I'LL NEVER GET OVER YOU NO MATTER WHO I'M DATING OR MARRIED TO BECAUSE YOU ARE (WERE) HOME AND THE DAY YOU LEFT IT FELT LIKE SOMEONE HAD TORCHED MY HOUSE AND DESTROYED ALL MY BELONGINGS BUT A LITTLE PIECE OF OF YOU WILL ALWAYS BE BURNING INSIDE OF ME AND I LIKE TO THINK I'LL ALWAYS BE BURNING SOMEWHERE INSIDE OF YOU TOO

I ASKED YOU THE FIRST NIGHT THAT WE MET WHILE WE WERE MAKING LOVE HOW MANY GIRLS YOU HAD ****** AND YOU SAID THREE I WONDER IF IN THE FUTURE SOMEONE ASKS YOU IF YOU'VE EVER MADE LOVE TO SOMEONE IF YOU'LL COUNT ME AS THE FIRST GIRL YOU EVER MADE LOVE TO OR IF YOU;LL COUNT ME AS NUMBER FOUR IN HOW MANY GIRLS YOU'VE ******

YOU NEVER DESERVED SOMEONE WHO CARED AS MUCH AS I DID I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET YOU TOUCH ME AND NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR WHO I'M WITH I ALWAYS FIND YOU CAMPED OUT IN THE CORNER OF MY HEART AND DID I MENTION I'LL PURPOSELY LAUGH HARD ENOUGH TO THE POINT WHERE I START CRYING AND I'VE FOUND THAT DOING THIS FOR SOME ODD REASON MAKES ME MORE COMFORTABLE WITH YOU NOT STICKING AROUND

LOSING YOU HAS BEEN THE MOST NUMBING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE IT'S BEEN PAINFUL BUT IT'S THE MOST COMFORTABLE PAIN I'VE EVER BEEN BROUGHT UPON. IN THE PROCESS OF LOSING YOU I'VE LEARNED THAT THERE ARE DIFFERENT TYPES OF NUBMNESS. THERE'S THE NUMBNESS YOU FEEL WHEN THE DOCTOR PRESCRIBES YOU MEDICATION AND YOUR BODY DOESN'T REACT THE RIGHT WAY AND THEN THERE'S THE NUMBNESS YOU EXPERIENCE WHEN YOU'RE COMING OFF OF NOVACANE. BUT THE TYPE OF NUMBNESS YOU'VE CAUSED ME TO FEEL IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL NUMBNESS A PERSON CAN FEEL BECAUSE I FEEL FREE AND NOW THAT YOU'RE GONE I REALIZED IT DOESN'T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT FROM WHEN YOU WERE SUPPOSEDLY IN MY LIFE SO CAN A PERSON REALLY LOSE SOMEONE THEY FEEL THEY NEVER REALLY HAD TO BEGIN WITH?

LOSING YOU HAS BEEN THE MOST NUMBING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE IT'S BEEN PAINFUL BUT IT'S THE MOST COMFORTABLE PAIN I'VE EVER BEEN BROUGHT UPON IN THE PROCESS OF LOSING YOU I'VE LEARNED THAT THERE ARE DIFFERENT TYPES OF NUMBNESS THERE'S THE NUMBNESS YOU FEEL WHEN THE DOCTOR PRESCRIBES YOU MEDICATION AND YOUR BODY DOESN'T REACT THE RIGHT WAY AND THEN THERE'S THE NUMBNESS YOU EXPERIENCE WHEN YOU'RE COMING OFF OF NOVACANE BUT THE TYPE OF NUMBNESS YOU'VE CAUSED ME TO FEEL IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL NUMBNESS I THINK A PERSON CAN FEEL BECAUSE I FEEL FREE AND NOW THAT YOU'RE GONE I REALIZED IT DOESN'T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT FROM WHEN YOU WERE SUPPOSEDLY IN MY LIFE SO CAN A PERSON REALLY LOSE SOMEONE THEY FEEL THEY NEVER REALLY HAD IN THEIR LIFE TO BEGIN WITH?

