and your height didn't fit you. You could barely even hold yourself straight up, not because you weren't strong enough too, but because there was a wall bearing you back.

My body was shaking, I knew this was our only chance to see if there was something in-between us and I didn't want to perish it. Once we got comfortable on your couch, stories started pouring out of our mouths. As i was spilling out these memories, I started to notice you gazing at me. When most people look at me they look Straight through me, not seeing anything at all. But when you look at me you stare right into my soul, gazing at it, giving it a reassuring smile of acceptance for everything It's done and is.

I knew what it felt like for bitterness to absorb into my skin and take over my body,
And to have the pit of loneliness and sorrow live inside me,
Turning my body hollow. 
I couldn't run away from this torture because nothing could pull the pain out me.
It was glued there inside of me, stuck.

You're like the  tide, you rap around the shore and then you pull yourself back into the sea. Always changing, never stopping, and moving whatever way pulls you.

I could hear your footsteps thumping up my stairs. I could feel you there. Your presence jumped through my body. Whenever you were near everything in me was like a earthquake and would shake.

Next I knew you were leaving and all I had left for you was forgiveness. 

This lasted atleast 5 minutes and then all the pain you had caused me came flooding back in when I couldn't find what I was looking for.

I knew with everything in me to always trust my gut. So I stormed into your house demanding what was rightfully mine. But you denied all my claims and I was back feeling hopeless.

I was like a bomb ticking, tick tick tick. Everyone was waiting for me to explode. When I finally did, it all came out at once. All my pain flew out of me in every direction. The anger took over my body.

When I finally got control over myself, i stepped into my familiar home and there was what I was looking for, right in front of my eyes. Relief flooded me. 

I told you what had happened and you wanted to talk to me, like you always did. So I let you back into my home, keeping my eyes wide open so you wouldn't test my trust again. You were exactly how I left you, controlling and an addict.

 Even though I knew that, I let you hold me. You were back examining the familiar quarters of my body as soon as I knew it. And then we were sleeping in each others presences like old days. But I knew that you'll never change and I could finally except that.