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 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
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Scarden
 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
ve
bus ride
wendys
baseball field
my house
then the park

on top of the hill
the bench,
our first kiss
we weren't ready but it felt so right
we had to be together
i wanted you
you wanted me
but need?

a couple days later.
our first date
a movie of course
16 and broke, generic
it's okay, as long as it's with you
the hobbit
good movie, better kisses
i noticed how your nose sloped down a tad
i love your nose
i will forever love your nose
i still love your nose by the way

1 week
1 am
in my room,
on my bed,
sleep-talking...
you woke me up
"hey.. you said you loved me,
do you?"
was it wrong?
that's how i felt
too fast?  but you felt it too
you asked me out
nope, oops

3 weeks
Scarden
we were sledding with my brother
my sister and my best friend
that was the best day ever
i was filled with happiness
i'll never forget it
you made me smile so much and so long
my cheeks started to hurt
we went down the hill, so fast
snow to our faces, we laughed
cold, but you're with me so it's okay
i love you

1 month, 3 weeks
january 22
will you be my girlfriend?
yes,
i will
i love you
i meant it

spring came
eh, it was the same

but i don't remember now
where am i?
where did you go?
why?
my memories are slipping away
i want you to stay
please
stay

give me one last try
what am i doing?
i feel pathetic
begging over the internet
it's already over
you called it, you argue that you're not good enough
what???
what.
no... you're perfect.. i don't underst-

i'm not okay
if you loved me, why'd you go?
i'm slipping, i want to remember
i can't
why not?

my mind says don't look
my heart says get through
as they argue, i say
just let me sleep my day away
I'm glad that I woke up this morning
But I'm tired of feeling alone
Like I'm a monster who isn't worthy of having her king or her throne
I'm glad I have a sense of humor and people love my smile
Even though I feel worthy I haven't been in your eyes for awhile

Do you really think it gives me joy to feel
Like an old toy you just keep around

Did you really think that you could keep staying out all night and  that I would just sit around

There was a time that I needed you
Although I may still
I want more than this
More than asking you to feel a way you don't or can't
It gives me the chills

If you think I'm an evil ***** there's no point but i still try and explain
I know you've been in pain but you aren't the only one

You aren't dismissed
I know you tried but it's too late

I was wrong
I'm sorry,
but I also have a choice
and I can't be your  entertainment while you wander the streets with others

No I prefer to be alone
 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
Lizzy
One day when you're lost
And you do not want to live
Just remember me
 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
Lizzy
Numb
 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
Lizzy
When you've reached the point
Where you can't even cry
And you don't feel anything anymore

It's more frightening
Than the most sorrowful of sorrows
Because it means you've given up
I'm building a house,
with my own two hands.

The kitchen is empty,
the walls sigh,
their breath is restful,
the oven serenades.

I can taste the sweetness in the air,
it rings softly as trees billow,
willows casting shadows,
their tears hang in the air.

A bulwark,
shelter from the storm,
I am alone,
but I do not feel lonely,
I am home.

I have made a home,
with my own two hands.
A.P. Beckstead (2013)
The pain you cause,
it might as well be thorns down my throat.
My heart you broke,
I should have seen a mile away.
you say to me,
"baby, I love you see."
I simply reply
"Then why all the lies....?"
 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
ve
one day
 Oct 2013 Amir Jakupi
ve
"One day baby, we'll never have to leave each other"
That was a lie

"You're the only one I want, we'll get though this"
We didn't start to try

"One day- "
Shh...

I don't want to forget how to love
It's not fair for those who care
I've lost myself, it started with love
Love didn't turn me bitter and cold
Living in my head has
Stuck in the past and the future
I've caused more grief for myself than you ever did
I'm missing the present
I don't want to be shrouded in resentment and misery
        I don't want to be defined as "sad"
I need to let go of the hurt and pain.
I need to embrace the heartache
My hurt heart only means that loves still survives..
I'm still capable to love,
this is why I feel pain

One day the love I've given will return to me again
One day someone will reciprocate the same amount of love I'm capable of
Who? I don't know
But one day I'll find someone who loves me for me
and won't give up
One day I'll be able to say the same loving words that's been said to me
and I won't hurt anybody

One day I'll be happy
One day you'll just be a memory
and a lesson
Thank you

One day you'll find someone too
I love you
I felt like I was starting to let go when I wrote this.
A couple hours later... I'm not sure how I feel.  
Do I want you or not?
Her eyes are wide open
why can't she see

The beauty of life
overwhelming it seems

Wide open her eyes
her heart is free

Still blind in the shadows
awareness is key!!
I found more truth in your touch,
Than in any book I'd ever read.

And I felt more at home in your company,
Than I did in my own skin, without you.
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