I HATE FALLING ASLEEP BECAUSE AN HOUR BEFORE I ACTUALLY DO EVERYTHING YOU EVER SAID TO ME POUNDS AT MY HEAD AT SEVEN MILLION MILES AN HOUR AND IT'S HARD TO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN A BED YOU WERE IN AND IT'S HARD TO FEEL COMFORTABLE WHEN MY THROAT IS BURNING FROM CRYING OVER THINGS YOU PROMISED ME YOU'D NEVER DO

CAR BLINKERS ALWAYS REMIND ME OF YOU BECAUSE I NEVER KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT WHEN I'M DRIVING JUST LIKE I NEVER KNEW WHAT TO EXPECT WITH YOU AND I SAY THIS BECAUSE YOU NEVER GAVE ME A ******* SIGNAL THAT YOU WERE GOING TO TAKE THE NEXT EXIT OUT OF MY LIFE YOU JUST ******* MERGED AND WERE OUT OF SIGHT

nothing can ever compare to the chills
that used to run down my spine when
I heard you speak

THANKS TO YOU MY HEART WILL ALWAYS HAVE CHIPPED PIECES YOU TOOK A PIECE OF ME THE NIGHT WE FIRST MADE LOVE AND YOU TOOK A PIECE OF ME THE NIGHT WE LAID IN YOUR BED AND MADE LOVE EIGHT OR FIFTY TIMES WE COULDN'T KEEP OUR HANDS OFF OF EACH OTHER AND I'LL ALWAYS BE SCARRED FROM THAT YOU TOOK A PIECE OF ME WHEN YOU BIT AND ****** ON MY EAR SO HARD IT FELT GOOD I WAS SURE I LOVED YOU BECAUSE NO ONE HAD EVER CAUSED A RIVETING PLEASURE IN THE PAIN THEY WERE CAUSING ME BEFORE AND I TRULY BELIEVE THAT NO ONE'S TOUCH WILL EVER AFFECT ME IN THE WAY YOURS USED TO

BECAUSE OF YOU MY HEART IS TURNING COLD IT'S NOT RIGHT TO TOUCH ME IN THE WAYS THAT YOU DID AND JUST LEAVE ME I WILL NEVER SCRAPE THE REMNANTS YOU LEFT IN MY MIND AND I WILL NEVER BE FULLY RID OF YOUR TOUCH EVER IF THE SKIN DOES REPLENISH ITSELF EVERY TWENTY SEVEN DAYS BECAUSE YOU TOUCHED ME IN WAYS GREATER THAN PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY YOU AFFECTED ME MENTALLY YOU WERE MY SAFE HAVEN AND NOW I'M JUST COLD AND ALONE CHOKING ON THE LIES YOU TOLD ME THAT KEPT ME WARM AT NIGHT

YOU HAD EYELASHES SO BEAUTIFUL IT
FELT LIKE A PUNCH IN THE GUT EVERY
TIME YOU'D GLANCE AT ME AND YOU
HAD LIPS ANGELINA JOLIE WOULD BE
JEALOUS OF WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME
HERE IN THE COLD TO SHAKE HYSTERICALLY
AND SHIVER LIKE IT'S WINTER IN ALASKA
IT'S ******* ONE HUNDRED AND FOUR
DEGREES OUTSIDE IN JULY FOR
***** SAKE JUST COME HOME
COME HOME COME HOME

I MISS YOU WAY MORE THAN I SHOULD BUT SOMEHOW IT'S STILL ONE OF THE MOST COMFORTING THINGS I'VE EVER EXPERIENCED

I WISH I COULD HEAR YOU CHUCKLE AND SAY MY NAME AT THE SAME TIME BUT ALL I HEAR ARE VOICEMAILS FROM TWO MONTHS AGO SAYING YOU WOULDN'T LEAVE ME IF YOUR LIFE DEPENDED ON IT. WELL WHERE THE **** ARE YOU NOW BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I HEARD YOU WEREN'T BEING SENT DEATH THREATS

DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOU HATE YOUR DAD BECAUSE HE USED TO USE YOU SO HE COULD GO CHEAT ON YOUR MOM AND DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOU HATE THE SOUND OF SOMEONE CRACKING THEIR KNUCKLES AND DOES SHE KNOW ABOUT YOUR PAST HOOKUPS AND DOES SHE KNOW YOU REGRET NOT SPENDING ENOUGH TIME WITH YOUR GRANDFATHER THAT LIVES IN FLORIDA AND DOES SHE KNOW THAT YOUR FAVORITE THING TO ORDER AT ZAXBY'S IS THE WINGS AND THINGS AND DOES SHE KNOW THAT I WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SLEPT WITH AND DOES SHE KNOW YOU'LL LEAVE HER WITHOUT SAYING A WORD LIKE YOU LEFT ME?

I SCREENSHOTTED EVERY SWEET TEXT YOU EVER SENT ME AND DOWNLOADED THEM TO MY LAPTOP THEY'RE ALL I HAVE LEFT OF YOU BUT ARE THEY REALLY YOU SINCE YOU CLEARLY LIED WHEN YOU SAID YOU MISSED ME BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN YOU MISS SOMEONE YOU MAKE AN EFFORT TO PATCH THINGS UP BUT ALL YOU DID WAS LEAVE SILENTLY SO I SUPPOSE I ACTUALLY HAVE NOTHING LEFT OF YOU BUT EMPTY WORDS

I SCREENSHOTTED EVERY SWEET TEXT YOU EVER SENT ME AND DOWNLOADED THEM TO MY LAPTOP THEY'RE ALL I HAVE LEFT OF YOU BUT ARE THEY REALLY YOU SINCE YOU CLEARLY LIED WHEN YOU SAID YOU MISSED ME BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN YOU MISS SOMEONE YOU MAKE AN EFFORT TO PATCH THINGS UP BUT ALL YOU DID WAS LEAVE SILENTLY WITHOUT SAYING A WORD SO I SUPPOSE I ACTUALLY HAVE NOTHING LEFT OF YOU BUT EMPTY WORDS

the color of your eyes still haunts me

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT MY FAN BLOWS COLD AIR IT MAKES THE HAIR ON MY ARMS TIGHTEN AT THE PORES AND I SHIVER AS IF YOU HAD JUST TRICKLED YOUR HANDS DOWN MY ARMS AND WHENEVER SOMEONE TOUCHES ME I HOPE IT'S YOU TOUCHING ME BUT IT NEVER ******* IS THE FAN IS THE CLOSEST THING I HAVE LEFT OF THE REMEMBRANCE OF YOUR TOUCH AND JESUS **** I WOULD **** FOR YOU TO JUST TOUCH ME WITH YOUR HANDS AGAIN

THE FIRST TIME YOU KISSED ME IT FELT LIKE FEELING THE OCEAN WASH UP AGAINST YOUR FEET AND IT FELT LIKE LISTENING TO YOUR FAVORITE SONG FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IT FELT LIKE WATER TASTES; REFRESHING AND LIFE SUSTAINING BUT I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO SUSTAIN MY LIFE IN THE SAME WAY ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU'RE GONE ******* YOU ******* *******

AT THIS POINT I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO BE GRATEFUL THAT YOU WERE IN MY LIFE FOR FOUR GREAT MONTHS OR TO HATE YOU FOR LEAVING AFTER BEING IN MY LIFE FOR FOUR GREAT MONTHS

AT THIS POINT I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO BE GRATEFUL THAT YOU WERE IN MY LIFE FOR FOUR GREAT MONTHS OR TO HATE YOU FOR LEAVING AFTER BEING IN MY LIFE FOR FOUR GREAT MONTHS

FOR SOME REASON THE MORNING AFTER WE SPENT THE NIGHT TOGETHER FOR THE FIRST TIME THREE FRECKLES APPEARED ON MY LEFT ARM IN THREE DIFFERENT SHADES OF BROWN ALL IN A ROW IF ONLY YOU KNEW HOW MANY TIMES I'VE ATTEMPTED TO SCRAPE THOSE FRECKLES OFF OF MY ARM NOW THAT YOU'RE ******* GONE

