I love you is 8 letters and 3 words to some people.
but when it is spoken it is much more than that.
I say I love you to my best friend because I would do anything for her.
I say I love you to my true love because I mean it.
but I warn you do not falsely breathe these words.
for yes they are just words but they have such meaning.
I love you mean you are everything to me.
means I never want to be without you.
means my heart yearns for you.
means it don't want to ever let you go.
when that other person hears I love you they know what you have has become serious.
this is a warning poem to you my friends.
do not say I love you if you are later going to take it back and regret it.  
for you may take it back but that other person has fallen for you.
don't mistake these 8 letters and 3 words for nothing.
because I love you means everything.

Anger comes in stages.
Like in the book pages.
The story starts out small.
Then you just hit the wall.
Clouds start to form around.
Thoughts of anger are found.
Starts the rain like your tears.
Lighting warns no one hears.
Thunder rolls and booms loud.
You erupt in the crowd.
Anger you hide subsides.
Storm softens like the tides.
Sun shines and stops the pain.
Sky is clear like your brain.

We all see people in a different way.
I see you in your full potential.
I see who you really are.
I see a soul that the angels wish they had.
I see heart as big as the sea.
You are a fire burning so bright.
You are a wild heart and a beautiful soul.
You have sweet side to you that comes out all the time.
You are an adventure for me and I just want to explore.
I look into your eyes and I feel this warmth building in my heart.
My eyes are a gateway and your eyes have the key.
Those deep green eyes show an innocence.
You are heaven sent and God showed me my perfect match.
We don't have to share words, or say i love you's for if i look into your eyes I see a love fire burning.
Our eyes take us deep into who we are.
We will explore each other.
and i will look into your eyes and know I'm where i belong.

My frustration built up like walls around my sense of serenity.
Starts out like a microscopic chip.
That then builds higher and higher like the building blocks of a child.
Just like the starting of a volcanic eruption.
My insides boil with a heat and anger.

My tranquil side in the brain tries to break down this build.
Yet like a volcano nothing can be done.
Frustration cannot be stopped til it subsides.
People may only run and take cover from the explosion erupting inside.
My level of lava in the inner core grows and grows.

I begin to struggle with my wording like a toddler beginning to speak.
These are the signs of a frustration morphing into an angry rage.
That microscopic chip blows like the end of a ticking time bomb.
Words pour out of my mouth like roaring waves of a storm.
Finally the lava simmers down and hardens to form the hard crust.

My frustration becoming anger subsides.
I forget the violent words that were just spit out of my mouth.
I feel in a daze like I was not myself in those seconds of rage.
Just like a tornado destroys things in its path then goes away like it was never there.
My clear sky of tranquility and peace rises and appears.

12/6/13
A day I shall never forget.
The day I believed in love at first sight.
I sat in my room that night thinking it would be another night.
another night filled with bad thoughts and tears.
I took a chance and talked to you.
And baby that was the best thing I ever did.
We all have to jump for someone to catch us.
We all have to go through a time of hardship to truly see what we want.
I want you and only you.
I want you for the rest of my days.
Best friend is an understatement you are my soul mate.
12/13/13
You say you love me and baby i believe it all.
The heart does not know time.
The heart only knows by what it feels.
No it did not take long for me to fall for you but that time makes no difference.
We are infinite.
We are that fairytale love that every little girl dreams of.
You are oh so beautiful.
Every part of you inside and out is utter perfection.
I use to wonder why God put me through pain.
I now realize it was to show me that my other half is you.
half a heart is all i am without you.
we are two lovers and dreamers with hearts singing the same sweet song.
Our love is forever for you are the other half that I have searched for so long.

This night I know all too well.
I remember just listening to you talk.
Your voice is so soft and innocent.
We take our walk and you are oh so concerned about how cold I am.
I lie and say "oh no I'm fine."
Finally we are at my sanctuary.
The two benches made for couples to love on.
The water perfectly quiet and calm so that you may think with no interuption.
I stand and look onto the water which has now become ice.
We stand there and admire the peace and quiet.
You come to me wrapping my in your arms and I feel so loved.
We sit at this bench talking of christmas lights and the stars in the sky.
We are dreamers baby.
I did not expect this.
You look at me with those baby green eyes.
We kiss.
In the dark cold night our lips touch ever so softly.
You are perfection to me.
You touch my face as if it is love.
I feel at peace with myself.
I feel infinite.
Now I'm lost in this feeling and I can't get out.
I love you baby brown.
I love your light smile.
your dimples.
your ever so gentle kiss.
Its not to soon to tell for I know how love feels I have felt it before.
Yet this love that i have for you is ever so different.
You are toxic and I love every part of you.

