patching the cracks and crevices
inflicted on the walls,
he puts no effort into fixing them

but somehow
its all starting to smooth out perfectly
the deep gashes start to close
and abundant flowers grow
from the worst seams
his  green eyes flutter
and he just stands and watches

in awe, in amazement, in bliss
he steps back from his masterpiece
so beautiful and complete
he grabs her by the waist
and kisses her with all of the
passion he has generated
over the 20 years of living
without someone to love

a.d

can’t see through the clouds surrounding my mind
my stomach aches and burns for answers
answers i feel i may never find under my skin

to this day, my mind still spins and throbs
so rapidly that i travel back into time
the time where i’d live each day with
frigid insides, turning a darker shade
of blue each day while my heart
went away to learn how to function
without any blood

without any emotion
i survived off of the tears of my
loved ones, since i ran dry
long, long ago

a.d

when the sun forgets to come up
if you don’t know who you’ve become
revert back to what’s kept you alive
the things that helped you survive
even through the toughest of times
stay true to yourself for your lifetime

fight for the things dearest to you
keep them for when your hearts blue
follow the instincts you swear are wrong
and you will find where you belong
forget those days of being so depressed
that you throw up until you see stars
or when you smoke 4 whole cigars
utilize your beautiful strengths;
your heart will follow, to unmeasurable
lengths

a.d

completely alone but accompanied
bitter but somewhat lively
the feeling is indescribable
how does it make any sense?
cut out all the feelings from my
dark heart, but still i want more
a piece that can no longer be ignored
but what is it going to take?

i do not wish for everlasting love
since i always shove it away
i do not wish for material
since i have more than i need
too often i get lost in my thoughts
like being in a thick evergreen forest
whirring and whipping around me
as i’m running in the same circles
thick wind caress my numb flesh
i must find the way out
i have to get out

a quest for my desires awaits me
although unsure of the exact path
or my method of adventure
i wont shut my heavy eyes
nor stop to smell the flowers
until i find where i truly belong
where my blissful future awaits
and where my mind and soul will
finally achieve the pure harmony
i’ve always been searching for

a.d

the wind whips and whirls
through my sea of brunette locks
and I look out to the horizon
thinking back to when I shared
that beautiful view with a warm heart
and green eyes that were just like
the sway of emerald seaweed
so gentle and alive

waves crash down around me
and mists my pale face
and I can’t help but think
“what a beautiful disgrace”

a.d

the smell of beer covers me
and I’m flushed with anger
thinking to when it was “we”
my flesh feels like rug burn
my eyes, sinking like anchors

my head spins and spins
deep in my skin I feel
nothing but numbness
my mind will never win
this constant battle with
my intoxicated thoughts

nothing around makes sense
to an unsober mind
yet for just a few seconds I
don’t have a single thought
in my whirling mind
and I feel bliss, remembering
why I decided to pick up
the green can to begin with

a.d

she was like ice
so calm and quiet,
but cold to the touch.
she made you shake
as if you had frostbite,
but in the best way.
even her beautiful gaze
made you freeze and gasp
for another breath.
her frosted eyes
pierced through yours,
but melted when you
grabbed her hand.
a look of fear flashed
as her ice soul
began to melt.
the touch was electrifying
and so she shattered,
but you can still see
her mesmerizing, mysterious
baby blue eyes

a.d