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It's early in the evening but I'm so tired it feels like the late hours of the night. I have a cup of tea in one hand and a cigarette in the other and I can't even look at the stars because they remind me of your eyes.
 Jan 2014 Andrew Clark
Dhirana
the blue lines never seemed
to fade
from my wrists
like strands of ice from the
Atlantic ocean's
tides
I can't seem to rub them away.©
Her hazel eyes stare
as she gently bites her lip.
******* beautiful.
 Jan 2014 Andrew Clark
Paulina
4 am
 Jan 2014 Andrew Clark
Paulina
Trace my soul with your lips
Brush my cheek with your eyelashes
Whisper love in my ear as we fall into trance
This is our modern romance
4 am daemons inhibit us
They prohibit us from lying
We are tying iron naughts
Our minds and thoughts wander into distraught
And yet we are calm
So dead set on dreaming through the darkest hour
And so we do
Both quietly sighing words resembling *I love you
The singleness of mind
as the pavement lobotomizes you.
No forks in the track
at any point.
from point A
to point B
Employ your limbs or you might fall asleep
as you are serenaded
by strange music
from universes
just discovered.
Some universal truth tough to explain.
How every galaxy
in every glint
on this desert road
is, with precise frequency, interrupted
by that yellow stripe
running in intervals down eternity lane
It's at 10:30.
10:30 when I realize who I really am.
I realized how hard I try to make everyone like me.
How hard I try to fit in.
How hard I try to be this loud obnoxious girl, with this big boastful bad attitude.
Is that me?
I don't really know.
It was about 10:14.
10:14 when I realized what someone I trusted with my most confined thoughts and feelings
Thought about me.
Annoying.
Super.
Annoying.
Am I?
The problem.
The problem is that I do not know who I am.
There for I am not sure how to fix it.
I do not know how to guide myself into the right.
Why not?
Why can't I stay happy?
What happens in my mind?
Does something break? Or snap?
And then reform.
Then break or snap again?
What is it?
Why?
What do I keep letting hold me back?
Why am I so lost?
Who is wiling to answer these questions?
I want to scream into the wind.
I want the wind to pick me up and carry me away into abyss.
No one will find me.
I can be alone with my thoughts and my words.
I can write all the colors in the sky.
When I write about happy things. I am happy.
I can feel it.
But how do I get myself to do it when all the floods my mind is upset words.
I cannot swim in this any longer.
I can feel myself drowning.
But I know that I will save myself at the last second.
Because that is what I was made to do.
Save.
From all the harsh and cruel things that life is.
From myself.
10:38.  
10:38 I realized how jumbled and confused all of this is.
Just like my life.
Everything is a mess.
10:39.
10:39.
Save me from this mess.
Carry me home.
I am tired.
I am so tired.
10:39
Just let me be alright.
Do you?
Do you ever think about how vast everything is?
And how tiny and minuscule you are to the rest of the world?

Do you ever think about how big you are compared to the universe, or the sky, or the ocean, even your own little town? 

Do you? 

Do you ever wonder how many stars there are compared to you?
Or how many of you would it take to wrap around the whole earth
Because that’s just the kind of thinker that you are, and you know it’s ridiculous but you can’t help but wonder just how many, and wonder how on earth you could make it work. 

Do not be ashamed of thinking you are so small and minuscule,

But also do not be misguided by thinking that;

Because even if you are small in comparison to the universe, and the sky, and the ocean, and your small town.

There is someone out there that thinks you are all the rain that falls from the sky, and that your existence is like the radiance of a sunset.

Of course no one thinks that you are the entire universe, but the universe is to vast. 

Too unreachable, too unattainable.
However small you may be,
They think you are all the enjoyment in life, and to them, that makes you the whole galaxy.
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