Changed,
I sense it upon your silence.
Crushing me, I fade.

Our paths drift,
We fall out,
You don't follow me anymore;
Because you want to live here,
And I want to reside there.

You prefer that story,
Which inevitably contradicts mine.
As I melt into anger,
You shine from excreted ember's hue.

You embrace the aches as I push them away,
You ride as I resist;
That is our fatal destination.

I'm going to explode.
I'm going to combust,
But I'm proud to do such a thing!
I'm proud to be alive!

Why does it have to hurt?
Don't tell me it's choice.
There are many things we have yet to understand,
And emotions are valid.
And it's fine that I ponder and ache.
It matters.

You govern the wind with your whisper,
Veiled by perception, you do not see.

Gusts blow,
Only in innocent cry do I answer,
There is no light here..

My tears direct the moon's volatile waves.
Upon luminous impact,
I will send you into a peaceful abyss.
Sensual and happy, you will transcend,
Leaving me here with nothing but your whisper, and shivers.

I'm sorry,
I frightened you.
I don't hate you.
I'm disappointed in myself for all the images I see,
That I cannot alter, or comfort, or change.
Because I'm afraid of rejection, expectations, and lack of feeling free.

My emptiness cannot comfort you entirely,
Yet I can show you of solaces beyond what one visually can see.

I will cradle myself till tears subside.
Though fatal the pain appears,
I will persuade myself whole.
If not today, soon.
It means more to me to let go of my pride than lose you.

It is time now-
To start respecting my empty void,
And mirror my love back to you.

I hear the waves inside me,
My ocean peers into view.
It is frigid inside.

Eyes closed,
I take the breath,
And I am swept away by the breaker.

Engulfed by water I seek to find you.
Under the rock, you do not appear.
Beside the coral, you are not near.
Blended in the sand, you elude from my finger tips.

Why can't I find you here?