I feel like all these people aren't sure who i am
Aren't sure i exist
I'm a vessel for input with no meaningful output
Irrelevant
Unimportant
Transparent

1.
so young and unsure
of what feelings even were
we do not talk now

2.
I knew you shortly
I met you on a cruise ship
You are far away

3.
We used to be close
Now you have habits that scare
and you hurt people

4.
Dated you shortly
I'm sorry for how things went
I made you so sad

5.
You were my first girl
you made me question a lot
feelings had been weird

6.
we were both so drunk
made the mistake and fell hard
was nothing to you

7.
we were best friends for
so long, things changed and
now we do not talk

8.
we clicked right away
you left me for someone else
not over it yet

9.
I was so so drunk
you used me for attention
I resent you now

10.
You are a vision
you're from another country
why would YOU kiss ME?

11.
we are together
you make me feel important
I hope this will last

Stripped completely of my identity
I've been robbed
I'm going crazy
And no one else has noticed

Living in an empty room
I'm losing my mind
I don't know what to do
I don't
Know
Anything

I'm being reawakened by a light
It drives me away
And into a room of nothing
I don't know anything

I'm trying to be strong
For the people around me
But how can I be?
When I'm being constantly
Torn apart from the inside

my own body is surprising me
with how many tears
it is able to produce

my own mind is scaring me
with how many unwanted thoughts
it is able to invent

my own heart is still
surprisingly
beating

and my legs
for whatever reason
are still moving my body forward

you remind me of the bruise on the back of my leg
I dont usually notice it
until I accidentally give it a little bit of attention and I touch it.

Then it hurts. It hurts so bad.

But in actuality, the bruise is temporary, like you.

I urge--nay, I crave to be passionate
yet I lack the passion necessary
I see myself going somewhere in life,
but i dont see the reason behind it
besides maybe satisfying the generation before me
I'm not lazy
I'm not dumb
I am just a member of the apathetic youth
and I just dont see the point of it anymore.

i woke up from a dream the other day
i dreamt no one was there for me
everyone abandoned me when i needed them most
my friends, my family, everyone
i barely made it out alive

i woke up from a dream the other day
i dreamt that i was forced to live in a place i hated
everybody in that place was a carbon copy of one another
no one cared, no one noticed
i barely made it out alive

i woke up from a dream the other day
i dreamt i was in the hospital
i had taken too many pills
my heart was racing faster than it should
i barely made it out alive


i woke up from a dream the other day
i dreamt that i was living my life
day after day of being me
living in my house, going to my school
i'm not going to make it out alive