It’s been difficult lately
Holding back from calling you
Opening messages but never texting you
**** I missing talking to you
We shared so much and had so little
God i need you so much
It’s been a challenge lately
When I can’t seem to escape you
For every thought is you
Haunted by not knowing what you do
Who your with
And if I’m missed
It’s been just heartbreaking lately
When I close my eyes and see your face
Waking up without you
Desperately craving your embrace
Wanting the sweetest taste
It’s been depressing lately
Wishing I had you with me
Knowing we may never be
I’ve been a mess lately
******* living insanity!

Sweet memories is all we have
Flashes of holding hands
Remembering the best of  kisses
Just for a moment young and yours
Time left us with this
And everything we missed in between
Untouched is our love
And sadly
Unfinished is our story

This isn’t what I thought love was
It just can’t be
Broken promises,
Half truths,
Hollow emotions,
And undesired touches
What the **** kind of love is this?
Love was suppose to be our safe haven
What have we done
I thought my love was enough
I thought it was real
Told you my needs, my wants
Let you know the secrets of my soul
I thought love had more depth and connection
Never asked you for much
Wasn’t given even half of what I’d given
How did this come to be?
I wanted us to live
Wanted us to love
Wanted us together
What happened to our love
Did you hear me cry?
What about my screams?
I wanted us to make it you see
I just wish you understood
Every piece of me tried for every piece of you
This love lost more then just magic
It lost its hope

Drinking again is where she’s  been
Trying to disregard what she carries within
Shot after shot, still she can not
Neglect every thought
Pretending they’re still the same
Just pour her a shot
So she can forget

She hates that she drinks
Can’t stand that she does
She need to forget but can’t help but think
She’s get wasted to avoid him

Drinking and drinking once again
Yet still she can ignore
Where together they stood
What they’d been before
And that once he was her rock
****! The very thought
Shell take another shot
She need to forget

She hates that She drinks
Can’t stand that she does
Unable to forget, get out of her head
Wasted again to avoid facing him

Drinking just a little more
With a bottle to reflect
She loved him before
Could She love him once more?
An off putting thought
She needs another shot
She must forget

She hates that She drinks
Can’t stand that she does
Unwanted thoughts, ******* up her head
Obviously wasted to avoid loving him.

Drunk at last
Empty bottle on the floor
Almost numb to her core
Powering down her thoughts
Passing out as he’s getting in
Before the unwanted touch
An anguishing  thought.
**** if only she had one more shot
She could forget once again

She hates that she drinks
Can’t stand that she does
She hardly forgets, she always thinks
She must be getting wasted to avoid ******* him too.

If I am gone tomorrow
Im sorry i had to go
Life came and went
Leaving nothing but sorrows
Don’t cry
Dry those eyes
Everything’s alright
I lived many days
And almost died many nights
I loved so deeply
And lost so many
I laughed so much
And cried worse
I existed with smiles and happy moments
Even suffered alone at some of my worst
It was an interesting life
And though it may seem brief
I am happy God gave me the chance
To love and be loved by who all I knew.
So please don’t cry
For everyone’s story comes to an end
And someday We’ll all be together again

You will feel better when I leave
No more *******
You will be so relieved
There will be no more arguing
I bet you’ll be happy
No more trying to be heard
While your lost in your phone
No more interruption
I won’t try so hard  
And you can continue to do you
I know you’d be better when I leave
No more standing in your way
You’d be free to do as you please
There will be no more crying
You would be a peace
No more having to hear me whine of needs
To your Xbox you can retreat
No more of me
So you’d be free
It’d be better for you if Id just leave.

If we could only be
I’d give you so much of me
Then you would really see
If there could be just a chance
You’d see everything you mean to me
Then we could start to romance
If I could look you in your eyes
Id let you see what I all hide
Then things would intensify
If we could only share a kiss
You’d feel my passion inside
Then We’d share infinite bliss
If we could simply have a night
Id touch you all over with my lips
Then we’d **** til the morning light
If we would have just tried
You’d have me in your arms
Then We’d both be satisfied