He grabs your hand.
Your feel your heart race.
It feels so right.
It feels so pure.
im scared
My heart is dropping it's walls.
But I just started to build them up.
Heart break.
Tears.
Pain.
Sorrow.
I don't want to feel it again.
New love makes me scared.
He grabs my hand and my heart still races.
I have to try.
New love can become eternal love.

At night is when I think.
In the chair of my quiet room I sit.
Memories of you play back in my mind.
They play like a broken record over and over again.
I pull out the pictures and the letters.
You may ask why I drown myself in pain.
And to this I have no words.
I don't have a reason or a slight thought as to why.
The day brings happy thoughts and confidence.
Yet as night falls all it brings is loneliness and tears.
Words.
They go through my mind.
You will find someone. It will be okay. Don't let it bother you.
I want to listen but my heart forbids it.
My heart won't learn to heal.
It just beats with pain.
Night is when you reflect.
Why is my heart showing a reflection of you?
I try to break the mirror that shows your face.
But my heart shields it.
Let the nigh be short for the pain is hard.

its hard being young.
not being a baby but being a teen.
its sometimes hard to get through high school.
but i promise you it gets better.
I went through depression i lost my way of who i was.
i stopped painting because i was losing parts of myself.
my poems became only about sorrow and not the light at the end of the tunnel.
but my love picked up my broken pieces.
he led me back to myself.
he made things better.
along your years you will lose friendships that were dear to you.
but it gets better.
for when that old friendship dies another is born.
this new friendship is much stronger.
you begin to realize that the old was not the right one.
boyfriends come and go.
but hear me my dear it gets better.
for i was in pain after my last relationship.
i thought it was meant to be i thought it was love.
i dealt with him but i did not love him.
i cared for him but much more than he cared for.
now though i have found love.
someone who i know its meant to be with.
i don't just deal with him because in my eyes he is perfect.
that girl she calls you names.
she tears you down and tells you that you are ignorant and ugly.
yet i still promise you lovely it gets better
he cheated on me with her.
i lowered myself and put her on a pedestal.
now my love shows me i am beautiful.
her words do not hold me back anymore.
i rip down that pedestal because she does not deserve to be in that place.
being young is hard…plain and simple.
going through high school is a journey full of tears and heart break and bullies.
but after all the bad God gives you good.
we all go through pain because when we are finally happy we appreciate more.
depression is terrible.
but now i have the best friend in the whole world and the love of my life.
now i look back and i wouldn't change one thing of what happened.
because i know my depression led to these wonderful people.
when life is rough and hard do not give in to the heart breakers and the bullies.
because darling i have seen with my own heart and eyes time heals everything and it gets better.

In the coldest time of the year we found love.
We walk where the christmas lights shine and the snow sparkles.
We walk not in the same step but with the same heart beat.
You kiss so sweetly.
Under the mistletoe we are now and I feel so alive.
I know i am the world to you.
On a cold winter night we would be together drinking hot chocolate.
We would not fight but share beautiful laughter.
Your voice sounds like a soft violin melody.
Your laugh makes me smile.
Your eyes looking in mine make my heart skip a beat.
I love you happened in a flash but I don't mind.
I hated winter and winter had a bad place in my heart.
Now you have made winter beautiful and warm.
I see my future with you and it is so lovely.
We are two beautiful stars dancing together in the night sky.
One day you will come to me and say will you marry me.
I hope its in winter under the mistletoe because that is when my life changed.
You are so lovely.
You are a unique and beautiful snowflake dancing down to the pavement.
Yet you are different in my eyes.
Tell me your secrets.
share with me your fears.
For baby there is nothing to hide here.
There are a million stars I could dance with but none dance like you.
Love me through the winters each and every year.
Love me forever little star.
Winter was a bad place but you have made it warm with a love that shines as bright as two stars.