YOU MADE MY ******* KNUCKLES BLEED AND I CAN STILL FEEL YOU IN MY PORES WHY WEREN'T YOU HERE WHEN I ACTUALLY NEEDED YOU I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE GET THE **** OUT OH MY GOD

I CAN'T BREATHE BECAUSE OF YOU
YOU TOOK MY BREATH AWAY AND
EVER SINCE THEN I'VE BEEN
HYPERVENTILATING I JUST WANT
YOU AND MY AIR BACK WHY
CAN'T I HAVE YOU AND MY AIR
BOTH BACK AND YOU HELP ME
BREATHE AGAIN

I never thought I'd have to live without you but here I am

WE HAD SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ROARING CONNECTION AND
I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHERE THE **** THAT WENT
BECAUSE YOU LEFT AND I HAVE NO
RECOLLECTION OF THE SOUND OF
YOUR VOICE AND IT'S DRIVING ME
INSANE PLEASE JUST HOLD MY
HAND AGAIN

HOME IS WHEREVER I'M WITH YOU
BUT YOU'RE
NEVER HERE SO
I'M BEYOND
HOMESICK AT
THIS POINT

IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE IN MY LIFE ANYMORE THEN WHY DID YOU DO THINGS TO MAKE YOU BE ON ME MIND EVERY SECOND OF EVERY ******* DAY YOU ******* HYPOCRITE

******* YOU ******* BECAUSE OF YOU I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP IN MY OWN BED BECAUSE ALL I SMELL IF YOU IN THE THREADS BETWEEN MY SHEETS AND I CAN STILL FEEL YOU INCOHERENTLY PULL ME IN CLOSER WHILE WE SPOONED AND IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING I CAN STILL FEEL YOU BREATHING DOWN MY BACK LIKE YOU USED TO WHEN WE HAD *** AND TO THIS DAY I CAN STILL ******* FEEL YOU IN EVERY ATOM THAT MAKES UP MY EXISTENCE YOU ****

WHAT'S SAD IS I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT YOUR VOICE SOUNDS LIKE

IT'S PRETTY ******* SAD THAT YOU'RE COMFORTABLE WITH BEING ANOTHER GUY THAT'S ****** ME OVER

I JUST REALLY MISS WATCHING YOU DRIVE AND LISTENING TO MUSIC WITH YOU AND SEEING YOU SMILE AND DISCOVERING NEW FRECKLES ON YOUR BODY AND TALKING TO YOU ON THE PHONE AND LISTENING TO YOU TALK ABOUT PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AND I MISS THE WAY YOU USED TO HOLD ME AT NIGHT AND NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS FOUR MONTHS AGO WOULD I HAVE BELIEVED SOMEONE IF THEY SAID THAT IN FOUR MONTHS YOU WERE GOING TO BE LONG GONE OUT OF MY LIFE BUT HERE WE ARE LIVING SEPARATE LIVES

YOU WERE THE PERSON I WANTED TO TELL EVERYTHING FIRST TO AND YOU WERE THE PERSON THAT COULD MAKE ME FEEL INTOXICATED JUST BY LOOKING INTO YOUR EYES AND YOU WERE THE PERSON WHOSE SMILE COULD IGNITE MY BONES MAKING ME WEAK IN THE KNEES AND YOU WERE THE PERSON WHO I WANTED TO MAKE FEEL LOVED BUT NOW YOU'RE JUST THE PERSON I WANT TO FORGET MORE THAN ANYONE I'VE EVER MET OR BEEN DONE WRONG BY AND THAT BREAKS MY ******* HEART

what's sad if I don't even remember
what your voice sounds like

WHEN WILL THIS NOT HURT ANYMORE BECAUSE IT'S BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE WE LAST TALKED AND I STILL CRY AND ROCK MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT AND PROMISE MYSELF THAT I'M GOING TO WAKE UP TO A TEXT OR A MISSED CALL FROM YOU AND YOU'LL SAY THAT YOU JUST NEEDED TIME TO THINK BUT THEN I COME TO REMEMBER THAT BOYS DON'T PONDER OVER THINGS FOR MORE THAN THE LENGTH OF A SHOWER AND THAT THEY JUST NEVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN OR EVEN HAVE A THOUGHT ABOUT YOU SPONTANEOUSLY THEY JUST RUIN ALL YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AND LEAVE YOU ROCKING YOURSELF DOWN THE TILE WALLS OF THE SHOWER BECAUSE THE NINE THOUSAND DEGREE WATER BURNING THE PORES ON YOUR BACK IS MORE COMFORTING THAN THE KNIFE HE LEFT STABBED IN YOU WHEN HE SAID HE MISSED YOU AND THEN NEVER SAID ANYTHING ELSE TO YOU EVER AGAIN

