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Jan 2014 · 276
The Bottom.
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
Nobody cares,
           Nobody cares,
                     Nobody cares,
                                            At all.
I thought I was fine,
So I took some time,
And now
             I'm watching
                            The bottom
                                             Fall.
Jan 2014 · 329
Free.
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
I'm just floating in the wind.
Going
        wherever
                  I feel
      the need
                     to be.
I'm just floating in the wind.
     Trying
             to
              let
          my mind
             run
  
                                                                     free.
Jan 2014 · 1.3k
Tossing & Turning
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
If
  Nothing
        Is
Wrong
        And I have
             Nothing
   To worry about.
     How come
I still
     Can't
Sleep
         at
              Night?
Jan 2014 · 387
My Friends.
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
If there's one thing
In this life
That I want
To see
For all of
You.
      It is for
            All of
               You
                 To be
                    Content.
Not only
With who you
Are,
But also
With everything
You've done
And everything
You will do.
Jan 2014 · 409
Waiting In The Dark
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
Shadow of my love
You come and go with the sun,
And when you fade away;
I know the day is done.
Heartache of mine,
Why must you cause me so much pain?
I know that I am breaking,
Yet, you remind me anyway.
Lonesome hope,
You seem so dull.
I can't blame you
Since life's so cruel.
And like a piece of kindling
Before it catches spark.
I'm sitting here sound,
Waiting in the dark.
Enjoy.
Jan 2014 · 733
I'm not grown; I'm growing.
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
You're like a light at the end of a pitch black tunnel. and I'm sprinting towards you with wide-spread arms, even though it isn't guaranteed that you'll accept me the same way I'll accept you.
But I'm finally willing to take a chance.
   If I never try, then I'll never know, and I'm sick of beating myself up at the end of every day all due to the fact that I was too much of a coward to take a risk.

     I'm not grown; I'm growing.
         Part of growing is learning,
And I believe knowledge is a power locked deep within our heads and passion is the key to unlock it so we can let our minds run free.
     So that our ideas can become a vast landscape blooming and teeming with life!
     But, in order to learn, I have to take risks.
So I'll step into darkness with faith and hope.
Because if I never try, then I'll never know.
I hope you enjoy this!
It's an "off-the-top-of-the-head" idea.
Wrote whatever came to mind (:
Jan 2014 · 681
Theory
Andrew Durst Jan 2014
Don't worry about
Tomorrow
Until tomorrow
Comes,
Because no one is
Guaranteed
To live that long.

Don't dwell or live
In the past.
You cannot change
What has been said
Or what has happened.

Like most things in life;
Time is out of our control.
And when it comes down to it
At the end of every day,
The only thing that matters
Is whether we accept and learn from our decisions.
Or continue to drown in all the ideas for
"What could have been."
Dec 2013 · 1.6k
Insanity.
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
I thought I had meaning but I've meant nothing all along,
And now I'm stuck at the bottom because that's where I belong.

Every day, it's all the same.
I try and I fail.
Tomorrow won't be different,
I can't escape this hell.

I'm living my life on repeat and simply wasting away,
Because usually it's all worth nothing at the end of the day.
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
I came, I saw, but I couldn't conquer.
These tidal waves of animosity are pulling me under.

There's a storm in the sky just overhead.
It's painting my entire life a dark shade of red.
There's no turning back now, and I will not forget.
My destruction was inspired by broken amends.

I can apologize a thousand times but it won't right my wrongs.
I'm struggling to find the place in which I belong.
Enjoy.
Dec 2013 · 2.0k
Jack Asses and Hypocrites
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
Jack ***** and hypocrites,
Wanna be's with no common sense.
Wealthy men and beautiful women,
Sell their souls although they shouldn't.
Back stabbers and manipulative ******,
Plucking and pulling with kaniving tricks.
What a disaster this world must be,
We're all trapped behind bars;
Confused as to what it means to be free.
Dec 2013 · 1.1k
Liar, Liar.
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
You're a mistake.
A burden I live with every day,
You're a mistake,
Don't tell me to trust you
because you are all the same.
Liars.
Yeah, I call you by name.
You kicked me when I was down
And left me with shame.
Liars.
You're the reason for all my pain,
Never again can I trust what you say.
Dec 2013 · 862
Lonesome
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
I'll be the first to admit
I'm really out of shape,
My hair is way too long
And always in my face.

