nothing can ever compare to the chills
that used to run down my spine when
I heard you speak

YOU HAD EYELASHES SO BEAUTIFUL IT
FELT LIKE A PUNCH IN THE GUT EVERY
TIME YOU'D GLANCE AT ME AND YOU
HAD LIPS ANGELINA JOLIE WOULD BE
JEALOUS OF WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME
HERE IN THE COLD TO SHAKE HYSTERICALLY
AND SHIVER LIKE IT'S WINTER IN ALASKA
IT'S ******* ONE HUNDRED AND FOUR
DEGREES OUTSIDE IN JULY FOR
***** SAKE JUST COME HOME
COME HOME COME HOME

you were in all my dreams last night and I woke up crying

I WISH I COULD HEAR YOU CHUCKLE AND SAY MY NAME AT THE SAME TIME BUT ALL I HEAR ARE VOICEMAILS FROM TWO MONTHS AGO SAYING YOU WOULDN'T LEAVE ME IF YOUR LIFE DEPENDED ON IT. WELL WHERE THE **** ARE YOU NOW BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I HEARD YOU WEREN'T BEING SENT DEATH THREATS

I KEEP GETTING DIZZY RANDOMLY AND I THINK IT'S TO REMIND MYSELF NOT TO FALL BECAUSE I KNOW IF I DO YOU WON'T BE HERE TO PICK ME UP LIKE YOU SAID YOU WOULD BE

I SCREENSHOTTED EVERY SWEET TEXT YOU EVER SENT ME AND DOWNLOADED THEM TO MY LAPTOP THEY'RE ALL I HAVE LEFT OF YOU BUT ARE THEY REALLY YOU SINCE YOU CLEARLY LIED WHEN YOU SAID YOU MISSED ME BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN YOU MISS SOMEONE YOU MAKE AN EFFORT TO PATCH THINGS UP BUT ALL YOU DID WAS LEAVE SILENTLY WITHOUT SAYING A WORD SO I SUPPOSE I ACTUALLY HAVE NOTHING LEFT OF YOU BUT EMPTY WORDS

the color of your eyes still haunts me