Trapped between memory and memory
I sleep and I wake and they run still so vividly
I can't pretend we're no longer a part of me

A pendulum
Trapped between memory and memory
The road ahead has yet to reach clarity

So entwined by steps through familiarity
And asking is this natural to be so
Trapped between memory and memory

When I let the ink drip out
of the infinite space
I call mine
it no longer belongs to me

You may read it as you do
if you read it at all
For I am drawing my heart out
and the pictures are all there

How do I do this*
How do I comfort and console
a dear friend suffering
from "the pangs of despised love"
When I know not how to heal myself

The problem is
I know not how to heal myself
Thus should I stumble to find the words
that will bandage the pain
Or silently listen
with open arms

And Hope
the presence of another
who knows those pangs
Will hold

I can not hate the woman you love now
Only jealousy invades me
A monster it is
My hands are emptied by it
My head taken over
Making me ache for you
To see what is real
To see what she really is
When you are not there

I watch her run her hands up his leg
It's not your leg , I ache
The way he laughs and touches her
Not quite the way you do
I am not the one to say
Whether anyone else is good enough for you
Because really am I , I guess I was not
But I know I could not be where she is right now

                                      *But everything is irrelevant
                                         You are the exception
                                             And all I want to express to you
                                                When you're not here
                                                    
                                                                ­                 This is not me

I am a people person
I need to be around people
I hope you are comfortable being with me
I want to meet new people everyday
I love really getting to know people
I've gotten better at understanding people
I love to introduce friends to new friends
I want to listen to everything you have to say
I hope to be there whenever you need someone
I need to make people feel not so alone
I am a people person