I'm not that tall,
I'm actually really short.
I don't have nice features,
And I'm not good at any sport.

I'm kind of like a black eye;
Nobody wants one.

I can make you smile
I can make you laugh,
I can make you feel wanted,
So you can forget about the past.

I will always be here for you,
Day and night,
You'll never have to raise your voice,
Because we would never fight.

But none of that matters,
At least that's what it seems,
No one really wants
The unattractive me.
Dec 2013 · 4.7k
Insecurities.
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
Old insecurities,
Throwing me to the wall,
I break into pieces,
But you never cared at all,

So I'll keep on watching you,
In that bed where you lay,
So many nights before,
We were lost in our own ways.

So just what happened here?
I guess they'll never know,
That you just left me lying here,
Entirely lost for words.

Old insecurities,
They really bring me down,
So I'll just keep lying here,
Broken on the ground.
It's something.
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
I cannot fix the broken
I cannot fix your heart,
The words that are left unspoken
Will tear our souls apart,

There is no room for forgiveness,
No love in which to find,
You can try to collect the pieces,
But forever; you will not find.

Look at the hour glass,
Your time will be what's rued,
There's no way you can grasp
Onto what you put me through.

I'm not expecting you to understand this,
So I know you'll question why.
Ever since the first kiss,
You made me believe a lie.
Dec 2013 · 882
You're not made of steel.
Andrew Durst Dec 2013
You have to be held up
Before you can be let down,
Remember that I care,
Even when I'm not around.

Wake tomorrow
And I will be there,
You only chase after yesterday
When you feel scared.

Just don't quit now,
Because life isn't a "game."
Your heart is a target
And everyone's taking aim.

You are not made of steel,
But you were born to be strong.
Disregard others remarks
And prove all of them
Wrong.
I'm not usually one to rhyme a lot.
Nov 2013 · 849
Yesterday
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I'm laying here looking out the window so I can watch the snow fall.
Curled up in sheets and blankets,
With a heater running on high.

The day has already come and gone,
And it's waving good-bye from the end of the road.
I smile and wave right back,
Waiting for the moon to illuminate the canvas of all my yesterday's.

I have no expectations that Mother Nature will take away my troubles,
Along with the cold sting of frost bitten air when the seasons start to change,

I only hope
That she grants me the will
to toil and conquer a future yesterday.
Enjoy.
Nov 2013 · 636
Home Is Where The Heart Is
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I'm here,
The sun has set,
The moon sits behind the clouds,
The streets are deprived of light.

One street light flickers on and off,
My worries are heavy,
My strength is weak,
The world is at my door,
Luckily I'm not home.
I have a few more moments left,
I don't have to face it yet.

So where do I go from here?
I don't want to leave my fading light 
Even though the only way I'll move on
Is if I face my fears
And go forth into the dark 

Things lurk within the corners 
Scary things
Like
The truth
And 
Life

I can't believe I'm here
In the flickering light 
Deciding whether or not
To go back to my heart,
To walk forth into darkness,
Or to face honesty and spite
So I can be home again
With the world at my door
Finding the strength and hope
To let her in

But for now,
I'm still here,
The sun has set,
The clouds are passing
And the moon is starting to show,
Shedding light,
Hinting at what I should
Do.
I found this on my old iPod. I wrote this about 6 months ago. I enjoyed it. Hopefully you all do as well.
Nov 2013 · 930
Too Often I Forget (Trust)
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
Too often
I forget,
That when
I trust
Someone,
They don’t
Have to
Do the same
In return.

Trust isn't
A two way
Street.
It’s one way.
And sometimes,
If you’re lucky,
Someone will
Turn down your
One way street
Regardless of the
Precept.

Too often
I forget,
That trust
Isn't something
That will always be
Returned.

Because trust isn't
An obligation
For someone else

It’s an expectation
You already have for them.
Hopefully this makes sense.
Nov 2013 · 516
No Rhyme, But Reason.
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I never
Abused
Substances
To find answers
Or search
For something
Within myself.
I abused
Substances
To avoid the
Questions
And feelings
All
Together.
Basic.
Nov 2013 · 1.3k
Distress.
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
My mind is fighting my heart
But neither is going to win,
It's constantly back and forth,
And my patience is wearing thin.