NO MATTER WHO SAYS MY NAME THEY CAN NEVER GET THE SAME RING AS YOU USED TO WHENEVER YOU USED TO SAY MY NAME IT LITERALLY FELT AS IF MY BLOOD VESSELS WERE GOING TO BURST BECAUSE JUST KNOWING YOU WERE THINKING OF MY EXISTENCE FOR A SPLIT SECOND WHEN YOU SPAT MY NAME OUT OH SO BEAUTIFULLY OUT OF YOUR MOUTH WAS ENOUGH TO START A FIRE IN MY HEART AND NO ONE WILL EVER SAY MY NAME IN THE EXTRAORDINARILY EXQUISITE WAY THAT MY NAME WOULD ROLL OFF THE TIP OF YOUR TONGUE

YOU TEXTED ME SAYING "I MISS YOU, HOPE YOU'RE ALRIGHT" WE HADN'T TALKED IN TWELVE OR THIRTEEN DAYS AND THAT WAS THE LONGEST WE'D EVER GONE WITHOUT SAYING A WORD TO EACH OTHER BUT NOW THAT YOU'RE OUT OF MY LIFE I AM STARTING TO REALIZE THAT THE ONLY WAY I'LL EVER BE ALRIGHT AGAIN IS IF YOU'RE BACK IN MY LIFE AGAIN HOLDING ME IN YOUR BED LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID WITH YOUR LEFT ARM UNDER MY BACK AT ALMOST ELEVEN AT NIGHT I JUST WANT YOUR PRESENCE BACK IN MY LIFE I CAN'T FATHOM YOUR ABSENCE ANY LONGER ****

WE HAVEN'T TALKED IN OVER A MONTH AND IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE HAS DUG INTO MY SKIN AND CLAWED OUT MY ******* VEINS AND SPLATTERED THEM ALL AROUND ME SO EVERYWHERE I LOOK I SEE YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE IN MY VEINS

I saw you yesterday.
We hugged.
I wish we hadn't.

I WONDER IF YOU EVER HAVE TROUBLE SLEEPING AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOU REMEMBER THAT I ONCE LAID NEXT TO YOU

I WONDER IF YOU EVER HAVE TROUBLE SLEEPING AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOU REMEMBER THAT I ONCE LAID NEXT TO YOU

WHAT TERRIFIES ME THE MOST ABOUT YOU IS THAT YOU CAN LAY ME DOWN IN YOUR BED AND SAY THE MOST HORRIFYINGLY BEAUTIFUL WORDS I'VE EVER HEARD A GUY SAY BEFORE AND SPIT THEM RIGHT INTO MY VEINS THEN FOUR MONTHS LATER HEAR YOU SAY THE MOST PETRIFYINGLY ****** UP WORDS I'VE EVER HEARD A GUY SAY BEFORE: NOTHING.

WHAT TERRIFIES ME THE MOST ABOUT YOU IS THAT YOU CAN LAY ME DOWN IN YOUR BED AND SAY THE MOST HORRIFYINGLY BEAUTIFUL WORDS I'VE EVER HEARD A GUY SAY BEFORE AND SPIT THEM RIGHT INTO MY VEINS THEN FIVE MONTHS LATER YOU SAY THE MOST PETRIFYINGLY ****** UP WORDS I'VE EVER HEARD YOU SAY BEFORE: N O T H I N G.

