YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART AND THAT ******* TERRIFIES ME BECAUSE I SEE YOU EVERYWHERE IN EVERYTHING I DO I CAN'T EVEN WEAR MY WATCH ANYMORE BECAUSE AFTER I GOT IT SIZED I CAME OVER AND WHILE WE WERE HAVING *** THE PIN THAT ADJUSTED THE BAND WAS STICKING OUT AND IT SCRATCHED YOUR BACK I WISH IT WAS STILL MY WATCH SCRATCHING YOU BUT IT'S PROBABLY HER NAILS GOING UP AND DOWN YOUR BACK

I KEEP IMAGINING THAT YOU'LL TEXT OR CALL ME AND SAY THAT YOU'VE BEEN MEANING TO RESPOND TO MY MESSAGE AND THAT YOUR PHONE HAS BEEN ******* UP BUT THEN I SEE YOU'RE ONLINE RIGHT NOW LIKING YOUR WALL POSTS FROM A GIRL SAYING MY FAMOUS LINE "YO MAMA LETCHU DATE?" I LIKE TO THINK THAT YOU LIKE THAT SHE SAYS THAT BECAUSE IT REMINDS YOU OF ME BUT THEN I SNAP BACK TO REALITY AND REALIZE THAT YOU JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE AND SHE HAS MORE TO OFFER YOU ANYWAYS

WHAT'S SAD IS I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT YOUR VOICE SOUNDS LIKE

MY DEMONS LOOK LIKE YOU SOMETIMES AND I HOPE THAT KNOWING THAT MAKES YOU GET GOOSEBUMPS WHEN YOU'RE IN HER BED

WHAT TERRIFIES ME THE MOST ABOUT YOU IS THAT YOU CAN LAY ME DOWN IN YOUR BED AND SAY THE MOST HORRIFYINGLY BEAUTIFUL WORDS I'VE EVER HEARD A GUY SAY BEFORE AND SPIT THEM RIGHT INTO MY VEINS THEN FOUR MONTHS LATER HEAR YOU SAY THE MOST PETRIFYINGLY ****** UP WORDS I'VE EVER HEARD A GUY SAY BEFORE: NOTHING.

I WONDER IF YOU EVER HAVE TROUBLE SLEEPING AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOU REMEMBER THAT I ONCE LAID NEXT TO YOU

YOU TEXTED ME SAYING "I MISS YOU, HOPE YOU'RE ALRIGHT" WE HADN'T TALKED IN TWELVE OR THIRTEEN DAYS AND THAT WAS THE LONGEST WE'D EVER GONE WITHOUT SAYING A WORD TO EACH OTHER BUT NOW THAT YOU'RE OUT OF MY LIFE I AM STARTING TO REALIZE THAT THE ONLY WAY I'LL EVER BE ALRIGHT AGAIN IS IF YOU'RE BACK IN MY LIFE AGAIN HOLDING ME IN YOUR BED LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID WITH YOUR LEFT ARM UNDER MY BACK AT ALMOST ELEVEN AT NIGHT I JUST WANT YOUR PRESENCE BACK IN MY LIFE I CAN'T FATHOM YOUR ABSENCE ANY LONGER ****