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Angie Sea Jan 2012
I cry now
I can't help it
I'm in pieces
without your hand holding mine
I'm lost
without your voice guiding me
My world stopped being real
when you stopped being you
the boy who taught me
that men have feelings too
tears and pain
torture them the same
that's how it all began
from growing up and games
we hurt together
and healed together
broke and bonded again
and again
but it was all right
you're the reason
I stopped being scared at night
no monsters could touch me
I was safe in your sight
my dad was never a father
and my mother never knew
of the times you saved my life
and made me live it through
you loved me for my scars
all my crazy and all my weird
but most of all
you saved my life
and all that's left of you
I keep
you will never disappear
This was triggered by me hearing a song I used to sing to this friend of mine , well I guess I still do , and I still do end up crying every single time . With Love .
Angie Sea Dec 2011
I wish you the best in my heart ,
                                                                ­              from afar .
Angie Sea Dec 2011
still I talk to you
countless sunsets after

you're the eclipse
highlighting my presence
once in a while when I let you

even upon leaving you left well
I indulge in your fingerprints
then I take a step

*one
becomes two
3/3
Angie Sea Dec 2011
You're not here anymore
I thought it was a creul joke
that was before

until all the things that were you
stopped happening
stopped being
and I had never been so scared

still I talk to you
when I know I'm alone

I had to learn all over how to be okay
how to smile and mean it
without thinking about you
because you were the definition of so much
the best things words can never be

*still I talk to you
2/3
Angie Sea Dec 2011
I've written verse after verse about us
trying to piece together every memory
scrambling at anything that provokes a reminder
because you were all real
so it must have been all there
while pain revealed the truth

I got so used to
having your arm draped over my shoulder
you were the only one I'd run to
the only one I could run to whenever I broke
you'd hold me tear stained
you were one of the few who stayed
with me through the worst
while pain revealed the truth

we wrote in the sand
the teasing and our way of fighting
and I revisited the docks
we spent the hours and days of time together
where the only you and me talks happened
while pain revealed the truth

I can't swim in a lake
without hearing you
I still hold close
your music your words
I swear I still smell you in my clothes sometimes
or are those only desperate hallucinations
me cheating myself with illusions
while pain reveals the truth

*You're not here anymore
1/3
Angie Sea Dec 2011
thirteen is my favorite number
unlucky I know
but it works in my mind

it's perfect
and maybe partly it's because of how disliked it is
While me

I love how the one and the three go together
and make four

and I love how they seem not to be two
the one every one usually likes
but they really are

when you take one away from three
or when you give one to negative three

they are still two

the simple mathematics of one and three
they are the possibilities

the lonely one
and the three's a crowd
but two can be too much
when no one is talking

and spelling it out just seems right
with its t-t and its e-e
and the way your tongue almost reaches your lips
when you say it out

loud

So when they ask me to
pick a number between one and ten

my number will be four
but thirteen knows

thirteen is my favorite number
and though you may not like thirteen , you may be surprised at how much it likes you sometimes.. or not ;)

In honor of me reaching 13 fans , I love and thank each and every one of you , and truly appreciate every second spent on reading my work , it is my honor to have such beautiful minds taking in my words ♥

p.s. even if you aren't a fan , my gratitude still goes out to you for reading ! ^_^
Angie Sea Dec 2011
you need someone to love
               you need to love someone

as I do
how easy I become
how flawless you are
how jealous we become
of each other's other worlds
until it closes in on us
and I love you so much
I love you so much

our heads tilt the same way
fingertips touch the same way
kiss the same
fear love pain
fear love pain
how naked this all has made me
shredded and stripped
torn down to nothing
I was stuck in a constant state
insomnia
you were like
a resurrecting whirlwind
and I want you to stay
I want you to stay

we'll have our midnight picnics
talks by the lake
while the oceans
and storms beyond
elude us
as our feet swing
we make our ripples
and they go on and on
and on
                           and on
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