dark hair dark eyes
pale skin, red lipstick
cast a spell upon me
slave to desire, victim of passion
i am yours to command
for at first glance you had my body
and at second you had my soul

one can't begin to imagine
the haunted feeling i had
when you said no, turned
walked away
never giving me a chance
giving us a chance
leaving the opportunity of a lifetime on the table

nothing beats the pain
that a missed opportunity leaves
because you will never know
if maybe, things would've been glorious
a perfect ending
to the perfect beginning
but one can never find out

i want my future to be filled with warmth, comfort food, laughs that make me double over,soul satisfying feel it radiate out of my stomach love making, sweet smells, clean air, serene peace, roaring joy, i have so much fun on my own but i miss you just as much when you're gone, apple of your eye each day is a new height, let us grow in this, let our dedication shape this and our faith make this, you may now kiss your bride. gathered together giving thanks to the most high, his love is ours, we stand in power, we strengthen in pain, what good is the world to gain?the only thing that keeps me sane, my tongue sings the sweetest name, were fearfully and wonderfully made,the ultimate sacrifice was made, flesh of my flesh bone of my bone, your body is my home, the journey back to what once was.love.

spent all last night cursing his name and
finally yours, when i'd gotten over pounding that
dent in my pillow, it's because
you're blind as a ******* bat and can't you see past that
nose of yours
i question you?
that night you languished in the dim light
of the all-night pizza shop, bragged about
all the cheerleaders you'd like to bang if
they'd actually date you
and i cried laughed watched your eyes
on the cracked red bench of the booth
we sat.

of course, it's because
you turned a clouded eye to me and when
he slammed words on his computer just for me,
i'm a *****, laughable he said, you never
looked and you never saw to stand from your
drunk rat stoop to say
a word for me

spent all last night grinding your
name into my pillow, you didn't know and
never will.

Your eyes spoke words that no one could ever say
And your lips looked like solitude on the bridge over rain  
Your soul radiates care because you can sense pain
You saw through my scars yet you never said a thing
It's funny how 5 seconds could change the way you think
Because you're the only one who saw my white lies  in a blink.