Is it wrong that I want him to myself? That I want to lock him in a caged like a rare bird that can fly as high as he wants to? I want him to only be mine. If it was up to me he would never leave my side because I love him. I won't let anyone touch him but me. He will never see the outside world unless I want him to. Hes so kind and warm hearted, lovable, friendly. As soon as I found him I knew what I was in for. I want him to see only me. I don't want anyone's paws to touch this delicate creature...

He's so happy without me.. What did I do to deserve to be all alone like this? I did my best.. but that wasn't enough for him.. Why though? What else did he want from me? My money.. My whole life? What does he want from me!? He just seems so happy without me.. Can someone explain this tragdey to me.. What the hell could I've done better? But somehow I'm happy for him while I die slowly of this never ending pain... Just someone anyone.. Tell me what I did to deserve this..

I can't do this crap anymore! Looking at you smile at her after leaving me makes me sick to my stomach... This isn't fair.. I open up to you then you leave me alone. But you can talk and text her every ******* day of your life. Is it wrong that I'm just on the edge of making your life a living hell? Maybe but I hope she takes your heart and hurt you so much you don't what to do.. Until then I shall of this feeling of sadness I can't get rid of.. Mixed with anger at myself.. I shouldn't have been myself.. I should have been the girl of his dreams instead of being this crazy person.. He's happy while I'm drowning faster and faster in these ******* feelings that I hate... I hate loving him. I hate it so much. I shouldn't have ever say yes to you.. I knew you were going to do this to me but instead of being smart I was stupid believing in you.. So just get hurt already..

Its only me and them. Everyone else has left me. I only have them to talk to. Why.. They are there everyday.. I can't escape even if when I want to. They hold me by my thoart looking me with their black eyes starring into my soul. They tear me down as I try to fight. I fight for my life.. But I'm losing this war. I keep failing at the mission.. There is no escape from them.

I see him across the room. I'm caught in his gaze. All I can do is just look at him. We hear each other's heart beats. No one else is in the room but us. The world around us mean nothing. I walk to him.. He walks to me. He takes my hand in his. The setting changes to a warm windy beach like in those cheesy chickflicks. My heart starts to fill with joy and warmth.. His love makes me feel human..

I don't need you anymore.. I see how you are. But you better be ready for me! I will come at you with all that I got because I won't go down so easily! I'm a fighter who  doesn't back down.. I am my own superhero I don't need you anymore.. You think I can't make it without you? Just watch and see.. You will be begging me for my love but all I will do is ignore you and laugh in your face.. So thank you for hurting me because all I will do is come back 100 times better.. I was right you don't deserve me..

What is life really? Is all about the happiness and joy you get... No that's no it. Is it the friends you make along the way.. No.. Its the mistakes you make.. You learn from them and grow into something that's so beautiful and rare everyone would want you.. You grow from these flaws and make it look amazing.. Life is like glass.. You drop it.. It goes everywhere and it hurts...

So what if I enjoy writing while you prefer to party. So what if I like black instead of pink. I am me and me only. You like to dance on guys you don't know while I write with my boyfriend who I love. You say I'm boring. I say that I'm interesting. I'm different from other people. I write poems to describe people liked you. I say these words so others know how much of a liar you are. You aren't trustworthy. So let this be a warning to you all. When people call you something just say so what. So what if I'm silent I'm focusing on how to better myself. So what?

I gave him my heart. He toyed with it.. He just broke it right in front of my face. He treated me like a dog. But I stayed. I let him tear me down bit by bit. I love him though. I could never stop loving him. I accept this pain he gives me. I tell myself he just needs someone to love. I will never give up on him because he is my one and only. I don't care how much it hurts. I will continue to love him. No matter what.

They surround me. They play with my emotions like I'm a puppet. But I go back to them when I can't take the pain from reality. I bow down and beg for them to take it away. They tell me that they will. But they need my heart and soul. I say "If that makes this pain go away." Turns out it didnt help. And now I am forced to go back to them.. I am forced to go back to that place. The place.. The place we call our thoughts.