A steady thunder
Man made and strong
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four

The quiet rain
Sprinkling softly
Bells jingling
In time with the rest

The lightning cuts through
Piercing the rhythm
Beautiful and pure
A melodious contrast

Earth below our feet
Sky above our heads
With the flames between us
We will dance until dawn

Dark purple bruises
They cover my arms
Bright red scratches
Leave my legs shaking
I cannot do anything
So helpless, so alone
I can never be right
Every step another mistake
No one can find out
That will make it worse
So what do you do
When the ones who gave you life
Are the ones taking it away
All I can do is lay here
Silently screaming for salvation

Mother Earth and Father Sun
Brothers and sisters
All around us
The creatures of the world

Bond together around crimson fire
Dreaming, Sleeping
Guarded carefully
By the moon and stars

Together we live
Together we die
We are one with the spirits
The nature and the sky

Softly flowing
Soaring higher
Carried on the gentlest breeze

Pale pink shade
Smooth as silk
Slowly falling from the trees

Gently blowing
Round and round
Twirling, swirling to and fro

Just in spring
With sunlights touch
Will cherry blossoms grow

It's too bright and too hot
But that doesn't matter now
My hand closes around cold metal
My breathing echoes in it
So familiar to me now
I scream the words they want to hear
"Are you ready?"
Through the dance routines
And hundreds of lyrics
I become tired
Backstage I grab the water
Have a look in the mirror
The one who was blessed
The one who got lucky
What I'm doing is worth the harsh words
Worth the exhaustion
All that matters in the end
Is the rush of adrenaline
And the cheer of the crowd

The first thing I feel is warmth
A calm breeze blowing
And the feeling of being renewed

Then a blazing heat rises
Almost unbearable
Burning me, parching my throat

Another change to cooler temperature
Chilly winds blow
Dry leaves whip my face

Then all is frozen
Too cold to sustain life
The world becomes white

Endlessly spinning
Birth, death and rebirth
The earth forever caught in a cyclone

The monsters are everywhere
In our stores and homes
On our streets
Running our world
The look like us
Act like us
We say we see them as different
But most are never recognized
There's no way to stop them
Old ones die, new ones born
There will never be an end
Always a demon underneath
Greed is their friend
Power, their lover
Without control, there is no satisfaction
The crave suppression
They will fight for what they want
Haunt our steps
We never had a choice
We cannot destroy ourselves

We have all seen and felt
The boy by the shore
He is quiet and calm
He invites you in to play
Seems harmless to everyone

This boy has a dark side
He will pull you in until you cant get out
Push you down to the sands below
Bury ships at his feet
Until there is life no more

Two creatures
So near to one another
And still so far away
One is cold and colourless
The other hot and fiery

So alike, yet so different
We can see them both
But rarely together
One guards our existence
The other shines with beauty

True opposites
These two majestic creatures
They are not part of our world
However they hold a place in it
Two demons of fire and ice

From their perch up high
Bright leaves become fireside shades.
Then fall to the floor

The time will soon come
When bright lights illuminate
The fullest green trees

The green meadow holds
Many colours on the ground
Growing in silence

I've been here for about 2 years.
     I'm getting critique from all my peers.
          We sit at the bar and we say "Cheers!"
               And set ourselves up for the next frontier.

Every day and every night.
     Going over the steps is quite a fight.
          All I do is "Revise, Rewrite."
               Until im ready to say "Alright."

Im not yet ready to say goodbye.
     2012 went by in the blink of an eye.
          Please send me reviews and I'll reply.
               I'll just barely squeeze by.

Now numbers are the figure that beckons.
     One number specifically, the number two thousand.
          It skyrocketed so quick, I don't know what happened.
               Clearly, poetry must be my passion.

I'm addicted to pain,
as much as someone who is
addicted to hurting their veins.
  
The adrenaline rush it gives me,
compares to no other.
  
I look for drama because I'm
a self-depleting person, who
is only satisfied when they're hurting.
  
I put myself in horrifying situations,
it's a day to day occupation.
  
I trap myself in a dark hole,
like that of an abyss, my heart
can barely pronounce scared due
to its lisp.
  
Angels and demons kiss my soul
with death defying holes.
  
I tend to feel lost without no control,
to regain myself is an everlasting toll
of hatred and resentment.
  
Looking into a mirror,
to only find yourself terrified
of those hollow eyes.
  
A face tells a story,
but mine seems to not stop,
like an undying pendulum clock.

My Specter around me night and day
Like a wild beast guards my way;
My Emanation far within
Weeps incessantly for my sin.

A fathomless and boundless deep,
There we wander, there we weep;
On the hungry craving wind
My Specter follows thee behind.

He scents thy footsteps in the snow
Wheresoever thou dost go,
Through the wintry hail and rain.
When wilt thou return again?