I'm so tired and I want to sleep,
But my mind is not letting me.

I want to smile, I want to laugh,
But my heart is still under attack.

How much longer do I have to wait?
I don't know how much more of this I can take.
Nov 2013 · 438
Regret
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I want to
Tell you
That I sleep
Just fine
At night.

But I would be lying.

Because I'm writing this at
Three o'clock
In the morning,

Thinking about what
I shouldn't have
Said.
Nov 2013 · 737
Damning God
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I'm standing here
Cursing the sky
With slurred words.
          Damning god
For all that is wrong
In my life.

I'm starting to notice
The people with
Sons and daughters.

         They're covering their
Children's ears
To protect their innocence
From the crazy man (me) that's
Screaming at nothing.

I understand.

      I should
Probably
Do this
Elsewhere.

     No one wants
To listen to me,
And they couldn't take me
Seriously
Even if they tried.

What a miserable,
******* of a life
I must truly live.
Enjoy the random thought.
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I take a Klonopin before bed,
An Adderall in the a.m.
And a Percocet at noon,
Just to make the pain end.

I smoke a bowl every hour
And smoke a cig in-between,
I swear I'm free from the stress,
At least that's what it seems.

I'm not doing it for attention,
I'm not doing it for thrills,
I just barely get by
When I'm on these pills.

I'm sorry for the attitude
I just don't seem to care,
Keep the advice to yourself,
And I'll stay out of your hair.
Something for the past
Nov 2013 · 719
Time
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
I'm not paying attention to the minute hand,
Or the seconds that slowly pass by like the kids in the hall.

I'm not enjoying the moment,
Nor am I aware that it even exists.
I'm just trapped in my head;
Wondering where time has gone.
Nov 2013 · 1.1k
She Was Alone.
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
She was soft-spoken
With a heavy heart,
I could see in her eyes
That she had been through hell and back,
And lord only knows what those eyes had seen.

Daddy was never home,
Momma never called,
And although she had a few friends that always stayed true,
She still managed to feel alone.
She wanted something more; acceptance and love.
But when she finally worked up the courage to say hello to the popular cliques.
They just put her to shame,
Made her feel worthless,
As If no one knew her name.

And one night when she returned home after another long day.
She closed her bedroom door,
And turned off the lights.
She knew what had to be done,
As she waved a white flag for a battle the world had won.

With the tilt of a pill bottle,
Emptying it all,
She finally felt okay.
She finished writing her good-byes with tears of joy falling from her face,
She was so content that she could finally leave her personal hell.

So she crossed her T's, dotted her I's, and left no stone unturned,
And as she dreamed, and hoped, and yearned.
An eternity of rest and desires impatiently waited for her.

She left on her desk, a note for her friends,
She needed to make sure they knew they weren't at fault.
She assured each of them that their presence was appreciated and adored.
And that all the sleepless nights they spent together, trying to make everything all right, didn't go in vain.

Along with a message to her mom and dad,
Apologizing for all of her wrong doings and explaining why she felt responsible as to why their relationship never worked.

She didn't want to guilt trip them or target any blame,
She just needed for them to know that things had gone and changed.

She expressed her love for the both of them,
With a passion that burned like an open flame,
At last, she apologized one more time,
Before she turned her back on all the words that she once said.

Shortly after she put her things away and made her bed,
She started feeling the side-effects.
She resumed to lay down for the final time,
With a look of contentment in her eyes.
She felt like the world wanted her dead,
And her only way out was to accept the end.
It's something different, I'm trying new things.
Nov 2013 · 1.2k
"Maybes" and "What Ifs"
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
She took my hands and placed them on her hips,
Then smiled at me as I craved for her lips.
My palms were sweaty and I started losing grip,
My vision started getting blurry and I almost tripped,
But something was keeping my composure,
And now that I think about it, I probably should have told her.

Because

I swear to god she was the one who saved me,
But when I think about her, it drives me crazy.
Because the moment passed and she had to leave,
Just as I noticed the cuts under her sleeves.
I didn't ask why,
And even if I wanted to, I didn't have time.
I understand what it's like to try and cope,
Feeling weak in a world so "cut-throat."

Maybe I feel like I should return the favor,
To be the one who is her savior.
But that's all on the list
Of maybes and "what-ifs."

