There's nothing to be fear of .

As something that I have feared most ,
Already happened .

Him leaving ,
Him loving someone else .

~ W.X ~

Everyone thought she was actually strong enough to get over him .

What they didn't know was that ..

The smile on her face that they saw everyday was a smile that she faked .

How many times had she wanted to break down when the slightest flashback of him appeared on her mind .

How every night all she wanted was to die and be away from this pain , this torture .

No one could understand her feelings ,

No one knows what's on her mind .

She remain silent and slowly ,
She's turning into a monster ,
That she could rarely recognize who she is .
She was no longer the one that gets her heart broken by someone ,
But in the other way round ,
The heartbreaker .

~ W.X ~

" the most unexpected relationship was the best one "

That's what they said and it's true .

He appeared in her life and loved her at the most unexpected timing .

He was what everything she wanted ,
But she left in the end ,
Because she wanted for more  ,
It's a fact that humans are greedy .

She thought he would never stop choosing her ,
She was wrong ,
When she wanted him back ,
She didn't realize that he was long gone .

There's no turning back , only full of regrets .

~ W.X ~

" I wouldn't leave unless someday you cheat on me , or do something that is unacceptable " that's what he said .

At the end of the day , it wasn't her who cheated , it wasn't her who has done anything wrong , it wasn't her who left .

It was him .
She thought that she could have him belonged to her for long time ,
She even made plans for their future .
It was unexpected ,
It was a harsh reality that she had to accept .
That he left .

~ W.X ~

Every time she knew something happened to him ,
She wanted to give him a call or a text ,
Wanting him to know that life might be tough ,
Things might not go his way ,
But it doesn't matter what happens ,
She just wanted him to know that ,
She would be there for him ,
Through his happiest moments of life ,
Or through his darkest moments ,
She then realize ,
He doesn't belong to her anymore ,
He belongs to another her now ,
Everything has changed
And he left long time ago ,
Before she could even realize that it happened .

~ W.X ~

' Find someone new ' , that's what they said .
But they never know that , whenever I found someone new ,
No matter how much the other party puts in effort ,
It doesn't feel right ,
Because the he that was there ,
Wasn't the he that I wanted ,
He was one in a million ,
And he left .

~ W.X ~

I tried forgetting you ,
Forgetting how you would say ' hello '
Forgetting how you smell ,
Forgetting how you tease me ,
Forgetting how you would hug me at the most random times ,
Forgetting how you would actually hug me so tight that I couldn't breathe ,
Forgetting how you would kiss me so hard that I didn't know whose air im breathing ,
Forgetting how you would hug me to sleep ,
Forgetting how you would cook for me at the most random hours when all I say was ' I'm a little hungry '
I want to forget everything about you ,
Forget all the moments we had ,
I then realize I'll never be able to do that ,
That was because ,
You're one in a million .
Sadly , you've forgotten me within seconds .
Like I was nothing ,
While to me ,
You were everything ,
That I want to remember .

~ W.X ~