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Nov 2013 Amelia

down

Nov 2013 Amelia

typhany

down

there are
six-hundred ways
to get ****** up
and i am stuck
and conflicted
and sober

once you get that high,
there is no where to go
but down...
       down...
       down...

in weight
in grades
in friends
in money
in days

but you don't care
(unless you're sober)
so you stay
******
until you're forced to stop
                                or
                                until
                                you
                                are
                                                                     dead.

Nov 2013 Amelia

i knew you would premutation

Nov 2013 Amelia

John Smith

i knew you would premutation

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For

Nov 2013 Amelia

Reflections (What I've Learned In College)

Nov 2013 Amelia

Showman

Reflections (What I've Learned In College)

I've learned that happiness
cannot be found in the form of a little
purple capsule.
I've learned that Pisa will have to wait until next time.
I've learned that the third mushroom
held in my sweaty palm was not as
big a deal compared to the other two opening my mind.
I've learned that a part of me
died that night where we ****** in a
room with no furniture.
I've learned that life is work and that
the molotov cocktail of Dubrah and eay mac
that came spewing from me left an orange tang
upon the floor.
I've learned that pain is better than numbness
and that jabbing a sewing needle repeatedly in my arm
was an educated decision.
Most importantly I've learned that together we are better than alone.

Nov 2013 Amelia

Friday

Nov 2013 Amelia

Elizabeth Marie

Friday

I told her I love her
and I'm just glad
It's the end of the week
because she said it too.

Nov 2013 Amelia

Facade

Nov 2013 Amelia

AB

Facade

Its all a facade

Lipstick on filthy, putrid swine.
A silk tapestry gently lain
on a steaming pile of ****.

You live in a house of cards,
tread lightly, or it'll all collapse.

Nov 2013 Amelia

bp

Nov 2013 Amelia

Cheyenne Najee

bp

I am thick and proud
I have thighs that do not always fit into my jeans
my arms are not made for sleeveless tops
everyone told me my face was too round for a short hair cut
but I disregarded their warnings
because I know that I will never be happy
unless I wear short sleeves in the summer
and cut off all my hair sometimes
i do not have to listen to anyone's opinion of myself that puts me down
because I am perfect as I am

❤❤❤

Oct 2013 Amelia

Our Love is like a Cancer

Oct 2013 Amelia

Ann Eiden

Our Love is like a Cancer

Our love is like a cancer.
I’m fighting for my life again.

Stage One.

The first time you appeared,
you filled my brain with affection,
that felt as if it were like oxygen,
a necessity for my survival.

You came on to me,
fast and overpowering,
feelings I hadn’t felt before,
you and only you is what I grasp onto.
I can’t eat but slowly you consume me.

Our love is like a cancer.
I’m fighting for my life again.

Stage Two.

I like turns into I love,
my affection for you is growing like a sponge,
soaking up every bit you can give to me.

Little did I know you were a poisonous being,
embedding yourself into my brain you ***** wretch,
clouding my emotions by threading my prefrontal cortex with detrimental lies.

Our love is like a cancer.
I’m fighting for my life again.

Stage Three.

The symptoms are there,
yelling loud and clear like an angry father,
when curfew wasn’t met.

My reality becomes evident when I see your hand in hers,
I become trapped in an ache that I can internally feel,
and that others can physically see in my figure.
I decide to cut you out like a surgeon
and try to mend the pieces that are severed.

Our love is like a cancer.
I’m fighting for my life again.

Stage Four.

I try to heal but it seems to be no use,
the ache persists not only in my head,
but has spread to my heart.
My body is conquered by chemical reactions like chemotherapy,
trying to wipe out the memories we have created and disease you are to me.

But still my body, my soul is weak and fragile
like a dry leaf in autumn,
crumbling,
only after time will it be able to remise.

Our love is like a cancer.
I’m fighting for my life again.

Remission.

You are vacant from me,
but you will always linger.

Oct 2013 Amelia

Pyre Shrugs

Oct 2013 Amelia

Tess B

Pyre Shrugs

We speak in kindled words
And pyre shrugs
Every silence to be broken
With black, charred lungs
And smoldered tongues.

Oct 2013 Amelia

lemonade stand

Oct 2013 Amelia

esther

lemonade stand

"i think that it's
a cold day
for lemonade,"
i said
and he just shrugged
we were silent
but i didn't care
because when the
wind blew
he would still be
beside me