Truthfully I don't know,
And for now I should stay on my toes,

At least until the day comes when I see her again,
And not let go of what could had been.
Just a free-verse.
Nov 2013 · 3.4k
Atmosphere
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
Last night
I sat outside,
Counting
All the stars
In the sky.

I lied upon
The damp
Grass
Still drying from
The
Rain.
Waiting for
A star
To fall into
The atmosphere,

Although
Not a single one did,
I still managed
To gain a
Tiny piece of
Infinity
While lying
Effortlessly
Upon the
Ground.

I know
Now
That it was
Never about
Settling
My
Scores,

But with
A tiny
Piece of
Infinity,
I'm left
With only
Wanting
More.
It's something
Nov 2013 · 852
Hell
Andrew Durst Nov 2013
You started a fire
And walked away
As I burned,

I kept asking what you were doing
As you poured the gasoline,
Drenching the floorboards
Of my hope,

I didn't get much of a response,
Just a cheap apology
And a short good-bye
To what we could have become.

I knew when I first met you
That you would walk away,
But there was something so tempting
About dancing with your flame,

I took my chances,
         I kept up as long as I could,
But when I fell from physical exhaustion
Someone else stepped in to take my place.

Now, my body is almost entirely ash
And I'm watching you from afar
            Realizing that you left me
With more that just a scar.
Revised on 11/13/13
Oct 2013 · 1.1k
Mind Over Matter
Andrew Durst Oct 2013
Mind over matter
That's what they say
But it's hard to not mind the matter
When it's stress and dismay.

Their depth is vast
The road is long
You've spent your whole life
Wondering what you've done wrong

Fall not into their essence
But into a love
And let it **** you
When push comes to shove

It's easy to live
It's harder to try
Should we confront our problems
Or set them aside?
Oct 2013 · 918
The Shepherd and the Sheep
Andrew Durst Oct 2013
My eyes are growing weary
From counting all these sheep
I'm trying to stay awake
When I'd much rather, sleep.

I can't seem to understand it
Why they are this way

The blind following noises
Just to make it through the day?

Do they choose to walk this path
Because they're afraid of being alone?
Or do they choose to walk this path
So the blame is not their own?

"I was just doing what they said!"
"I thought it would be okay..."
"I've never done this before."
"Man, I feel so ashamed..."

Where is the responsibility?
Where are the roles?
Everyone's a sheep
And thy cannot make it on their own

Do not fear a wolf
For the wolf, is not around.
When you have a chance, take it!
Success will be what's found.

Do not join the herd
Do not become a sheep
Try to stay awake
When the others are asleep.
This is about being a leader instead of a follower. But, you can make of it what you will.
Oct 2013 · 556
My Very Best
Andrew Durst Oct 2013
So let the rain pour
I'll sleep today
Don't wake me till morrow
Unless you're here to stay

Give me this blessing
That I'll wake by your side
If the rain is still pouring
We'll stay inside

When it's over and the flowers bloom
I'll pluck a dozen and give them to you
The drops of rain will glisten and shine
Just like the brightness of your beautiful eyes

Give me this day
O' so full of rest
And allow me to show you
My very best.
Wrote this a while ago, came across it today.
Oct 2013 · 680
Three Words
Andrew Durst Oct 2013
I can
Apologize
A thousand times
But still
It won't
Solve
Anything
That has gone
Wrong.

I never meant
For things to
End the way
They did,
And
I never
Really had the
Chance
To make things
Right.

Now
Everything I've
Done
Is just
Everything
I
Did

And those
Three words
Just
Can't be
Said.
Oct 2013 · 3.8k
Wealth.
Andrew Durst Oct 2013
I know you're weary, my friend
But the day is almost new
It may not be what you hope for
But you will make it thru.

I cannot wish for anything
But wealth upon your dreams.
Riches any normal man
Will probably never see.

A humble home
With an easy heart,
The wisdom to walk away
Before a fire starts,
Knowing how to choose
What you need and what you don't,
Taking care of loved ones
And a family of your own.

Money is not the value
No,
Wealth lies within your soul,
Reach down and grab it
Live a life that's full.

