NO MATTER WHO SAYS MY NAME THEY CAN NEVER GET THE SAME RING AS YOU USED TO WHENEVER YOU USED TO SAY MY NAME IT LITERALLY FELT AS IF MY BLOOD VESSELS WERE GOING TO BURST BECAUSE JUST KNOWING YOU WERE THINKING OF MY EXISTENCE FOR A SPLIT SECOND WHEN YOU SPAT MY NAME OUT OH SO BEAUTIFULLY OUT OF YOUR MOUTH WAS ENOUGH TO START A FIRE IN MY HEART AND NO ONE WILL EVER SAY MY NAME IN THE EXTRAORDINARILY EXQUISITE WAY THAT MY NAME WOULD ROLL OFF THE TIP OF YOUR TONGUE

YOU WERE THE PERSON I WANTED TO TELL EVERYTHING FIRST TO AND YOU WERE THE PERSON THAT COULD MAKE ME FEEL INTOXICATED JUST BY LOOKING INTO YOUR EYES AND YOU WERE THE PERSON WHOSE SMILE COULD IGNITE MY BONES MAKING ME WEAK IN THE KNEES AND YOU WERE THE PERSON WHO I WANTED TO MAKE FEEL LOVED BUT NOW YOU'RE JUST THE PERSON I WANT TO FORGET MORE THAN ANYONE I'VE EVER MET OR BEEN DONE WRONG BY AND THAT BREAKS MY ******* HEART

I JUST REALLY MISS WATCHING YOU DRIVE AND LISTENING TO MUSIC WITH YOU AND SEEING YOU SMILE AND DISCOVERING NEW FRECKLES ON YOUR BODY AND TALKING TO YOU ON THE PHONE AND LISTENING TO YOU TALK ABOUT PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AND I MISS THE WAY YOU USED TO HOLD ME AT NIGHT AND NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS FOUR MONTHS AGO WOULD I HAVE BELIEVED SOMEONE IF THEY SAID THAT IN FOUR MONTHS YOU WERE GOING TO BE LONG GONE OUT OF MY LIFE BUT HERE WE ARE LIVING SEPARATE LIVES

******* YOU ******* BECAUSE OF YOU I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP IN MY OWN BED BECAUSE ALL I SMELL IF YOU IN THE THREADS BETWEEN MY SHEETS AND I CAN STILL FEEL YOU INCOHERENTLY PULL ME IN CLOSER WHILE WE SPOONED AND IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING I CAN STILL FEEL YOU BREATHING DOWN MY BACK LIKE YOU USED TO WHEN WE HAD *** AND TO THIS DAY I CAN STILL ******* FEEL YOU IN EVERY ATOM THAT MAKES UP MY EXISTENCE YOU ****

IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE IN MY LIFE ANYMORE THEN WHY DID YOU DO THINGS TO MAKE YOU BE ON ME MIND EVERY SECOND OF EVERY ******* DAY YOU ******* HYPOCRITE

AT THIS POINT I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO BE GRATEFUL THAT YOU WERE IN MY LIFE FOR FOUR GREAT MONTHS OR TO HATE YOU FOR LEAVING AFTER BEING IN MY LIFE FOR FOUR GREAT MONTHS

I SCREENSHOTTED EVERY SWEET TEXT YOU EVER SENT ME AND DOWNLOADED THEM TO MY LAPTOP THEY'RE ALL I HAVE LEFT OF YOU BUT ARE THEY REALLY YOU SINCE YOU CLEARLY LIED WHEN YOU SAID YOU MISSED ME BECAUSE USUALLY WHEN YOU MISS SOMEONE YOU MAKE AN EFFORT TO PATCH THINGS UP BUT ALL YOU DID WAS LEAVE SILENTLY SO I SUPPOSE I ACTUALLY HAVE NOTHING LEFT OF YOU BUT EMPTY WORDS