IT'S BEEN FIVE DAYS SINCE WE'VE BROKEN UP AND I TEXTED YOU TONIGHT AND ASKED YOU IF YOU WANTED ALL OF YOUR STUFF BACK AND YOU SAID YES AND THAT'D YOU'D GET IT LATER BUT I DON'T WANT YOU TO COME GET IT LATER I WANT TO KEEP YOU AND YOUR STUFF SO I CAN HAVE YOUR SMELL FOR FOREVER

what's sad if I don't even remember
what your voice sounds like

MY DEMONS LOOK LIKE YOU
SOMETIMES AND I HOPE THAT
KNOWING THAT MAKES YOU
GET GOOSEBUMPS WHEN
YOU'RE IN HER BED

I'LL NEVER GET OVER YOU NO MATTER WHO I'M DATING OR MARRIED TO BECAUSE YOU ARE (WERE) HOME AND THE DAY YOU LEFT IT FELT LIKE SOMEONE HAD TORCHED MY HOUSE AND DESTROYED ALL MY BELONGINGS BUT A LITTLE PIECE OF OF YOU WILL ALWAYS BE BURNING INSIDE OF ME AND I LIKE TO THINK I'LL ALWAYS BE BURNING SOMEWHERE INSIDE OF YOU TOO

I hung the bag your present
is in on my closet door
I think it's going to
be hanging for forever

LOSING YOU HAS BEEN THE MOST NUMBING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE IT'S BEEN PAINFUL BUT IT'S THE MOST COMFORTABLE PAIN I'VE EVER BEEN BROUGHT UPON. IN THE PROCESS OF LOSING YOU I'VE LEARNED THAT THERE ARE DIFFERENT TYPES OF NUBMNESS. THERE'S THE NUMBNESS YOU FEEL WHEN THE DOCTOR PRESCRIBES YOU MEDICATION AND YOUR BODY DOESN'T REACT THE RIGHT WAY AND THEN THERE'S THE NUMBNESS YOU EXPERIENCE WHEN YOU'RE COMING OFF OF NOVACANE. BUT THE TYPE OF NUMBNESS YOU'VE CAUSED ME TO FEEL IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL NUMBNESS A PERSON CAN FEEL BECAUSE I FEEL FREE AND NOW THAT YOU'RE GONE I REALIZED IT DOESN'T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT FROM WHEN YOU WERE SUPPOSEDLY IN MY LIFE SO CAN A PERSON REALLY LOSE SOMEONE THEY FEEL THEY NEVER REALLY HAD TO BEGIN WITH?