How I learnt that your pretty kaleidoscope eyes
must do some raining in order to grow
How freedom is so much stronger than *******
And how, though I feel the past is over,
it will come haunt me at times and how though it’s been so long
the feeling is much too familiar for my liking
I know that you will eventually leave
and there is so much I want to say to you
All the pieces finally seem to go together but the one in my chest
It took almost two years, to finally realize
that grief sitting by my side,
intoxicating the air with a dull, meaningless smell
is not my friend,

And when it occurred to me that, as I let go, you let go.
It doesn’t work like in the movies. How I want to believe in the fairy tales
and the Hollywood stories
You held me through the darkest of nights, but when the sun casts it’s first light,
You disappeared because I let you.
Things that were so beautiful with you have become ugly
Diamonds in your mind
I burn with the desire, for the breath that is yours
How could this weak love, steal anything
I’m sorry I couldn’t be what you wanted
and you seem happy doing what you are now
I forgot how to talk to you, or maybe it’s because you have moved on
Either way, it was a story well-written.
It was a beautiful, loving, desperate tragedy.
**Waste to the world and everything in it!

Empty blankets
Closed eyes, a dead world
My dreams have been pulled away
by too many hands
a fictional statement
I wish you would close your eyes too
Let your soul dance, alone
I’m in reminiscence
a place you will never know
and I can tell, by your wounded eyes
You don’t believe in lies.
Living in a fairytale, where money is an illusion
where want is a hunger
and where pain is in decay
Where dolls are not meant to be thrown away
Keep your childhood, dear.
Let’s play a game
Let’s pretend we are the same
Lying in the space, between day and night
half sick of lonely shadows
Let me see the stars.
feel the cold wind, touch the sky.
Easy to contemplate a why
He thinks the same of me, like the other girls.
The curse fits, dear Lady of Shalott.
Death is the new survival,
and I open my eyes in a world that’s alive.
I don’t know what the visions in my head means
It’s all a little bit dearanged -You must think I’m strange
This is not your mission
Yet, you choose it anyway
I wonder how the view is from there
I think you were wrong about me
like a world not turning,
or a snowstorm burning
a siren singing your lullaby.
A crowded desert,
Closed eyes, a dead world.
A tainted dream, melodramatically laid

Standing in the doorway
Rushing, Racing, Running in circles
Colliding, Confusion, Chaos on replay.
Slowly pulling the white nightgown over her still cold body
Brightly coloured pills, they will make the hour seem less ill.
She’s flesh and blood but does not feel human at night
Scream underwater, tonight, you’re her ****.
Whispering charms and throwing curses
The soothing murmur, the stabbing blade
Will you still wait in the sweltering heat?
Head under ice, dive in, taste the cold.
The cool grey fingers will linger at your pulsing throat
Gazing into the blackness, the sweet breath shall pull you closer
Biting a neck, still yet to be ripe
The moving shadows will lure you in
Vague despair will creep up your chest
Shivers down her spine
Whistling claws tearing you down
Work on your own, delicate lullaby.
Trackless patterns, invisible footsteps
Slowly falling from the sky, the tears of a broken star
Let the snow bury you deep.
She flies with no movement, up and above
There is no longer a reality to hold her down
Wake up to find her body mangled
The twisted lips, the shattered eyes
murmuring under her breath
a continuous sound
something not to be understood.

Of powerlessness
Not knowing what to say,
Please, just do something!
The waiting, the longing, the anticipation
The stress, the nerves, the wanting!

Up on your feet
But there’s the taste of blood on your teeth

Should have danced a little closer to the edge
Gambled a bit more
Should have kept going till they pulled out the dredge
Once again, didn’t let him into the core.

But time would’ve passed nevertheless
And we would’ve ended at the point where it’s meant to undress
I couldn’t, I wouldn’t, but should I?

‘Nothing to do’, she would cry.

It’s so much easier to run away,
hide, flee, to escape.

The cheering could not be overheard
The choosing was done
And like the fairy tales,  the princess was too late.
Nobody needed to tell her.

He should have known better than to trust her
When she asked him to leave
Trust is gained, not given.

Burdened by guilt and despair
I now know… He didn’t even care.

Shattered stars on the floor
Infinite eyes never goes to sleep
Bright blue stars on the shivering sky
Endless  kaleidoscope eyes

To think, to feel, to hear the immense night
To see the last light return to the falling sun
Keep me in your memory
But hold me in your future

I miss you, even more across the sky.
Waters can’t quench hearts anymore
Movement in the stillness
*…It could be all yours

Shattered stars on the floor
Infinite eyes never goes to sleep
Bright blue stars on the shivering sky
Endless  kaleidoscope eyes

To think, to feel, to hear the immense night
To see the last light return to the falling sun
Keep me in your memory
But hold me in your future

I miss you, even more across the sky.
Waters can’t quench hearts anymore
Movement in the stillness
*…It could be all yours