Dost thou not in pride and scorn
Fill with tempests all my morn,
And with jealousies and fears
Fill my pleasant nights with tears?

Seven of my sweet loves thy knife
Has bereaved of their life.
Their marble tombs I built with tears,
And with cold and shuddering fears.

Seven more loves weep night and day
Round the tombs where my loves lay,
And seven more loves attend each night
Around my couch with torches bright.

And seven more loves in my bed
Crown with wine my mournful head,
Pitying and forgiving all
Thy transgressions great and small.

When wilt thou return and view
My loves, and them to life renew?
When wilt thou return and live?
When wilt thou pity as I forgive?'

Over my sins thou sit and moan:
Hast thou no sins of thy own?
Over my sins thou sit and weep,
And lull thy own sins fast asleep.

What transgressions I commit
Are for thy transgressions fit.
They thy harlots, thou their slave;
And my bed becomes their grave.

Never, never, I return:
Still for victory I burn.
Living, thee alone I'll have;
And when dead I'll be thy grave.

Through the Heaven and Earth and Hell
Thou shalt never, quell:
I will fly and thou pursue:
Night and morn the flight renew.'

Poor, pale, pitiable for
That I follow in a storm;
Iron tears and groans of lead
Bind around my aching head.

Till I turn from Female love
And root up the Infernal Grove,
I shall never worthy be
To step into Eternity.

And, to end thy cruel mocks,
Annihilate thee on the rocks,
And another form create
To be subservient to my fate.

Let us agree to give up love,
And root up the Infernal Grove;
Then shall we return and see
The worlds of happy Eternity.

And throughout all Eternity
I forgive you, you forgive me.
As our dear Redeemer said:
"This is the Wine, and this the Bread."'

Nowhere left to go
Standing,
At the crossroads
Just a man.

Searching the sand
For his fingerprints,
Lost
So long ago.

Echoes of yesterday
Mirrors across today

Almost time to die.

Frozen tears never fall
They,
Just shatter.

I was angry with my friend;
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears:
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine.

And into my garden stole.
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning glad I see,
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

Words you speak are ***** to A drunken man.
Actions you take are sun to A dried up land.
Thoughts you think are empty like your promises.
Your mouth is poisonous  like a snake that hisses.
Your touch is cold as the void in your heart.
I wish your heart was a race,
A race with no start.
Your being is vile as a slithering serpent.
Your mind is a maze,
A maze with no hint.
A continuous game.
No start.
No finish.
I want your life to be full of torment and anguish.

I knew I would miss you
But I guess I never really thought
About how much I trusted you
How much you helped me through
Now I'm stuck again
Tongue tied and alone
The world keeps on spinning
And when I fall your not there
To help me up.

I guess it's good for me
To try to hold up my own
But with you I was a person
Left behind the monster I'd become

Now here I am with reality crashing down
Like a chandler over my head
You were my shield
Protecting me from words
Now they just hit me
And I haven't armor to deflect them

Never know how much
I clung onto you

But now I see what I had dragged you to
And I'll miss you.

I yield to an overwhelming desire for you  
I’m constantly fighting temptations….  
but losing the battle before it starts  
I've abandoned sound reasoning,  
and entertained demented judgment...  
due to my lustful imagination,  
driven by ****** thoughts of you.  
I'm being coerced by framed images,  
and enticed by your natural glory  
For you have weakened me,  
with intense craving...  
that blush at my flesh.  
I can feel your body clothe mine,  
dressing me in fabrics of passion,  
stitched together with wanton thread.  
Focusing on highly charged ****** episodes,  
Stuck on repeat....  
...in my mind.  
How I wish I could feel you,  
seducing my skin with feverish chills...  
as I fantasize of you,  
Breaking me down and exposing my core  
becoming the other part me,  
Allowing the friction of your tightness  
to tease my hardness,  
as it collides with the warmth of your wetness.  
****!  
This WANT is crazy….  
but this NEED is insane.  
I want to feel you…..  
I NEED to feel you…

My pen touches paper with flicks and swirls of my hand
Words written from my heart of which my head can understand
It's my way of talking freely ,Something i find so hard to do
Iv'e spent so long quite in my thoughts while committing social doom
Now i have no one left who will listen to the things i want to say
So i write these words in the hope that somebody may read it all some day
These pages are my playground where my hands write how i feel
There is no control of my emotions for all your eys will see is real
So please read these words with an open mind and kindness in your heart
For kept inside are my true feelings and the dreams i call my art

You are my haunted past
The daunting memories i can't shake
Your the broken bones in this cast
My greatest mistake

You are my cuts from yesterday
My scars for the moment
Your the bullets in this gunplay
And I'm my only opponent