You can fill your pockets,
But money can't fill your heart,
Be rich, my friend

     And
         Set
    Yourself
       Apart.
I haven't written anything lately that I actually like, kind of have a little writers block..
Oct 2013 · 455
Leave A Light On.
Andrew Durst Oct 2013
Leave a light on for me
In case the night grows old.
And leave a blanket on your porch for me
In case the night gets cold.

Leave a light on for me
So I can hopefully find my way.
Because I'm kind of lost on this barren path
Searching for answers so I can try and make things "okay."

Leave a light on for me
In case I forget.
My memory is hindered
From all the nights I haven't slept.

Leave a light on for me
Above the doorway to my love.
And leave a light on for me
Even if you hate who I become.
Sep 2013 · 1.6k
Nightmares
Andrew Durst Sep 2013
When I was really young
I used to always sleep
With my face toward the wall
And my back toward the rest of the room.

I remember always being afraid of the dark.
As if something or someone else was always with me in the same room.

I never turned over when I heard a noise or saw a shadow.
I was always scared that I'd see "someone" or "something" standing in the corner of my room looking directly into my eyes through the thick darkness that devoured my bed room.

I was only 7 years old.
I had no idea that monsters and fairy tales were all makeshift beliefs for people's entertainment.

Trying to sleep every night was pure hell.
Always thinking that every sound was made by a ghost,
Every shadow was casted from the boogie man
And that every feeling or sensation my nerves collected from anything other than the bed was the demons and monsters touching me, waiting for me to fall asleep.

If only I knew then what I know now.
That every fear and nightmare I ever had
Was actually something to laugh about.
Sep 2013 · 652
That Moment.
Andrew Durst Sep 2013
Have you ever
Noticed
A time where
Everything
Yes, I mean literally
Everything,
Just falls into
Place?

Where time stops
For a second.

You can't do
Anything,
At all.

Your eyes
Can't look
Away
And your
Brain
Doesn't want
You too
As your
Heart
Begs for
The image to
Stay.

Have you ever
Noticed
How I
Get lost
Every time
You walk into
The room?

Have you ever
Noticed
That I almost
Hang on your
Every next
Word?

Have you ever
Noticed
That when I'm
With you
Everything
Yes, I mean literally
Everything
Just falls into
Place?
Sep 2013 · 777
I Have Nothing
Andrew Durst Sep 2013
I have,
Nothing.

I have,
Nothing
To give you.

I have,
Nothing
To gain
Or lose
In this
Battle of
Trust.

I have
Nothing
To show for
The things I've
Done.

I have
Nothing
To say
That will
Make you
Stop
Dead in your
Tracks,
And turn around,
With open arms,
Bearing the
Opportunity
Of another
Chance.

I have
Nothing
To gain
And I have
Nothing
To lose

It's already been
Seven
Lonely months
Without
You.
Andrew Durst Sep 2013
Sometimes
I think about dying
No, I'm not suicidal
I just,
Wonder...

I wonder what it's like to be
Lifeless.
Is there an
"After life?"
Will I have
Five senses?
What happens when I
Close my eyes
For good?

I can't be the
Only one
Who stops to
Think
About what it's
Like...
What it's like for
Your loved ones and
The people that
Impacted your life
To realize
That your gone
And you won't be
Coming back.

I wonder
Who would care
And who would
Be perfectly fine.
My worries
Lie with the ones
Who don't.

Sometimes
I think about death
Because
I don't want to
Think about
Life.
Aug 2013 · 726
Jamie
Andrew Durst Aug 2013
You're a beautiful women
With a sinister heart.
You have eyes like tornadoes
That tear me apart.

You break me down
In the most ****** up way.
But when it comes down to it
I always stay.

Your kiss is but bittersweet.
Like coffee and cigarettes
After a really long day.

When I am with you
It's like being on a really good high.
And I'm talking way past cloud nine.

That point when all the lines become a blur
When making sense is just absurd.

Because when I'm with you.

The beautiful girl with a sinister heart,

I get lost in your eyes that tear me apart.
Aug 2013 · 1.5k
Pools
Andrew Durst Aug 2013
You're pool is full
You've gone too far.
You're learning the difference
Between easy and hard.

Your actions are reckless
And insides the same.

It's hard to accept it;
Why things change

Be calm, be steady
Put that razor down.
Empty your pool
Of hatred and doubt.

Don't listen to their words
Use the ear that's inside

Fill your pool
With the will to stay alive.
Aug 2013 · 881
Numb
Andrew Durst Aug 2013
I'm numb.