I WISH I COULDN'T STILL FEEL YOU BREATHE AND I WISH I COULDN'T STILL SEE YOU SMILE WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AT NIGHT BECAUSE IT MAKES IT SO HARD TO FALL ASLEEP AND I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE MEMORIZED AND ALL OF ITS FLUCTUATION AND I WISH I COULD SLEEP IN MY OWN BED AT NIGHT AND I WISH I  COULD JUST NOT HAVE MET YOU BECAUSE YOU DID ME SO WRONG AND I'M UP AT NIGHT WRITING ABOUT YOU WHILE YOU'RE PROBABLY IN HER BED

I WOULD **** TO KNOW IF YOU'VE THOUGHT ABOUT ME OR IF YOU MISS KISSING ME OR IF YOU WANT TO HEAR THE SOUND OF MY LAUGH AGAIN OR IF YOU HEAR THE SONG SIDEWAYS BY CITIZEN COPE AND GET FLASHBACKS OF THE FIRST TIME WE SKYPED OR IF YOU THINK ABOUT ME WHEN YOU DRIVE BY COOKOUT AND ZAXBY'S AND I WONDER IF YOU CAN FEEL ME MISSING YOU AND **** WOULD I **** TO KNOW IF YOU WONDER IF I THINK ABOUT YOU STILL

I wish I didn't miss you. I feel like I'm missing limbs without you here

THE RIDICULOUS PART ABOUT YOU NOT BEING IN MY LIFE ANYMORE IS THAT YOU'RE STILL HERE LINGERING I HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHOSE EYES ARE THE SAME ******* COLOR AS YOURS AND WHEN I KISS HIM ALL I CAN THINK IS "GOD I WISH I WAS KISSING YOU" WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE DONE SOMETHING TO MAKE ME HATE YOU INSTEAD OF LEAVING ME AGONIZING OVER YOUR SILENT EXIT OUT OF MY LIFE YOU'RE IN EVERYTHING I SEE AND IT'S NOT FAIR BECAUSE YOU DON'T DESERVE TO STILL BE LINGERING IN THE LIFE OF SOMEONE WHO WOULD HAVE NEVER LEFT LIKE YOU DID

WHAT'S ABSURD IS THAT I STILL WAKE UP AT THREE IN THE MORNING FEELING LIKE YOU'RE CHOKING ME BECAUSE KNOTS FORM IN MY THROAT LIKE THERE'S A ROPE DYING TO BE CHOKED UP BUT I SUPPOSE THAT'S ONLY ME WANTING TO SCREAM YOUR NAME BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE LONG GONE AND I KNOW YOU'RE NOT COMING BACK MY LUNGS STILL SEARCH FOR YOU BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE THEY'RE GOING TO COLLAPSE IF THEY DON'T FIND YOU SOON PLEASE COME BACK AND BE MY OXYGEN AGAIN

THE FIRST TIME WE MADE LOVE WAS MARCH SEVENTH AND I'LL ALWAYS FEEL EMPTY ON THIS DAY EVERY YEAR UNTIL I DIE BECAUSE IT WAS A SCARRING NIGHT CONSIDERING WE KISSED EACH OTHER AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE IT WAS APPARENT NEITHER ONE OF US COULD TAKE THE ANTICIPATION ANY LONGER AND OH HOW BEAUTIFULLY OUR LIPS EXPLORED EACH OTHER'S AND JUST THE WORDS MARCH SEVENTH IS ENOUGH TO MAKE MY SKIN CRAWL BECAUSE HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST DROP EVERYTHING AND FORGET SOMEONE WHO FIRST MADE LOVE TO ME YOU CAN CLAIM ALL YOU WANT THAT WE WERE ******* BUT YOU DON'T TOUCH ME THE WAY THAT YOU WERE AND CALL IT ******* THE FUNNY THING IS I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW THAT WE WEREN'T ******* AND MAYBE THAT'S WHY YOU LEFT BECAUSE YOU'RE SCARED TO ACTUALLY LOVE SOMEONE FOR SOMEONE THAT SEEMED TO HAVE SO MUCH LOVE IN HIM THE ONLY THING THAT ENDED UP BEING A **** IS YOU NOT THE WAY YOU TOUCHED ME

I WONDER IF YOU EVER WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT BECAUSE YOU MISS ME TOO