Your the voice in my head
Such deafening sound
Your world would be better if I'm dead
If my body was in the ground

You are my great divide
The cause for all this pain
Of course, all this you would have denied
If I'd bothered to explain

Your the finger on the trigger
Getting ready for the ****
I'm just waiting, getting bitter
For our love has grown so ill

Your the grip on the gun i hold
I think its time to say goodbye
So pull the trigger, I'm so cold
I'm ready for my time to die

I’m so sick of all the lies I’ve been telling
Hidden so well deep beneath my complexion
Living two separate lives in one body
Macho mechanic by day, hopeless poet by night
Wearing separate uniforms to signify each occupation
One a blue collar and one a black hood
My identity kept a secret behind these dark shades
If they found out, I see inevitable mutiny
Living night after night caged like a bird
Buried in this hole of eternal guilt
This jury won’t let me be free to go
I will be judged and convicted. Creep.
But I just don’t ******* care
If only they knew how I really felt
That my true home is in a pen and notebook
With my heart laid out in ink across these pages
Slowly letting the world see my life
Sacrificing a piece of me in every write
An escape from my monotonous reality
This is me, I write how I feel
No lies, no shame, no holding back
I hold my front and live out the lie
Until I gasp my last breathe and fade away
And maybe one day while searching my old things
Someone will stumble across my papers and read
Feeling those same feelings and comfort I found

My life is just a sinister joke.
That people laugh at and provoke
while they watch me lie there and choke.
It’s like I can feel the ripping and tearing,
A mental pairing of chains and shackles
A ******* that causes me pain
with forgiveness that is vein.
My sanity is like a toy for only the cruel to enjoy.
Very few understand the amount of pain one can endure.
You’ll find that most are blind and obscure.
They don’t understand the complicated mind
or the reality of mine.
You can watch as I self medicate.
While I’m hoping others can relate.
But look at me in denial like my life is just a trial.
I keep lying to myself a deluded belief that my life is decided.
From beyond what I can understand is why I exist.
Why im still here when I don’t have a purpose.

Your beauty overwhelms me
As I wrap my arms around you
I press your softness tight
Great passion fills my inner being
I'm captured in your embrace
Your eyes control my very soul
The touch of your lips, heaven
Forever frozen in time
All else fades into nothing

When I tell you that I love you
I’m saying that I care
In you I’ve found a friend
That is wonderful and rare


When I tell you that I love you
The meaning is so profound
For, in you my fate has been uncovered
And my soul finally found

When I tell you that I love you
What I’m trying to express
Is that you can always count on me
I’ll give you nothing but the best

When I tell you that I love you
I’m trying to convey
How much I admire you
In a thousand different ways

When I tell you that I love you
I’m saying “thank you”
For for being who you are
For being a part of my life
And touching my heart

When I tell you that I love you
It’s not exactly what I mean
To explain what I feel for you
Would take a zillion words
Not three

Though miles come between us
And distance keeps us apart
Nothing can ever change
The love inside my heart

I may not be there with you
Every minute of the day,
But you’re always here with me
In at least a thousand ways

Whether it be a thought,
Or a moment that we’ve shared,
It only takes a second
To get from here to there

Though I cannot really feel
You here at my side,
It’s always nice to know
I’ve got these memories in my mind

I Miss You

I love you in so many ways
To try to explain or define
What it is I feel inside
Is near impossible
I wouldn't know where to begin
Just know what I feel has no end

I will love you beyond forever
With every breath, with all that I am
Of this I am certain
And though I can’t find the ways
To tell you how much I love you
Without a doubt I can say
I will love you all of my days

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeoning's of chance
My head is ******, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

I think a dream so
        never return,
I painted the hands
                and the face blue,
then suddenly I was
                        abducted by the wind,
and I started to fly
                                in the infinite sky.

Fly so high
        singing where am I,
in the sky painted blue,
                happy to be there,
I flew and flew
                        happy higher than the sun
and still higher up,
                                while the world
slowly disappeared there,
                                        a sweet music played
just for me.

Fly up high
        singing where am I
in the sky painted blue
                happy to be there.

But all dreams
        vanish at dawn because,
when the moon sets
                take them with you,
but I keep dreaming
                        your beautiful in the eye,
which are blue like the sky
                                dotted with stars.

Fly up high
        singing where am I,
in the sky painted blue
                happy to be down here,
and keep on flying happy
                        higher than the sun
and higher still,
                                while the world
slowly disappears
                                        your blue in the eye,
your voice is music
                                                that sounds sweet to me.

Fly up high
        singing where am I
in the sky painted blue
               happy to be down here,
in the sky painted blue
                       happy to be down here
with you ...

It must be bliss
Thinking you're invincible.
I wish I could go back to that
I just want to be invisible.