I can tell.

I can clarify how I feel
Because I don't laugh when someone cracks a joke
I didn't cry when my grandma died from a stroke.
I don't feel pain or remorse
I can't feel happiness or sincerity.

Sure I have moments where I feel good
Like I have it all under control.
But that feeling always leaves me.
Enjoying life is like being on a really good high
Because there's a guaranteed crash.

I don't know how to fix myself.
I don't even know where to start.
My life is a broken masterpiece
Locked in a safe deep within my heart.
Aug 2013 · 564
What I Want
Andrew Durst Aug 2013
I've been feeling so weak,
No matter what I do I feel such a lack of energy within myself.
Empty stomach, heavy arms, weary legs, and light headed sensations; my physical state has been like this for a while now.

I don't feel company when people are around.
Inside its still just me, myself, and I.
I don't know what to do or how to even go about changing this.

When I wake up in the morning, I almost want to curse the sun for it rising again.
I'm out of energy and I can't do this anymore.
I'm hungry for something and I can't place my finger on exactly what it is.
I'm not okay.
I'm not fine.
My heart is breaking with every day that passes by
And I can't find a reason to smile.
I am not normal,
There is clearly something wrong.

I just want to sleep while knowing there's no specific time I have to be up the following day.
I want to eat and feel full.
I want there to be days when I have to wake up and no matter how bad the previous day was, there's a smile still sitting on my almost completely jaded face.
I want to hold while being held.
I want to speak and be spoken too.
I want to listen and have someone do the same for me.

And most of all
I want to be strong.
Aug 2013 · 1.3k
My Buddy Jake
Andrew Durst Aug 2013
Jake and I are sitting here
Contemplating about life
As if we're the only philosophers of a stone age.
We've agreed that life is unfair, and that people make mistakes.
We've discovered some old tracks
And played a few games.
My buddy and I go way back 
When I was in the 8th grade as a matter of fact
Speaking of facts
I'll say one thing
Jakes had my back
Since that one spring.
Summer was coming up
And we were bullshittin' again
Talking about love and everything we miss
Passing a cig back and forth
I paused and I asked
What do you think life would be like
If we couldn't remember the past?
Would everyone be considerate and condescending free?
Would people look us in the eyes
And be happy with what they see?
It was just a few questions
Only a few summers ago
Now we're right back at it
Letting it flow
Jul 2013 · 1.1k
I Wish I Could Fly
Andrew Durst Jul 2013
Sometimes I wish I could fly
So I can go to the highest point in the world
Look down
And not be afraid

I'd sit there and watch as everyone crowded around
Down below
To see what I was up too
And I'd listen to their faint voices
Asking questions like
'Is he going to jump?'

And I would

I wouldn't start flying until I was almost to the ground
Just to see their expressions
'It's a bird, it's a plane!'
No, it's just me

That's why I wish I could fly
Just to mess around.
Jul 2013 · 787
Numbers
Andrew Durst Jul 2013
I met this girl
Beautiful inside and out
And when I am with her
She takes away my doubts

I'm so light headed
And stuck in a daze
As I hope no one
Takes her away

This feeling I have
It is never ending
Kind of like numbers
There's only a beginning
Jul 2013 · 1.2k
Thursday
Andrew Durst Jul 2013
I sit inside my room
While the other kids are outside
Playing contacts sports
And talking about their days
With all the challenges
That they had to face

The sun is casting in through the
Only window I have
But I don't really mind the loneliness
Of my room, it's actually comforting
After a day of putting up with kids
Trying to one up each other
With everything they do

I'm not saying I'm different
Or anything of that sort
But I'd rather relax and reminisce of times
When the only time I had to worry
Was whether or not I was getting a
Deck of cards to add to my collection
On a peaceful summer morning

Times were simple when I was young
So it's clear to see that things have changed
But still, I don't mind

I enjoy a cigarette in the morning
With the fresh dew drying underneath the sun
Watching the birds collect food for their
Newly hatched chicks
And in the night time
Smoking while I contemplate about
Simple things such as
Regrets
Love
Life
And other things that I don't care to mention

So, as I sit inside today with the sun
Spitting rays into my room through my only
Bedroom window
I realize that I'm actually quite content
With the way things are.

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