disappointment is like that 7th glass of ***** you shot back.
in the beginning, the transparent liquid seems enticing, your heart beats
with new rhythm. (your glands water, your pupils dilate)
1 shot in, it burns…but slowly disappears.
instantly your brain forgets, your vein longs for the torture
2nd shot in, the burn is like fire, your lips smack with disgust
but you can’t stop there
3rd shot in, you taste the gasoline at the pit of your stomach,
fueling the flame that you know will eventually eat you alive
4th shot in, your brain is sending signals, telling you to jump
while you still can, but your arteries silence it, and all you can do
is laugh
5th shot in, people’s faces blur, your tongue is thick with regret.
your stomach is ready to empty the lies you previously swallowed
6th shot in, the floor moves. you have to hold a chair to steady yourself. people’s voices sound like boom boxes at full volume. you cover your ears to stop the pain
7th shot in, you’re on the ground, watching the ceiling float away. you
feel the previous shots try to find a way out.
disappointment hid itself in that 7th shot, entering your bloodstream quick and painless. you are lethargic, your head pounds like construction during a too early of a morning.
you sink into the couch, into the carpet, trying to regain previous emotions, movements.
disappointment travels your veins, gleeful with the free ride, the new
habitat.
(at some point, you’ll have to get rid of him)