The fear, it gets me
always living in my veins.
People don't know the power,
that physical force contains.

The constant fear I live in
keeps me forever in check.
As an obvious result of this
I am an emotional wreck.

I want to make everyone feel safe
I want to stop all the senseless beatings
I want them to open up to me
and reveal to me their feelings.

For I can understand them
I've went through it before.
There's no more need to fight
We can stop your internal war.

I don't know where to find you
I don't know how to reach you
I hear your voice in the wind
I feel you under my skin
Within my heart and my soul
I wait for you
All of these nights without you
All of my dreams surround you
I see and I touch your face
I fall into your embrace
When the time is right I know
You'll be in my arms
I close my eyes and I find a way
No need for me to pray
I've walked so far
I've fought so hard
Nothing more to explain
I know all that remains
Is a piano that plays
If you know where to find me
If you know how to reach me
Before this light fades away
Before I run out of faith
Be the only man to say
That you'll hear my heart
That you'll give your life
Forever you'll stay
Don't let this light fade away
Don't let me run out of faith
Be the only man to say
That you believe, make me believe
You won't let go

Energy flows within us.
              Whether it's good or bad, there's no telling.
                              But if you can harness that energy...control it,
                                                 You can discover equilibrium.

It's a life-changing experience.
               Unlike any other in the world.
                              The peace of mind and relaxation.
                                                  You will find a new you.

Every night when i close my eyes,

I enter a Virtual Wonderland.

A world unlike any other.

A world where anything is possible.

A world where pigs can fly.

A world where men are shape-shifters.

Anything I please.

But when I'm troubled,

This world becomes a Virtual Hell.

A world unlike any other.

A world where anything is possible.

A world where pigs fall from the sky, wings burning.

A world where men have gone wrong.

Nothing i please.

When i come to grasp reality again,

I roll over and cry.

My life, even in my sleep, is tormented.

The world is calm and still.
Everywhere the people take advantage
Of what they already have.

Then, a virus hits the planet.
Supposedly wiping out a whole city.
Because no one dared to visit.

The residents had become
Dead and yet alive.
Deceased and yet surviving.
But only on what?

The stench, the smell,
the horrid, putrid scent.
Of rotting flesh.

Pieces of body do lay on the ground.
Dirtying the ground.
the blood has turned to dust.
Just dirt in the earth.

After time it spreads.
One person to another.
When your last you'll say
It's a rotting pandemic.

Black.
          Sorrow.
                       Death.

All these thoughts, twirling through our mind.
      Confusion spreads among us as we all stop being kind.

The very edge of insanity is so close and yet so far.
       Hatred is an option that we all consider.
                    Hatred towards ourselves.
                                 Not toward others.

If that option be chosen, you'd better be wary.
           If you let it drive you, it can get a little scary.
Sometimes we hurt because we are impaired.
                         But dont let your life be darkness and despair.

Everybody's falling.
          Everybody's crying.
                   and underneath it all, everybody's dying.

The silent plague of winter.
          The deadly poison cold.
                   Yesterday the sky was blue but now its white and bold.

It overcomes your body.
          It overcomes your mind.
                   You never see it coming like a gunshot from behind.

The world is going dark.
          and all I can do is cry.
                   Apocalypse is coming when theres snow clouds in july.

Walking down an path.
Its raining and its dark.
The moon is shining brightly.
You can hear the dogs bark.

Out the corner of my eye
I see a silhouette.
A man's walking behind me
he hides something ill bet .

I came from getting liquor.
I grip the bottle tight.
seems like he's getting quicker
and i am filled with fright.

Now he's right behind me
I turn around and Smash!
My face is filled with tears
Who did i just bash?

He's lying on the ground
In a pool of blood.
My liquor bottles broken
And i just say "Oh crud."

I hear some sirens blaring.
I think I'd better run.
My legs don't move at all
cause i just am stunned.

I see the car pull up behind
the cop steps out and says
"Put your hands up
or go to jail today."

I'm frightened to the core
I cant move very far.
I put my hands up
he says "Get in the car."

He brings me to a warehouse
Least that's what it seems.
It looks very old.
It has mold on the beams.

He brings me inside.
It is almost empty.
Except for a chair.
and he just says
"Don't tempt me."

He sits me down
and straps me in.
he sits down in front of me
and all i see is a grin.

He holds a controller
and gestures to use it.
and he just says
"I'm ready to lose it."

"You've told us nothing
about what you've done
and all you can say is
I just couldn't run?"

He pulls out a speaker
He says "I don't know"
He pauses for a moment
Then says "Were ready to undergo."

I hear a low hum
and feel a vibration.
it starts getting warmer
then, Electrocution.

My body starts shaking.
My soul starts to ascend.
I think this is it.
This is the end.