andrea hundt

andrea hundt Sep 2013

Cold Sweats, I'm Restless.

I guess I'll spend another night
The way I always do.
Waking into nightmares
Of suicide and you.

andrea hundt Sep 2013

A Suicide Note

You called me a joke.
So here's the punchline.

andrea hundt Sep 2013

Rock Bottom

You're there when you can feel the anchors on your feet,
And your lips have turned a sickly blue.
When you reach your final breaking point,
And there's nothing left for you.

You're there when you can't see a future,
And your tears won't even come.
You've lost all your will to care,
And you've forgotten where you came from.

You're there when you're rocking back and forth,
And there's no one coming to your rescue.
When you scream so loud no one can hear,
And you can't ever find a refuge.

You're there when you can relate to this,
And you're not sure how that could be.
When you think maybe you're not so bad,
Cause "rock bottom could never happen to me".

andrea hundt Sep 2013

Flashback

When I hear that crack of thunder
I wonder if you heard it too.
And when the lighting flashes
Do you remember me
Like I remember you?

andrea hundt Sep 2013

Final Moments

You'd think there is something romantic about
Final moments.

But no one ever told you how that noose would bruise your neck and
Make rubble of the collarbones you tried so hard to keep so perfect.

No one ever told you how twenty pills would make you shake and
How your bones would freeze, numb, and how much your head would ache.

No one ever told you about your mother and the tears she's bound to weep
When she has to wash the blood from your floor and all the sheets.

No one ever told you the pain lasts long after impact and
That when the train hits, you're almost always still in tact.

Most of all,
No one ever told you that you really are enough and
This is your life, make it yours,
Even if it's rough.

Because there is nothing romantic about
Final moments

When they come too soon.

andrea hundt Sep 2013

Goodbye

Goodbye to brown eyes,
and your gentle voice
singing midnight lullabies.

Goodbye to messy hair,
strong arms to hold me,
and every laugh we used to share.

Goodbye to my guitar in your hands,
and my head in your lap.
To all your favourite bands.

Goodbye to your soft kiss,
and skin against beautiful skin.
I never thought it'd end like this.

Goodbye to safety,
and everything I ever knew.

Goodbye, good luck,
and I'll always love you.

inspired by an *******
also by the song goodbye - avril lavigne

andrea hundt Sep 2013

"You Break It, You Pay For It."

This is love?
Is that what this is to you?
A quickie, a "gotta run",
and you swear that you're true?

Don't offer me your hand,
to only draw it away.
You can't string me along
to keep your heartache at bay.

This is love?
I don't want any part in this ****.
You broke my ****** heart,
and now you're gonna pay for it.