we were
a tornado of feeling
of love
and of lust
but you
left me
lying there in the debris
while you
whisked away to your
next target

it makes me sad '***
i kinda knew
i kinda expected it

so this
this is heartbreak
feeling everything
and nothing

sometimes you just feel ugly: inside and out. and there's nothing you can do about it. no amount of makeup can mask your insecurity and no empty laughter can disguise it. you feel desperately and utterly helpless to the demons in your mind whispering, "you are not enough, you will never be enough." and your brain is yelling and your heart is thumping and your feet are running but you
are
smiling.
why?
because that's what you've always done.

you always asked me
not to break your heart
what kind of sick joke
was that?

i know we live in florida and there's not much change in the seasons but october came and with it, a slight breeze and i'd like to think that's what you are to me. you didn't chill me to the core but you provided a wave of relief. i didn't need someone to alter my being, just to hold my hand as i did it myself. and with that slight change in the weather, you changed me a little. so let's cuddle in your sweater until it hits midday, then we can go for a swim and as we peel off layers of clothing maybe let's peel off the masks we show to the world and be raw and reckless human beings.

i never thought i'd be the idiot,
the hopeless romantic
i should have know
you've swept too many girls off their feet
how could you possibly be strong enough
to carry me?