Leaves crunching in the wind
Waves crashing into the abyss of the sand,
And the water shines an everlasting fluorescent color
As the winds play with the beauty of a girl's hair
      And sways right on through every boy's hair
I'll always remember
                  The smile you bore
                  The laughter we shared
       And even the sweet, calming voice
                  That always speeds up the beating o my heart

Images and sounds
                  etched on the sides of my mind
This is the feeling of forever
                  And I hope to the highest of heavens
                           It doesn't fade away

Though this is only a dream
It is a beautiful dream I want to be locked away in
Keep me here
Inside better places
Because waking up is a horrible truth
                                                           ­             Beautiful lies
                                                            ­            Are much better than this

The leaves crunch away in the wind
As the waves take a dance with the abyss of the sands
And the color of the fluorescent waves are complemented by your smile.
Your presence adds on to the beauty of nature
For when the earth formed
       She was thinking of you
Letting oceans shine the same brightness as your smile
Letting flowers grow the same beauty that you omit
Shaping Her magnificence into the form of you

Babe,
You keep looking for beauty
Eyeing every girl as candy
And when they leave you because of your personality
You change who you really are
Discarding things that create your beauty

If you were looking for beauty
Then stare into a mirror
And uncover what you have been trying to hide
The things you've buried deep inside
Is what's been keeping me alive
And locked away in dreams
Keeping a better place
Than living in reality
Where you chase after hopeless feelings
Continuing to lock yourself away

You're still looking for the girl
To be apart of your world
So when you've stopped chasing after lies
Find me in the pages of books of fantasies
Find me on lines of poetry
For I am the leaves that crunch away in the wind
What crashes into the abyss of the sands
I am what plays with the beauty of a girl's hair
                  And sways through a boy's hair
I am what carries on the laughter you and I share
For I am the ocean that shines the same smile as yours
I am the flowers that grow into your beauty
          I am what Earth created
          To be the dream that you locked away from yourself
          I am the girl meant to be for your world
So when your looking for beauty
          Unlock me from your dreams
          And find what shines in reality.
For I will always shine in your darkest times
For I am Yours,
                                                            And only yours.

You created problems
Left and Right
You didn't want to solve a single one,
So you let them grow,
Like a white elephant that refuses to leave the room.

And as they grew,
The problems got too rough on you.
So you ignored them all
Slept them away
Dreamed of a happier place
And on the very next day
You forgot each and every one of them.

Just sometimes I wish,
You knew how tall your problems grew,
How wide the white elephant got
And how small our room is now.

You say you don't want to argue,
But all I'm telling you is the truth.
You say you want to end the conversations,
But all I'm saying is lets get rid of the white elephant in the room.
But you still refuse.
So I'm telling you know babe,
Your elephant grew.
Its getting to big,
And this room can't hold me and you.

Your problems continue to grow,
And your elephant is getting to big now,
It might burst soon.
Your creating problems,
Left and Right
And your white elephant is still in this cramped room.
Just sometimes I wish,
You knew how big your elephant grew.

At the dawn of a new day,
Your smile still goes on,
Even when your life span is gone.

I made a wish with the wind.

The breeze from the plane feels oh so nice!
The addiction of adrenaline is catching up again
And as my legs scream walk
Preparing to jump off into the deep blue
My mind’s tellin’ me stop!
Not ready for lift off.
Standing up from the plane
Thousands of feet high
I’m staring off at the eyes of a beauty
You see,
Cupid shot his arrows at me,
And I ain’t fallin for no boy
I’m fallin for the ground
Cause feelin this intense breeze
Makes me want to dream
I asked for a wish
A wish from the wind
And as impossible as it sounds
Jumping off into the sea of skies
Growing wings and wanting to fly
Feeling the breeze beneath white feathered wings
Would truly be a wish come true.
That wind,
I want him to cradle me into his arms
And though he cannot put me back on that plane
He will end this misery
Why wind, oh why are you so tempting?

YOU TEMPRESS BEAST!
You’re calling out my name!
Begging me to come jump to you!
But as you can see,
Man is not able to sprout wings and fly!
So what gives me the difference to jump into that sky,
Trying so hard to beat evolution.
But, I’m not worried about that right now,
You see I’m giving my self delusions
My rusted heart has been ****** at with words,
Because I was the silent child who’s life was always messed with,
And I Cannot tolerate these monster’s tortures anymore!
So I’m ready to jump off this plane and into the ground,
Even when there’s no parachutes around.
See, I’m giving into his siren calls,
I’m ready to jump off from my miserable life,
And fly into a world filled with angels.

And as I am taking this leap from life,
The winds are carrying voices from down below,
I hear my parents screaming no!
And I hear my friends saying don’t do it girl we’ll love till the end,
I just can’t let myself continue any further.
So I’m doing it now,
And I won’t be listening anymore
All I want to do is feel the wind beneath my wings.
Come at me wind, grant me what I’ve dreamed.
These next few seconds of my life,
Will be spent reminiscing about how many times I’ve been hazed at and hated.
From now on and forever,
I won’t be a victim to your crimes,
I’ll be set free into that sky.

This year,
This life,
This senseless ****,
This style,
It all seems like a pattern now.

You know?
Day in,
Day out,
Sunrises to sunsets.
I feel like my life has finally found something hidden in it.
A sort of pattern that just continues to repeat
And repeat itself.
There is no end,
There was no beginning
It just happened like that.

17 years gone by.
I’m stuck in that age between being too young to know
Being too young to do
Too young to feel.
But being to old to know better,
Old enough to be wiser,
Old enough to know this is what is real.

And I'm hatting my adolescent years,
For I've never been able to live it once.
I don’t know what its like to have that sort of freedom
That sort of life.
To be a teen
To live it up, as my peers say.
To be somewhere almost every weekend
To have that sort of social standing with the incrowd.
Because I have always been the outsider looking in,
That was my pattern.
My life style,
That was the sort of senseless **** I went through.
Because no one gave a clue,
What its like to
Be the one your parents have to depend on
Be the one your parents can trust to keep things in order,
To be the one your parents know can leave at home,
Alone.
Because for awhile now,
I’ve been playing adult for four years.
And never once did I live up my life.
Day in day out,
Sunrises to sunsets,
My life has a pattern.

I live in a doorway,
Where it splits into two roads
I live in a doorway,
Where there are mountains to climb,
Bridges to cross
And stories to write
Where the word “struggle” is nothing more than a myth in a fairy tale land
A door way in which
Children are taught Universal Knowledge
So, their ignorance doesn’t blind them
A doorway in which
Humans can all coexist as one race
Where things like racism and prejudice
Are all just silly little myths
I live in a doorway
Where fantasy and reality
  Are split into two
Where the line between the two
Is falling apart
Where the doorway that splits
Is hutting off,
  Forever to be sealed away.
I live in a doorway
Where it splits into two
One filled with the ignorance of
Reality.
One filled with the freedom of
Fantasy.

Would I be able to win your heart?
Would I be able to create a beautiful world?
With just musical notes?

Would my voice reach out to you?
In a musical tone,
In hopes you’ll get to see something that’s a true beauty~

If I knew how to play an instrument,
Would I shine the brightest for you?
Leading you away from the darkest of tunnels,
Leading you to a better place.

If I knew how to play an instrument
Would you be able to notice the figment of your imagination,
Was creating a wonderfilled world,
With musical tunes and notes,
Making sure you live in a world of color
And darkness will never be able to grasp you again.

If I knew how to play an instrument,
Would you be able to notice the girl who tried so hard,
To learn how to play a simple instrument
In order to give you this wonderfilled world?